That Part!: What Some Know but Won't Tell You About Motherhood
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Motherhood is not for the faint of heart or the fond of sleeping. It's unfiltered madness that's simultaneously enlightening, exhausting, and affirming. The first five years especially are an emotional upheaval complete with stretch marks, and for mother of three Dionne Joyner-Weems, no parenting book in the world could have prepared her for the reality of raising three sons. In That Part!: What Some Know but Won't Tell You about Motherhood, Joyner-Weems opens her diary and invites readers to share in some of the more vulnerable, challenging, and eye-opening moments of her motherhood experience. She shows, in writing that's honest, humorous, and deeply relatable, how becoming a mother can be an opportunity to embrace the blessings in the lessons and become more accepting of all the messy, meaningful lived experience that comes with becoming a parent.
"Dionne's story is a prime example of walking by faith, not by sight, and trusting God and his promises. She didn't know if she could do it, but it was already done. She just needed to walk in her destiny. 1 Peter 5:7 Amen."—Patricia Joyner, Dionne's mommy
"When Dionne was pregnant, she asked me, 'What am I going to do?!' I told her to do what was in front of her, and her children would let her know what they needed. It's been twelve years since then, and the advice is still working."—Levon Joyner Sr., Dionne's daddy
"My wife is a brilliant storyteller and a great mommy. Yeah, I called her GREAT, damnit, and after exploring these pages, I can promise that you will do at least three things: laugh, cry, and buy three more copies for loved ones. 'Cause that is what the Lord wants for your journey, and who are you to question the Lord?"—Jason Weems, Dionne's husband
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That Part! - Dionne Joyner-Weems
THAT PART!
WHAT SOME KNOW BUT WON’T TELL YOU ABOUT MOTHERHOOD
DIONNE JOYNER-WEEMS
AUDACITY GROUP LLC.
That Part!: What Some Know but Won’t Tell You about Motherhood
© 2023 Dionne Joyner-Weems
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without permission in writing by the publisher, except by a reviewer who may quote brief passages in a review. For information regarding permission, contact the publisher at DionneJoynerWeems.com.
Published by Audacity Group LLC.
DionneJoynerWeems.com
Baltimore, Maryland.
Paperback ISBN: 979-8-9893290-0-7
Ebook ISBN: 979-8-9893290-1-4
Audio Book ISBN: 979-8-9893290-2-1
Cover design and illustrations by Audacity Group LLC
Interior design by Liz Schreiter
Edited and produced by Reading List Editorial
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This book is dedicated to my three sons, Shawn, Liam, and Emery. I love you to the moon and back, though you constantly tell me, That’s not that far.
CONTENTS
Preface
Delivery Fight Club
September 9, 2011
The Natural Birth Dare
September 27, 2011
I Don’t Know How to Raise A Child
October 1, 2011
My Baby Story
October 11, 2011
Are These Contractions or Braxton Hicks?
The Rose That Grew from Concrete
November 21, 2011
Life Is One Freaking Test
November 27, 2011
Hello Breastfeeding
December 4, 2011
I Gave You Three Months
Gun Control–Just Hear Me Out!
December 19, 2012
What’s a Weekend to a Baby?
January 13, 2013
Dream Big
January 21, 2013
I’m Always in My Own Way
January 31, 2013
I Have to Stop Comparing Myself
February 8, 2013
Far from Cute
February 23, 2013
Gross and Greedy
March 1, 2013
What the Daughter Does, the Mother Did
March 7, 2013
Don’t Make Mommy Angry
March 13, 2013
Depression
March 31, 2013
My Dirty Little Secret
Eight Reasons I Haven’t Called Back
April 4, 2013
I Have to Pee
April 8, 2013
If I Had a Clone . . .
April 12, 2013
Why Am I Doing Math?
April 23, 2013
Put My Baby at the Top of the List
April 29, 2013
Complain at Your Own Risk
May 1, 2013
Where Am I?
May 14, 2013
When the Juggler Falls
May 19, 2013
Women Without Children Are Selfish
May 24, 2013
So You Had a Bad Day?
June 3, 2013
Come Again?!
June 12, 2013
(Part One of Expecting a Baby
)
The Dark Side
June 13, 2013
(Part Two of Expecting Twins
)
Boxing with God
June 15, 2013
(Conclusion of Expecting Twins
)
I Think I Love My Job
June 26, 2013
A Mother on the Verge of Exploding
July 26, 2013
Thirty-Four Weeks with Twins
August 16, 2013
They Said I’d Be Lucky to Make It
I’m Tired of Being Pregnant
October 10, 2013
Early Parenthood
November 14, 2013
Perception vs. Reality
Take These Babies . . . Please!
November 29, 2013
Can’t a Woman Have Boundaries?
December 17, 2013
How Honest Are Parents?
December 19, 2013
Home for the Holidays
December 31, 2013
Party of Five
January 10, 2014
Hello, My Name Is
January 24, 2014
The Key Difference Between Boys
February 3, 2014
How Does Your Child See You?
