Living with Parkinsons, Depression and Childhood Trauma
By Dawn Howard
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Reflecting back on her college graduation in 2011, Dawn thought her life was finally coming together, that all of the hard work she put in working full-time, attending college, and being a parent was finally going to pay off.
After all, she survived both physical and sexual child abuse by her father, was bullied by her peers throughout her early elementary and high school years, and, at age forty, was winning her battle with depression--so she could survive anything, she thought.
Well, a few months after graduation, the life she thought she was going to have was about to come crashing down. A trip to the doctor, because of a few unusual symptoms, turned out that she had young-onset Parkinson's disease.
Just when she thought she had survived the biggest hurdle of her life, life threw another curveball at her. In her story, she will take her readers back to the beginning, where it all started, up to her life now, living with Parkinson's. She hopes that by telling her story, it will inspire others not to give up.
No matter how many times life knocks you down, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
We all have a purpose. We just have to find out what it is.
By the end of her book, you will find that through the storms, she has found her purpose.
Twenty percent of the profits on the sale of this book will go to the Michael J. Fox Foundation and the Parkinson's Foundation. Twenty percent will go to the foundation she established in April 2022 called Dawn's Hope Inc.
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Living with Parkinsons, Depression and Childhood Trauma - Dawn Howard
Living with Parkinson’s, Depression, and Childhood Trauma
Dawn Howard
A Short Memoir
ISBN 979-8-88644-169-7 (Paperback)
ISBN 979-8-88644-170-3 (Digital)
Copyright © 2022 Dawn Howard
All rights reserved
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Why am I educating people at the beginning of my story?
I am dedicating the first couple of chapters to the education on Parkinson’s, anxiety, depression, and child abuse. I feel that by giving a brief summary of each of the things I am dealing with, it may help people understand me better. At the beginning of my diagnosis, I lacked knowledge of these types of illnesses. All that I knew was that Michael J. Fox had Parkinson’s and that a few people I had worked with in the past were dealing with mental health issues. My hope is to give people a better understanding of these topics.
Special Thanks
I want to thank the following:
My husband—for always being there, even when I pushed you away. You are my rock, and I appreciate you more than you could ever know. I love you!
My daughter—for just listening to me. You are my whole life, and I can’t imagine trying to go through this without you. I love you!
My best friend in the world, Ann—you have been my sounding board and the first person to notice that something was wrong with me. I don’t know how I could have dealt with the news had you not been there. You have always been there for me, and I really appreciate it. I love you as a sister!
My youngest sister—you have always been there for me, even when I acted like a fool. You are the strongest person I know. You kicked cancer’s butt, and it is your strength that I draw from. I keep telling myself, if my sister can act like a warrior then so can I.
To Robbie—thank you for saving my life that day and giving me a place to stay. Now that you are with God, I know that you know how grateful I am to you.
To the singers and songwriters of the songs that I mentioned in this book—without your music, I wouldn’t have pulled through on my darkest days. I sincerely thank you!
Main Characters
Me
Ex-husband—referred to as my husband throughout the story
Daughter—I only have one child
Father
Mother
Middle sister
Youngest sister
Half Brother
Grandfather
Best friend, Ann
Middle-school bully, Jason
Kindergarten bully, Chad
Ex-boyfriend, I called Charles
My ex-boyfriend Robbie
Introduction
My name is Dawn Howard, and this is my story. At the time of writing this book, I am fifty-one years old, and I have been living with Parkinson’s disease for eleven years. I was diagnosed in 2011 at age forty. I have what they call young-onset Parkinson’s disease.
Why am I telling you my story?
My answer to this question serves multiple purposes.
It is a way to finally tell my story as seen through my eyes.
I hope that, by telling my story, I may help someone in a similar situation.
To educate people on both Parkinson’s, depression, anxiety, and child abuse.
Most importantly, it gives me an outlet to express my feelings, both past and current.
To spread awareness of the foundation I established called Dawn’s Hope.
I am not writing and telling my story to portray myself as a victim, nor am I out to hurt or make anyone in this book look bad. The sole purpose of telling my story is for the reasons listed above and for no other reason.
Both of my parents are alive at the time that this book was written and published. I am hoping that people will respect my family’s need for privacy. This is my story, not theirs. I do not want any bad to happen to either of my parents. I have long since forgiven my parents, and if you can make it through my book, you will perhaps understand why.
What is this book about?
This book is my account of my life as seen through my eyes. I will tell my story of being abused by my father, being bullied by classmates, then becoming a middle-aged adult living with Parkinson’s disease, depression, and anxiety. I hope that by telling my story, someone in a similar circumstance will realize that if they hold on long enough, they can overcome being a victim and come through it as a survivor who can turn something so ugly into something that only makes them stronger.
To my readers
Please bear with me as you read my story. I am not an author, a publisher, nor have I ever written a book before. I am not a scientist nor a doctor. Any information quoted or listed in relation to Parkinson’s disease, child abuse, and mental illness all come from the sources listed in the reference section of this book. Yes, I copied and pasted a lot of the medical facts in my book. I did so because the authors of what is quoted stated it better than I ever could.
I will do my best not to jump around in telling my story. Keep in mind that I may have to do so in order to explain my reasoning or thoughts behind my current mindset. Also, keep in mind that