This Is the Lord's Doing: A Modern-Day Job Story, Or So I Thought

By Leeta Bigbee

DID I EVER TELL YOU ABOUT THE TIME SATAN TRIED TO KILL ME?

This Is the Lord's Doing is a book that will encourage and uplift any and all that have ever felt like the devil knocked you down physically, mentally, and/or spiritually by hitting you with everything he had in his arsenal. God is able to change every situation from bad

• Language: English
• Publisher: Trilogy Christian Publishing
• Release date: Mar 3, 2023
• ISBN: 9798887381107

Leeta Bigbee

Leeta enjoys storytelling and encouraging others. "This Is the Lord's Doing" is Leeta's first published novel. Previously, she published a poem, "Unexpected Joys" (2000). Leeta enjoys spending time with friends and family. She currently resides in Texas and has begun working on part 2 of "This is the Lord's Doing: A Goliath Battle, With A David Victory".

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This is the Lord’s Doing

a modern-day job story,

or so I thought

Leeta Bigbee, MSM

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This Is the Lord’s Doing: A Modern-Day Job Story, Or So I Thought

Copyright © 2023 by Leeta Bigbee, MSM

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Dedication

Thanks to All of You

I went through a lot of difficult times, and there were many people who helped me throughout the years. For that help, I am truly grateful. The lists of names are not in any particular order. I want to give special thanks to my family, who helped me in spite of not understanding what was going on and how erratic and irrational my behavior had become at times. Thank you:

Barbara Thomas, Tyler Hutchinson, Trelyn Shannon, Yelena Brackney, Charles Brackney, Tia Coleman, Glenn Coleman (RIP), Reece Coleman (RIP), Evan Coleman (RIP), Arya Coleman (RIP), Christopher Martin, Tiffany Martin, Gregory Emmanuel II, Tyree Miller, Gloria Collins, John (RIP) and Sarah Boyd, Alisia Gray, Pamela Grays, Billy Grays, Juan Geralds II., Sierra Grays, Denina Sharp, Renée Edwards, Sarah Lowe, Sarah (Ludy) Lowe, Patsy Newson, Lisa Lowe.

There were several others who helped and stood by me, even during the tough times, and I just wanted to say thanks to them as well, no matter how large or small the part played. Once again, the names are in no particular order:

Gary Sr. and Sally (RIP) Burt, Michael Jones Sr. (RIP), Jessie Jones (RIP), Michael II and LaShonda Jones, James and Reneé White, A. Janice Dalton, Toni Martin (RIP), Toni Burt, Regina Majors, Trina and Kevin Davis, Beth Hearn-Brooks, Jeremie and Joyce Bell, Melissa and Barry Brown, Mary and Nathaniel Grandberry, Tina Blackwell, Jason and Mika Chambers, Marcetta Davis, Cassandra (Missy) Howard-Adams, Sabrina Burt, Teresa and L. Jay Jones, Dawn Alvies (RIP), Melita Davis, Don Juan Cooley, Carlissa Donaldson, Rhegan Gilmore, Rhonda Alvies, Milo and Anitra Green, LaTonya Har-ris-Swint, Angela Jones, Shirley Bowens, Evan and Marilyn Kimble, Renita Minor (RIP), Gregory and Josephine Quick, Starla Raine, Octavia Reed, Deborah and Paul Ross, Bernice Rutledge, Rashida Taylor, Je’Lisa Brown, Alissa Thomas, Horatio Brown (RIP), Donna Mason, Patrice Mason, Juan Geralds Sr., Thomas Griffith Sr., Denise Griffith (RIP), Amy Wimbleduff, Viola Smith (RIP), Lela Davis, Shanae Johnson, Tyree Sr. and Tonya Harris, Cynthia Folson, Talethia Folson, Jacquelyn Wells-Dodson, Gertrude Olloway, Janice Mays, Theresa Geist, James Blaine, Theresa Starks, Anntoinette Taylor, Christine Scott (RIP), Jan and Vincent Ash Sr., Jeanette Edwards (RIP), Courtney Demery, Jori Hargrove, Michelle and Brian Starks, Monique Ragland, Nadja McCloud, Nicole Dukes, Sharesse Underwood, Priscilla Williams (1), Priscilla Williams (2), An-drea Johnson, LaDonna Bland, Alexis Elliott, Tasha Pittman, Christine King, Lisa Forrest, LaTwana Presswood, Tommy Love, Frankie Pinner, Anna Davenport, Wayne Burt, Lydia Harriston (RIP), Robert and Susan (RIP) Harriston, Jason Harriston, Kim Weathered, Erica Robinson.

Acknowledgements

Jessica Whitaker with Jessica Rene Photography.

Methodist Hospital and staff, Community North Hospital and staff.