May 11, 2014
The Constant vs. the Variable
January 27, 2015
Which One Are You?
Fall and Rise Again
June 28, 2015
Cosmetic Surgery
July 9, 2015
Sign Me Up?
Six Ways Having a Dog Does Not Compare to Raising Children
July 16, 2015
Feeling Some Kinda Way
August 5, 2015
Black-ish
August 25, 2015
A Black Mother’s View
Caterpillar Caterpillar
November 1, 2015
Epilogue
February 14, 2019
You Owe Me an Apology
About Dionne Joyner-Weems
PREFACE
WHAT DO I KNOW?
When I was pregnant with my first child in 2010, I purchased every childbirth book imaginable, from What to Expect When You’re Expecting and The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding to The Happiest Baby on the Block and Baby 411. Two years later, when we found out we were expecting twins, I purchased double the books, along with every edition of the Holy Bible. I think I may have even thrown in a Quran or two for flavoring, and I’m not even Muslim. I just knew that with the new challenge of raising three boys under the age of three, I needed to know that God, Buddha, Yahweh, Jehovah, Allah, Shiva, and the artist formerly known as Prince were listening.
A little background: I’m a classic type-A personality, an Aries sun sign with a Sagittarius rising. I’m an eighties baby, born and raised on the west side of Baltimore—my hometown and my heart. Just imagine a wiry (ninety pounds when wet) Black girl, bobbing and weaving through Sandtown-Winchester. My neighborhood shaped me within a redlined community that framed the way I saw the world. A concoction of grit and a dash of grace, I’m the firstborn child and a manic overthinker who has the nerve to be stubborn. I’m Zoloft’s wet dream. I don’t want to get things done simply; I want to get things done perfectly. So, it would only be natural that I would approach childbirth and parenting as a DIY project that I could research and perfect.
Of the twenty-seven books I purchased in preparation for my sons’ arrival, do you know how many I referenced after we brought our babies home? That’s right: zero, zilch, nada. Well, we did use two books to balance the changing table we purchased from Ikea—but there was no reading involved. This is not because they served their purpose and told me everything I needed to know. It was because the authors approached motherhood as doctors, nurses, or teachers. Their eye was fixed with a scientific lens, not based on lived experience. And let me tell you, you need lived experience when it’s three o’clock in the morning and your breasts are engorged. Your mood swings are tangled in knotted chains. You haven’t eaten or slept longer than twenty minutes over the course of seventy-two hours. And your baby or babies’ blood-curdling shrills are sending chills down your spine. At that moment, you do not need a doctor to reinforce the swaddling method. At that moment, you need someone to tell you, It’s okay that you want to scream. You are not the first person to think about hurling your baby to Pluto. It’s okay that you feel like happiness is just outside your reach and you are second-guessing your decision or ability to be a mother. You are not a horrible person for not feeling that intimate connection with your child that everyone raves about.
You need someone to say, It’s okay. I can relate.
Well, I don’t have a PhD in counseling. But I do have lots of experience being a mother who has crawled through the darkest valley. From the fear of raising little Black boys in America to trying to establish boundaries or battling the shame of depression while navigating the sudden change in personal relationships, I made it to the other side.
Everyone told me how fast time would fly, but no one told me the deeper reason for savoring those moments. As soon as we laid eyes on our firstborn son on Wednesday, August, 24, 2011, Shawn (who we called S. Dot affectionately) changed my life. Every experience I had as a mother pulled back the curtain on how I saw the world and who I wanted to be as a woman. The first five years of motherhood were a sobering test of self-reflection. And I chronicled my epiphanies and ah-ha moments in my diary daily, and I continued to write my reflections for the five years that followed. I had always loved storytelling, but motherhood reignited my passion. All of West Baltimore came out of me. I was raw and uncut, you hear me? I wrote what I saw as I felt it!
Becoming a mother is powerful, but it can also be isolating. It’s unfiltered madness that is enlightening, exhausting, and affirming. More mothers should be encouraged to share the blessings in the lessons. Even after more than twelve years, my life has changed and my children are older, but it was those first precious five years of raising three boys under three that I not only discovered my voice but also embraced my womanhood.
SEPTEMBER 9, 2011
DELIVERY FIGHT CLUB
Before delivering my son, S. Dot, I asked every mother I knew, How does childbirth feel?
The clearest answer I received was, Imagine your worst menstrual cramps, and multiply that times 100.
Let’s just say that did not nearly detail what I felt. But my girlfriend/hair stylist, Jennifer, who has an eleven-year-old and a thirteen-year-old, told me a woman is not supposed to tell a new mother what delivering a child feels like, so as to avoid scaring her. I guess it’s like the first rule of Fight Club. You do not talk about Fight Club.
Well, since I’m all about sharing, I would like to offer a few personal tips.
Don’t prolong the pain of contractions by staying in the