In the Mind of a Child

By K. Rareheart

The book is a true story about what went through the author's mind as he was growing up from a baby of just 6 months old and the traumatic effects it all had through his childhood and through his life. Loosing his own children later in life and experiencing being homeless, broken marriages, and fighting cancer.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Leavitt Peak Press
• Release date: May 20, 2024
• ISBN: 9781964462240

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In the Mind of a Child

Book 1

K. Rareheart

Copyright 2024 by K. Rareheart

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Intro

This book is about a child age: 6 months old,

Called: Brian,

Threw his childhood, and his teenage years and

Brian will be sharing his thoughts and feelings.

From the Children’s home where he started life

And as he was growing up in his new home with a

Salvation Army Family

Although: in the beginning he was,

Lost in a World of Confusion

And Bewilderment and a deep sadness in his hart,

The Despair and the anger of what was happening to him,

And the things around him

And trying to understand the reasons for it all.

For over half a century.

Chapter 1

My 1st Look at Life.

It was in the middle of the night when Brian, and his brother, Kevin was rushed into Hospital with a Rear Disease, Kevin had been very ill for the first year of his life.

And that’s the reason why Kevin and Brian, where put into Care in the first place,

Was because their real Mum and Dad Could not cope with it all,

But Kevin and Brian did not know that until 10 years later.

Brian was thinking at the time, what is going on, and who all these people?

that have come here are and what do they won’t with Mum & Dad, Brian was put into a car and taken away.

The two boys went into a children’s home many mils away from their place of birth in the midlands, by the time Brian arrived at the home it was late at night, and Brian was fast asleep in the back of the car.

Kevin was still in the Hospital back in his hometown and was brought to the children’s home some months later.

Something in Brian’s mind told him that this was not his home, and he had got a strange feeling in his inner self, as Brian woke up and looked around, he was confused at this place and wondered, why he had just suddenly been dumped in this god forsaken smelly nosey place.

As Brian looked around to see just where he was he could see the shapes of the other cots in the early morning daylight as Brian can vividly rambler, the walls where two tone green with a wooden da-do-rail around the walls, the floors were a wooden blocks flooring and highly polished, the doors where big oak doors with rounded tops.

This is the sort of thing what went on in Brian’s mind, throw his childhood and into Manhood.

During the night Brian woke up a bit bewildered, in a large room with strange dark shapes and he could hear whimpering coming from other parts of the room he realised that he was no longer alone he was in a room full of other children, in rows of cots in long lines,

Brian was frightened as he had no idea why he was in this place with 40 or more children all in the other cots.

The children’s home was in Darlington Co Durham.

Brian had been in the home on his one for just over 14 weeks by than Brian was about 6 months old,

When his brother Kevin joined Brian in the home, but Kevin was still quite ill but getting better as the days and weeks went on,

When Kevin was nearly 18 months old, and Brian was just 1 year old, at that time in their young lives,

Brian had just started to take things in around him, when Brian was interdict to another boy called Kevin, unknown to Brian at that time he had no idea that he had a brother curled, Kevin, who had been in Hospital to start with secretly ill, the rare daises that in the 50s could not be queered at the time,

But a Dr did find a queer for Kevin, quite by mistake, but the Dr that queered Kevin of these rare daises, sadly he contracted the daises and much later died of it himself. †RIP

The next morning after breakfast, Brian was put on the floor and left on his one, in the hall way Brian sore a door open across the hall way, so he crowed across and as he got closer to the opened door, he sore into the giant size room, big square shapes, as Brian got closer to the door he could see that the shapes where big boxes full of toys, by the time Brian got to the room door, he could see some of the other children were already in the room playing with the toys, so Brian thought maybe this is not such a bad place to be after all, as he went into the room,

Brian went into the room, and he could see the big box where full of Toy’s.

