The Pangs of Bella: The Family's Cycle of Life

By Lauren Ross

We all go through things in life that will forever affect us one way or another. We just do not think about how they affect others. We blame the ones we love for what we have endured and ultimately end up doing the same things to the people we love. This book is about being exposed to and abuse as a child, blaming the ones we love for what we have endured, and ultimately allowing or doing the same things to the people we love. As I relive the pain all over with in the pages of this book, I now realize it took an entire lifetime to understand the reasons why my loved ones did what they did. A Lifetime to realize it was not done maliciously. It was just The Family's Cycle of Life. One that needed to be broken. We all have one. We do what we have been taught even when we don't want to. We look back and if we are fortunate, we can adjust our lives accordingly and be able to stay afloat without drowning. This is a story about my family cycle of Life.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Archway Publishing
• Release date: May 25, 2023
• ISBN: 9781665743167

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Archway Publishing rev. date: 05/25/2023

Contents

The Introduction

The Summary

About the Author

Acknowledgements

Chapter 1     The Root

Chapter 2     The Break Down

Chapter 3     Three Monsters One Knight

Chapter 4     The Mister

Chapter 5     The Knight

Chapter 6     Tragedy Strikes Twice

Chapter 7     Transitioning

Chapter 8     Till Death Do Us Part

Chapter 9     The Wolf

Chapter 10   The Mountains

The Introduction

This book is about a girl named (Bella), her mom Cindy, and their struggles. A story of how even though they avoided certain mistakes and events they both still endured the same pain Their parents endured if not worst. This is based on factual events and how I perceive things.

The Summary

We all go through things in life that will forever affect us one way or another. We just do not think about how they affect others. We blame the ones we love for what we have endured and end up doing the same things to the people we love. This book is about abuse as a child, blaming the ones we love for what we have endured, and allowing the same things to happen to the people we love. As we revisit the pain Cindy felt with in the pages of this book, you will realize it took her entire lifetime to understand the reasons why her loved ones did what they did. A Lifetime to realize things were not done maliciously. It was just The Family’s Cycle of Life. We all have one. We do what we have been taught even when we do not want to. We look back and if we are fortunate, we can adjust our lives accordingly and be able to stay afloat without drowning. This is a story about Cindy & Bella’s family cycle of Life.

About the Author

The writer grew up in an era that strongly believed that what goes on in the home stays in the home. It was believed that a reputation is more important than a person’s physical, emotional, and mental health. She has managed to raise three healthy children, stay married for over 25 years, obtain a BS degree, and stay mentally sane after being amist abuse most of her life. This book reflects a change in those views. She is the voice that speaks out to encourage all readers to break the cycle of abuse and the acceptance of mistreatment.

Acknowledgements

I would like to thank my son for referring me to Simon & Schuster Publishing Co. Thank you my dear coworker/friend Ms. Dumas for reading my rough drafts. I want to thank my husband for his love and support. I thank everyone at Archway Publishing from Simon & Schuster.

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The Root

Pam came from a large, prominent, well-known family. She was always soft spoken and never confrontational. Bill was a good ole country boy. He came from a family of diligent teachers and farmers. He loved his cars, dogs, and hunting. He did not play games with people. People might call him a mean man, but it was just his personality. Bill was older than Pam. She was eighteen years old when they were married. He was her first and would be her last. They have now been married for fifty-four years. It was just Cindy the first seven years, and then came Lily. Four years after that, baby sister Monet was born. Three girls! They were country girls who climbed trees, made mud pies, rode bikes, and had pets. Lily was always the brave and outspoken one. She was pretty and could run fast. She would beat the person she was running against in the relay race. She was something else. Monet got what she wanted. She did not think so, but she did. Bill worked as a supervisor. Pam worked part-time as a lab technician, and she drove the school bus. They were not rich. It is funny how a child