SWEET & SOUR DREAMS: A Ride Through My Mind

By Reagan Watkins

Sweet & Sour Dreams: A Ride Through My Mind is Reagan Watkins' enchanting second book-a captivating collection of prose and poetry that embarks on an emotional odyssey through grief. Within these pages, the reader is transported to a dreamlike realm, where waves of anger, sorrow, and romance intertwine. Watkins masterfully captures

• Language: English
• Publisher: Sugar Poems
• Release date: Oct 14, 2023
• ISBN: 9781088188316

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SWEET & SOUR DREAMS

SWEET & SOUR DREAMS

A Ride Through My Mind

Reagan Watkins

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Copyright © 2023 by Reagan Watkins

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First Printing, 2023

Contents

Dedication

The Denial

The Insomnia

The Anger

The Nightmares

The Bargaining

The Coma

The Depression

The Dreams

The Acceptance

About The Author

SWEET & SOUR DREAMS

for everyone who misses that someone

for everyone who can’t fall asleep

for everyone who wants to reach their dreams

for Edna.

for the woman who carries the universe on her shoulders

for the woman who carried me for nine months

for the woman who i call Mommy

for Leza.

preface

looking back on my life, it’s fair to say i went through plenty of situations that called for grief. i knew the feeling when it came. grief hit me the hardest when my grandma died. that’s when i learned how painful grief truly was. she was my best friend and still is. i have the matching tattoo to prove it. i fell into a dark place after she passed. i wanted nothing more than to be with her. during those days, i was high and numb. during the nights, i slept violently having to rise from terrible images my mind made up. my mind could conjure every image in my sleep except for her face. Death is a crazy thing, crazy indeed.

i wrote this book with the intention that each part would flow like my mind. i want you to venture into the river that is my brain, the boat being this book. there we can watch my thoughts and dreams float by.

intro

i am more than anything i will ever wanna be. i am no longer a kid that gets to dream. i am gone. i am in a deep sleep.

here i am in a land of mystical wonders. and every time i peak off the cliff’s edge, i look down on you. you are so close but i have no words or space.

to reach you, i’d have to scream myself awake.

just like me

this is just like me,

shooting and killing men

in my dreams.

it’s one of the only reasons

i even go to sleep

The Denial

this just can’t be.

impossible stranger

i woke up today

and didn’t know a thing,

not my name

not my face

not the type of flowers in that vase

not a damn thing.