There where Toy’s all over the floor and it was there Brian found a lot more children just like him lost and on there one,

I careened crawled over to one of the big toy boxes and pulled himself up so he was now standing, for the first time,

Brian looked into the big toy box and he could hardly believe my eyes to see it was full to the top with 100s of toys all the boxes were, as he put his hand into the toy box, and started to pull out some of the toys, a bigger child came over to him and took the toy that Brian was holding out of my hand, and he said, mine, so Brian tried again but, the boy did the same thing,

It was than Brian sore a broken red car, as he pulled it from the box the boy tried to take it of me again, but Brian had a tight grip of it the car, but the boy still tried to take it of Brian, so Brian snatched the car out of the boys hand, and hit him with it, the boy went of crying he left Brian alone after that.

Six months had now gone by, and Brian was now 16-month-old, Brian was sitting in the middle of the hall-way floor on my one, he still did not know that his brother Kevin was now well,

Brian still with his broken red car, looking around at his new home he could see there was five massive steps going down to the big oak front doors,

Brian was feeling very un-cunfatble his nappy was leaking on the floor, but one of the people that worked there come to his rescue and gave me a nice clean dry bum again,

But after all the time Brian had been in the home, Brian was under the impression that no one wanted him?

And was feeling so very alone and unwanted, very hart by the things going on in his mind people came to the children’s home and going away again,

Sometimes they took a child with them, and Kevin and Brian were left behind as always,

O how Brian craved the love by his Mum and Dad, who never came to get him.

And Brian just could not work out why.

Brian felt so alone, and very sad and unhappy what had I done that was so bad that my Mum & Dad would abandon me in this way, Brian’s little heart was braking.

Just a few weeks later Brian was in the hallway when there was a knock on the door,

one of the matrons went to answer the door, the door correct as it opened, at the door there was the Browne’s from Darlington S.A. (Salvation Army), they had come to see the children’s home for the afternoon, Brian was picked up by one of the Browne’s and we played all afternoon, it was great to have someone to play with instead of being on my one all the time.

It came time for the Browne’s to go, but Brian didn’t want them to go away, but they went any way, just like everyone ells that came to the children’ home so what’s new alone again.

But two of the girls when they went back home that day told their Mum and Dad all about the little boy all on his one in the hall of the children’s home and how unhappy he was all alone.

And just two weeks later there was another nock at the door, this time it was a middle-aged couple and two of the Browne’s,

that had come a couple of weeks before this time they had come to see about the little boy that was one his one the day the Browne’s came to visit, they were taken onto the office,

While they were in the office the two Browne’s played with Brian in the toy room.

And it was there they were told that the little boy in question had a brother how was in

Hospital with a Rear dieses and that he had just been queued of it but the Dr that queued him had now got the dieses and had since done of it, but the other little boy was doing very well, and should be out of the Hospital soon in the 3/4 days or so all being well,

The couple had already decided that they would Adopted/foster, both boy’s any way, A couple of weeks later the couple came back to the home.

I was thinking hollow there back!

I wonder what they are doing back, was this couple my Mum and Dad come to get me.

After all this time.

Although I did not have a clue what it all meant, or how it was going to affect me later in life.

Brian had just found out that he was not alone after all, I have got a brother, Kevin and he had just come out of the Hospital a week before whatever that meant.

Two of the Browne’s that came to visit all throws weeks ago for the day, had come back and staid with my Brother Kevin and me, and played with us for a while until the couple came back down the stairs, they picked us both up and said, come on boys you are coming to live with us at our house, and of we went we were put into their car an Austin A40 as we sat in the back of the car with, J and Hazel our new sisters we were whisked off to our new home, we had no idea what to expect, I remember how frightened I was going off into the unknown, but J and Hazel gave us both lots of hugs and kisses,

I expect Kevin was feeling the same as me; it was both frightening confusing and exiting at the same time.

It was a cold February morning the ground was covered with a thick layer of snow, and I had never seen snow before it was wonderful to see everything was covered in snow, as we all got into the car of our new Mum and Dad, and drove out of the countryside, and into the town of Darlington threw the main

high street and just past a large park, our new mum told, you are going to live near one of the biggest parks in Darlington it called South Park, and we will take you to