Fractured by the Weight and Other Poems

By Lavin Owende

Fractured by the Weight is a five-chapter poetry collection that touches on the struggles endured in our day-to-day lives. The challenges of our youth, our mental health battles, dealing with grief due to the loss of a loved one, the scars we carry from past trauma, and the hope we find in seeking assistance from God. It encapsulates how the world spins when we hit rock bottom. Providing opportunities to seek redemption and extend gratitude, giving testimony to what the journey has been. And still could be if we decline to succumb to the despair that is our lives.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Wanderer's Path Publishers
• Release date: Mar 5, 2024
• ISBN: 9798224579631

Book preview

Without love living is easy but it is meaningless

-Leo Tolstoy

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Chapter 1: My youth, my curse

Chapter 2: Letters to my champ

Chapter 3: Goner series

Chapter 4:  Scars

Chapter 5: A sinner’s plea

Epilogue: Dear future

CHAPTER 1: MY YOUTH, MY CURSE

The transition from my teenage to my youthful years has been the most terrifying time in my life. I've never been more clueless, more lost. I live each day trying to find my path. Hoping all the dreams I had as a little girl come true. Working hard towards every goal I have. Sometimes I have it all sometimes I have nothing to hold on to. Living through days of being broke exhausted and tired. Being hopeless sometimes and trying to make beautiful memories of my youthful days. Having to stand on my own though my feet are so fragile.....

These are the pains of my youthful days in 8 pieces

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1.

Oh, the glory of these days

Getting lost in living an illusion

The fear that comes with it

The beauty of these days

My youth, my sweet curse

It’s like I carry the weight of the world

On my fragile little hands

Dear future

Forgive me for my indecisiveness today

Some days 

I'm walking on eggshells

Scared and unaware

Afraid of one wrong turn

On others

I only live once

Taking my milk

From a wine glass

Days of my youth

Scary defines fun

What's there to lose??

A dignified tomorrow perhaps

But then again

How much can I really risk

Drink from my cup today

Light a torch

On the path I walk

You'd never understand

My youth, my sweet curse

And to every lover

That promises me the universe

I've never felt like this before

Sounds like a broken record

Don't we all love a beautiful lie???

Forgive me mama

I get lost in the thrill

But if I was to watch my life on a big screen

I'd put these days on repeat

Those that I was a goner

And the ones I was full of life

Those that I was in love

And those that I was shattered

Heart broken

Finding myself

Days of my youth

I'd play certain songs on repeat

Trying to take in the message

More like trying to daydream

Fit into the perfection

Of the sweet melodies

As sweet as the unending magic

Of my overflowing lines

And if my story is to be read someday

Don't omit the mistakes of my youth

Yes, they broke me

Yes, they shattered me

But they molded me

In ways I could never tell

So I drown in this magic

Of inking a piece from the heart

My deepest secrets in symbolic expressions

For these are the tales

Of a poet’s deepest secrets

©La-ki

©tales of a poet’s deepest secrets

2.

Feet swollen

From the thorns of yesterday

I danced barefooted

Up until the midnight hour

Under the moonlight

Hunted by the ghost

Of my youthful days

Smiling at the stars

I made a wish or two

Flapped my wings so hard

Watched the universe

From unsober eyes

Took another puff

Drowning deep in my youthful years

Hoping the days pass by

Maybe I'll figure life out

© La-ki

My youth, my curse

3.

Sometimes the sun is cruel

Sometimes the rain drops bring floods

Sometimes we watch bridges burn

Sometimes we hold back tears

Unable to express our fears

We keep a lot inside

Unable