Contents

Preface ix

Introduction xiii

Prologue. No More Fear xxvi

Chapter 1. Whatever It Takes, Lord 1

Chapter 2. Video Tapes, Pictures, and Voice Mail. Messages 41

Chapter 3. Home Visits and Back to School 114

Chapter 4. Cleaning House 168

Chapter 5. Do What I Told You to Do 201

Chapter 6. Sanctification 233

Chapter 7. Escorted Out and Treated Like the Enemy 247

Chapter 8. Mind Battles 268

Chapter 9. Remember Your History 310

Epilogue 333

About the Author 335

Preface

When thinking about this book, it reminds me of a song by Kevin Davidson titled Fight On. The song is an excellent reminder that we should not become defeated when we go through tests and trials. If we are doing our best, we should not be discouraged but encouraged because God is the one that fights for us. These past few years would truly be considered the fight of my life, or should I say my Euroclydon.¹ I was fighting against an enemy that I knew nothing about and was also totally unequipped to fight against. I hadn’t been taught how to fight like him, move like him, or to even think like him. No one instructed me on what to do when he did this or what to do when he did that. It was kind of like getting in a boxing ring with Muhammad Ali, and no one had ever taught me how to box. It was almost a TKO.

There was a time in my life when I became aware that the fight I was in was not a carnal, natural, or fleshly fight. But the fight I was fighting was a spiritual fight (battle) just like Paul spoke about in Ephesians 6:12 (KJV), which states, For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

When thinking about the book of Job, there was a point in Job’s life when he became afflicted in his body. However, Job did not have a natural medical condition, sickness, or medical affliction. Job had several medical symptoms but no medical condition. Job was in a spiritual battle, which manifested itself as the symptoms of several medical ailments. You don’t believe me when I say he was in a spiritual battle? Read Job 1:6–12 and Job 2:1–7. Job was totally unaware that God (spirit) and Satan (spirit) were having a conversation about him. After the conversations, God allowed Satan to go immediately to wreak havoc on Job’s life and body.

I believe if Job were around today, and those same conversations took place with God and Satan, Job would rush to the emergency room and try to get answers to why his body was doing the things it was doing. I’m sure Job would want to know why he was in so much pain and what’s up with all the boils.

However, I don’t believe Job would get any answers because blood tests, X-rays, EKGs, or any other medical machine or test could not then; and never will be able to detect or pick up the presence of a spirit. I believe the doctors would have told Job they did not find anything wrong with him. Nevertheless, I do believe they would have started him on a series of medications in an attempt to treat his symptoms. Job found himself in the fight of his life, a spiritual battle, which showed forth via fleshly symptoms. Job wasn’t in the fight because of any sin he had committed, but just because God allowed it to happen so that He could show Satan and Job just how faithful a servant Job was unto God. Also, to show Job just how excellent God was and still is.

We, as spirit-filled people, need to be able to recognize if we are in a natural battle or a spiritual battle. It is my belief if you go to the doctor and he draws blood, runs tests, and finds a legitimate problem (disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, a malignant tumor, or whatever), then I believe you probably have a natural medical condition. However, I still believe that God is the God of all flesh, and He can and will heal and deliver if it is His will. On the other hand, if you are experiencing symptoms and the doctors have drawn blood and/or ran all the tests, they can think to run. If the doctors have sent you to every specialist that deals with the condition your symptoms are associated with, and then the doctors still come back with that famous quote, We can’t find anything wrong; all your tests were negative. Please, please, please, people, do not speak death over your own life, such as, I know I have this disease or that disease because I know my body and something is wrong. Life and death do truly lie in the power of the tongue, and you can speak life or death into your own situation, or in other words, you can speak salvation or damnation unto yourself. Think about it as it says in Proverbs 23:7, For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he. That scripture basically says if you think it and believe it sincerely in your heart, it will come true—good or bad—and I’ll prove it to you. Accordingly, if they say they have found nothing wrong, realize or understand it is conceivable that you may be in a spiritual battle/test.

It took me a long time to realize I was in a spiritual battle because my natural body began to deteriorate very quickly. The stress had become so intense I started to lose weight; I went from 143 pounds down to 103 pounds in two months. I was in and out of the doctor’s office every week because I knew my body, and I could tell something was wrong and not normal. Once I realized that every trip to the doctor brought back a bunch of negative test results, no diagnosis, and a bunch of prescription medications, I eventually realized I was in a spiritual battle and not a natural, medical one. I was reminded of the lyrics in the song that says, The battle is not yours but the Lord’s. So, I say to you, recognize who your opponent is and learn his tricks, tactics, strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, strategies, and threats. Because no matter what, the battle really isn’t yours. It’s the Lord’s, and it is for God to get the glory out of your situation.

For that reason alone, you already have the victory. Therefore, prepare yourself for battle and commence fighting! As we see in the book of Job, and even in our own lives, Satan cannot do anything without the permission of the Almighty God. God has allowed every test, trial, and situation that we have faced in life. So, we need to understand, know, and accept, This is the Lord’s doing; it is marvelous in our eyes (Psalm 118:23).

