The Word No One Wants to Speak: Incest: A Healing Journey
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Loretta Joy Powers
At age forty-two Loretta Joy Powers began to have memories of the abuse she had experienced from age three months to age six years. When she was in her early forties, the suppressed memories of incest began to come to the surface. Slowly with weekly private therapy and group sessions for a period for two years, memories were shared and healing gradually occurred. This book tells of the journey.
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The Word No One Wants to Speak - Loretta Joy Powers
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ISBN: 978-1-6657-5572-6 (sc)
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ISBN: 978-1-6657-5573-3 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2024901451
Archway Publishing rev. date: 04/09/2024
CONTENTS
Preface
Introduction
Part I The Healing Journey Begins
Essay 1 The First Suspicion Of Abuse
Essay 2 Repressed Memories
Essay 3 Hints Of Hidden Memories
Essay 4 Threats That Insure Silence
Part II Stories For Healing
Story 1 Grandma In The Hallway
Essay Grandma’s Fear
Story 2 Flowers For Mothers’ Day
Essay Generation After Generation
Story 3 Dancing For Daddy
Essay Deception By Distraction
Story 4 Quitting Dancing School
Essay Children Tell In Ways Besides Words
Story 5 Consulting The Doctor
Essay What You Don’t Know Will Hurt You
Story 6 Time To Start Nursery School
Essay Nursery School Social Skills
Story 7 A Child’s Prayer
Essay The Structure Of Families
Part III Therapy: The Journey To Wholeness
Story 8 A Daughter’s Revenge
Essay The Truth Is Better Than Lies
Story 9 If Your Father Were Alive Now
Essay Story 9 Hidden Love Revealed
Story 10 Four Steps To Forgetting
Essay Story 10 Memories Revealed In Therapy
Story 11 The Kerosene Lamp
Essay Freedom From Fears
Story 12 Hurting Hands
Essay Body Memories: Hope For Healing
Story 13 Children Arriving For Therapy
Essay 13 No Longer Alone: The Benefit Of Therapy
Part IV What We Need To Know To Heal
Essay 5 The Need For A Therapist
Essay 6 Triggers To Past Pain
Essay 7 Perpetrators Never Tell The Truth
Essay 8 The Purpose Of Reliving The Trauma
Essay 9 If Sexual Abuse Happened To You
Essay 10 Dissociation
Essay 11 Putting An End To Incest
Epilogue
Svetlana Prudovskaya
Fairytales don’t tell children that dragons exist; children already know that dragons exist. Fairytales tell children that dragons can be killed.
—G. K. Chesterton
PREFACE
The word incest has become less and less taboo during the past few decades. Yet it is still a frightening word that fosters shame and secrecy. For those in the process of uncovering hidden memories of childhood sexual abuse, this book will help. It will also help resolve the inevitable upheaval in family dynamics that follows when such memories are openly revealed. If the average person became aware of the signs and behaviors of perpetrators and abused children, he or she would have the courage to intervene. Humanity would be able to put a stop to this abuse. That is my intent.
The stories you will read in this book are of my own childhood, the characters my own family. Like many other women whom I met in group therapy sessions, I first had access to my memories at age forty-two. During the healing process, my understanding of the development of my own character became clear. I was not the shy child
my family often described to strangers. I was a traumatized child, abused on a regular basis and suppressing all memory of that abuse in order to survive. When memories did start to come to the surface, I was fortunate enough to find a therapist who specialized in healing from incest.
In a family where incest occurs, everyone in the family, from the abuser to the relatives, unknowingly allows the abuse to continue for years. Decades later, when they are told about it, some family members may not be able to accept the truth that it happened, while others may provide support for the victim and seek help for themselves as well. That would be ideal.
This book provides support for healing incest. Healing means not only exposing the secret of the abuse, even when you’re not yet sure it really happened, but also receiving encouragement from a therapist who specializes in incest. The therapist will help the victim explore memories and regain the original feelings, which were likely repressed at the time of the event. If you are a victim, re-experiencing those feelings that occurred when the abuse happened will unlock doors to all the feelings in your present life as well. What you feel, you can heal.
Healing is a journey of remembering memories long repressed and sharing them with your therapist, who becomes your guide and comfort. As a survivor of incest, you are embarking on a difficult journey, but a journey far better than living in the wake of a tornado you don’t clearly remember, walking through the rubble under a cloud of shame you cannot understand, and continually coping with aftereffects you cannot name. Facing reality is much better than continuing to repress it. You gain the freedom to be yourself, to be open and honest in relationships, and to understand at depth the amazing person you really are. You are a survivor!
This is not an easy book to read, just as some movies are not easy to watch. Both have scenes that children should not see and adults cannot view comfortably. Incest includes trauma that grips a child into silence and silences a family in fear. Determination to know the truth is all you need to gain the freedom this information provides.
I invite you to use this book in any way you prefer. Some people like to open to a page somewhere in a book and start reading. This is not a novel; there is no plot. So go ahead, trust your intuition. I have trusted mine in writing it. The door is open, please come in. Welcome.
INTRODUCTION
No family welcomes the task of healing incest. In the past, generations of sexually abused women and men have kept the secret and exchanged their lives from potentially joyful to dreary, frightening, and unfulfilled. In our time, therapists began specializing in incest. Famous people, Oprah Winfrey for one, exposed this childhood trauma to the media. We now have permission to speak about it and heal from it.
I wrote this book primarily for the person who suspects that something like this may have happened. This person may harbor uncomfortable feelings about a particular family member, probably someone everyone in the family likes and appreciates, but there is a secret side. I know from experience. My father was well liked by everyone, but I didn’t shed a tear when I was fourteen years old looking at his casket. I was numb to feelings. Tears came years later with the memories of incest. Then I mourned the childhood I was never allowed to experience.
The reader I have in mind is someone who is just beginning to remember the long-repressed abuse or has the feeling of a memory about to surface. The person may be extremely sensitive to incidents of control over children. An incident of a mother reprimanding a child in public might cause this former victim to be very upset, an experience I had one day standing in line at a bank when a mother yanked her toddler’s arm, and the child began crying. An incest victim, having no conscious memory of abuse, might react strongly and want to get away from such situations. He or she would also be extremely uncomfortable watching any kind of torture or victimization in, for example, a movie.
Then one day a memory starts to come to the surface. It may be just a flash, a few seconds of foreboding. It can include a feeling of fear followed by no feeling at all. Absolute numbness. This could be a hint of hidden memories about to be revealed. The time has come. For some reason, the former victim now feels safe enough to begin healing.
While writing this book, I became aware of how many other people in the family would need help once incest becomes a viable topic. So, this book is not just for the incest survivor, it’s for everyone connected to the survivor. It is for the parents of the forty-two-year-old daughter who one day tells them she has just gotten memories of sexual abuse by her