The Phantom Ghost of a Sunflower
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It’s time for these stories to finally be told.
Courtney Mulholland
Courtney spends most of her time internalising her trauma, but eventually she put pen to paper and began to write about her own experiences. Courtney dealt with a lot of struggles, but finally found salvation when she began to write about her past. Her hope is that, one day, she can help at least one person who is struggling to feel less alone.
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The Phantom Ghost of a Sunflower - Courtney Mulholland
About the Author
Courtney spends most of her time internalising her trauma, but eventually she put pen to paper and began to write about her own experiences. Courtney dealt with a lot of struggles, but finally found salvation when she began to write about her past. Her hope is that, one day, she can help at least one person who is struggling to feel less alone.
Dedication
To my uncle David, the greatest hero I’ve ever known.
This is for every person in my life who showed me how to be strong.
This one is for every hero, big and small, and everyone who needs to know they aren’t alone.
Thank you, for giving me someone to believe in, people to look up to. Voices of power, both strong and feminine.
Voices I can relate to, and a hero to root for and can believe in.
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Courtney Mulholland 2023
The right of Courtney Mulholland to be identified as author of this work has been asserted by the author in accordance with sections 77 and 78 of the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without the prior permission of the publishers.
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ISBN 9781398472549 (Paperback)
ISBN 9781398472556 (ePub e-book)
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First Published 2023
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Acknowledgment
I would like to thank everyone at Austin Macauley, for giving me the opportunity to live my dreams, for taking a chance on me, and making this book a reality.
Thank you to my parents. Lesley and Darren Mulholland, for giving me my voice, my courage, my strength, and everything I ever needed to have the life I needed. Thank you for teaching me how to use my voice not just to speak, but to scream louder than those who tried to silence me
Without you both, this book would not be possible.
Thank you to Danielle Jackson, my love, my other half, my shoulder to cry on, and my safe place to land. Thank you for believing me when I didn’t believe in myself, for loving me when I couldn’t love myself, and for being my shelter from every storm.
Man Down
I have an uncle
A king among men
A soldier stood tall
Way back then.
This brave, strong man
Everything he taught us
We watched like adoring fans.
He loves his daughters and son
With him around
They never stopped having fun
He loves his grandson, his nieces and nephews
He is engraved in all our hearts
Very much like a tattoo.
My uncle the soldier
The man who cherished us all
And watched over us
As we grew older.
My uncle the soldier
He walked tall and proud
While he held the world
On his shoulders.
My uncle the soldier
The king among men
He kept us warm
As it grew colder
Now we stand tall
And say man down
We will cherish his memories
Of way back when
We make sure he keeps his crown
My uncle, the king among men
Broken Wolf
I’m just a little broken wolf
With nothing much to do
I sit alone in my room
And howl quietly at the moon.
I sit so still
And try to stay quiet while
Watching the stars
Twinkle at will.
When the moon fades away
The wolf does too
And in the end all that is left
Is a broken girl howling at the moon
Wishing she could fade away too.
Little Wolf
Run, run little wolf
Keep running till
You reach home.
When the moon
Goes down little wolf
You’re going to turn
Into nothing but stone.
When the moon goes away
The little girl inside
Will come out to play.
You cannot stay like this forever
You need to be a girl again
I know you don’t want to
But you need to face the pain.
Just a Broken Girl
Wrapped up tightly
In her fragile way
Broken wolf.
A lonely princess
Castle in chaos
World fallen into a mess.
You can stop the chaos
And clean the mess
You cannot fix
The broken princess.
You can try to fix the world
And wrap it up neatly in
A pretty little bow
But you cannot give back
The broken girl.
Can You?
Can you see me?
Am I drowned out in the crowd?
Or am I drowning in the sea?
Can you hear me?
Am I lost out in the noise?
Or is everything else too loud?
Can you save me?
Should I run and flee?
Or is there someone more important around?
Can you hold me?
Am I too broke for you to see?
Or am I supposed to end up alone?
2 am
It’s 2 am and I’m wide awake
I can’t sleep you see
My doctor, she gave me pills
But they don’t really help.
It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep
Sad songs playing low
On my phone
In just lying here
Staring at my ceiling
A very lonely feeling.
It’s 2 am and
I’m done
I’m done trying
I’m done living
While I feel like a dying.
It’s 2 am and my love is only
A phone call away but
I can’t ring them because
I don’t know what to say.
"Hey, it’s 2 am but I