Pent Up Thoughts
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"Pent Up Thoughts" is a remarkable collection of journaled thoughts, messages, and poems that shine a captivating light on the complex depths of mental health and self-care. This book beckons readers to take a soul-stirring voyage, delving into the complexities of anxiety, depression, self-love and acceptance, relationships, coping mechanisms, healing, and the widespread stigmas surrounding mental health. Divided into six sections, each part sheds light on an indispensable angle of the mental well-being experience, beautifully intertwined with self-care, resilience, and hope topics. This collection seeks to provide solace, inspiration, and a sense of connection to those battling mental health challenges or searching for a deeper understanding of the human experience and themselves.
James B. Agape
Born and raised in Nairobi, Kenya, James B. Agape discovered solace in writing back in 2017, using it as an outlet to cope with life's challenges. However, it wasn't until recently that he decided to share his introspective musings, messages, and poetry with the world. His debut collection, "Pent Up Thoughts," delves into the themes of anxiety, depression, self-love, healing, and the stigma surrounding mental illness—issues he has personally grappled with throughout much of his adult life. James firmly believes that writing and self-expression require no formal qualifications; all it takes is a genuine desire to welcome readers into one's world through the power of words.
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Pent Up Thoughts - James B. Agape
Journaled Thoughts, Messages, and Poems By: James B. Agape
Whispers of Restless Shadows
This section basically delves into the winding nature of anxiety and depression, capturing my raw emotions and struggles of living with these conditions. It offers a nuanced portrayal of my inner battles and the weight of invisible burdens that I often have to endure on a daily basis.
Recovery is not a straight line, but every setback is a lesson in resilience. Keep going, keep growing, and keep fighting for the life you deserve.
Believe you’re worthy of existing.
Living with anxiety or depression,
Can make life seem like a huge confusion.
It's like walking on a tightrope,
Always feeling like you might just lose hope.
The challenges can seem insurmountable,
The pain and fear almost unbearable.
But with each step you take,
You build resilience and strength to move forward.
There are days you'll feel like you're drowning,
But reaching out is better than frowning.
Talking to someone can ease the weight,
And help you see there is still hope to create.
With each sunrise is a new story to write,
A chance to embrace the light.
The struggles you face are part of your journey,
But with resilience, you'll find your victory.
The triumphs may be small,
But each one is a step toward a win.
Managing anxiety or depression,
Is not easy, but with time you'll find a new expression.
Don't give up or feel like you're alone,
You're not and the seeds of hope are sown.
With each step, you take a victory you gain,
And before long, the strength of your will reigns.
There are times when I cling to happiness, and like a shot of whiskey, I consume it and feel its intensity within my heart and depraved soul in its entirety, and like waking from a dream, I awaken to my weary reality that’s riddled with sadness, pain, and emptiness. I can’t escape it, and so I try to manage my unhinged thoughts, which for the most part drive me insane only because I’m aware that reality is constant and inescapable.
Anxiety, a constant companion by my side,
Telling me I'll never be enough, no matter how much I try.
Depression, a heavy cloud above my head,
Whispering that I'm better off staying in bed.
A constant battle rages within,
A storm that rages without end.
Anxiety and depression, my lifelong foe,
Always lurking, always near, never letting go.
My mind, a battlefield fraught with doubt,
Invisible chains holding me down, pulling me about.
Every breath is a struggle, every thought a fight,
A long and arduous journey into the night.
But amidst the darkness, a flicker of light,
A guiding star shining through the gloom.
A glimmer of hope, a glint of steel,
The power within to conquer all that I feel.
Taking care of your mental health isn’t a luxury; it's a priority. A necessity, if you will. Don't wait until you're struggling to prioritize your well-being. Although I might say that there are days when I indulge myself in work until late into the night to avoid what I’m feeling inside, sadly, it's only a partial remedy because my thoughts are always with me, ever present, never relinquishing their thirst for tormenting me.
The weight of the world rests heavy on my chest
Every breath is a struggle, a constant test
Anxiety grips me, a vice around my throat
Depression lingers, a storm cloud that won't float
I try to shake it off, to find some peace
But these demons within won't seem to cease
They follow me everywhere, day and night
A haunting presence that won't take flight
I put on a brave face, a smile to disguise
The turmoil raging beneath my eyes
But the facade cracks and I feel exposed
All the pain, the fear, now fully disclosed
Living with anxiety or depression,
Is like being trapped in a never-ending dimension.
Every day is filled with fear,
And the struggle is always nearby.
It’s like a storm that brews within,
A whirlwind of emotions that's hard to win.
But with each step, I take a leap of faith,
Hoping to find a way out of this scary space.
I yearn to break away and savor life,
To bask in all the pleasures that make my soul thrive.
But I know it's a voyage that takes time,
Thus, I shall not give up hope and keep pushing on, divine.
With loved ones and kindred spirits by my side,
And the fortitude that I keep in me, deep inside,
I'll keep gleaming like a star, oh so bright,
Through every hurdle that I overcome with might.
If you feel lost and alone,
Just remember that you aren’t by yourself.
You have the strength to keep on fighting,
And soon, you'll overcome this struggle, and everything will be alright again.
To this day, I get so antsy and anxious at the thought of opening WhatsApp, Gmail, and Instagram. To the point where I have more or less done away with WhatsApp and my family and friends have to call to reach me. Don’t get me started with emails. You never quite know what to expect,