Introduction

Sometimes when I don’t see results or any progress, I begin to feel like what’s the use, and I want to quit trying and give up. Then, I see a post on social media, or I receive a telephone call or a text from a friend, which reminds me Rome wasn’t built in a day, and any progress is a good thing.

This book is based on actual events that took place in my life. While dealing with the events in this book, I began to do a lot of studying and reading the Bible. Job 1:1 reads, There was a man in the land of Uz, whose name was Job; and that man was perfect and upright, and one that feared God, and eschewed evil. Then Job 1:6 reads, Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan came also among them. Finally, in Job 1:7, it reads, And the LORD said unto Satan, Whence comest thou? Then Satan answered the LORD, and said, from going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it.

My point in saying all of this is that scholars believe it is uncertain who wrote the book of Job. But from reading the book of Job, we know God was there, the sons of God were there, and Satan was there, but it must be said that whoever wrote the book of Job had to be there also. How else would he know all that God said about Job and what God said to Satan?

Having nothing else to do but sit around and suffer, I began to calculate how long Job suffered. After calculating for about two months, I completed my calculations and determined that Job suffered approximately thirteen months, according to time as we calculate it today. In 1 Peter 3:8, it reads, But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. Clearly, the Scripture lets us know that God does not mark time the way man marks time. There aren’t years, months, days, hours, minutes, or seconds to God. God is timeless; He is from everlasting to everlasting. After calculations were complete, I determined Job suffered approximately thirteen minutes in God’s time.

I wrote the first six chapters of this book in one night. Then the attack became more severe. Exactly thirteen months to the day after I passed out in church, I was taken back to the hospital by ambulance when a sister from my old church brought food over for me to eat. The tests started all over again. I ended up back in the hospital and later was transferred to the psych ward. I lost so much weight. I wore a child size 10; my hair was falling out; I lost my first house and my car, later lost my new apartment due to mold (not to mention I’m allergic to mold); I flipped my truck over; I ended up in the psych ward again; I lost my second apartment due to seizures, and then I started working on the book again. Every time I approached the end of the test, Satan attacked me again, and the book was put on hold. I was under attack several times. During the attacks, it seemed as if the process just kept repeating itself.

Around 2015, everything seemed to be going well. Then the tests started all over again. I ended up in the Intensive Outpatient Center and was diagnosed with insomnia, severe depression, and bipolar disorder. After being sick for months, I realized my new home had a severe mold problem. The mold made it feel like I had the flu all the time. I had also been prescribed sleeping pills for the last ten years. If I did not have any sleeping pills, I would purchase over-the-counter sleep aids in order to sleep. Not only would I purchase the over-the-counter sleep aids, such as Tylenol PM, I would take way more than recommended. For instance, if the sleep aid said to take two tablets, more likely than not, I would take four or five. When I was prescribed Ambien for insomnia, the prescribed dosage was one pill per night. I recall a night when I took seven pills. Every time I woke up, I would take another pill just so I could fall asleep and stay asleep. When my son Timmy found me after taking all the sleeping pills, he contacted my mother, my sisters, and my niece because he knew something was wrong. My son Tommy would often question how I received all the bruises on my body. I normally would get them from sleepwalking after taking sleeping pills.

After the last attack, I felt extreme hopelessness and wanted to die. I asked the Lord daily to please take my life. I listened to the book of Job and quoted it frequently. I repented for myself and my children when I knelt to pray. I did not charge God foolishly, nor have I ever been angry with God. I explained it to someone like this: it’s like me asking you whether I could borrow twenty dollars, and you told me no. How then can I get mad at you for not loaning me what is yours? It is the same way with God. It’s His health. How can I become angry with God if He doesn’t share it with me? The only difference between Job and me was that he suffered thirteen months; I suffered thirteen years, and God spared my children.

The meaning of twelve, which is considered a perfect number, is that it symbolizes God’s power and authority, as well as serving as a perfect governmental foundation. It can also symbolize completeness or the nation of Israel as a whole. For example, Jacob, aka Israel, had twelve sons that were princes, and the twelve tribes of Israel descended from Jacob’s sons and grandsons. Ishmael, who was born to Abraham through Hagar, also had twelve sons that were princes (Genesis 12:5–15). The number four derives its meaning from creation and/or order. On the fourth day of what is called creation week, God completed the material universe. On this day, He brought into existence the sun, the moon, and all the stars (Genesis 1:14–19). Their purpose was not only to give light but also to divide the day from the night on earth, thus becoming a basic demarcation of time. They were also made to be a type of signal that would mark off the days, years, and seasons. The number thirteen is symbolic of rebellion and lawlessness. Nimrod, the mighty hunter who was before the Lord (meaning he tried to take the place of God, Genesis 10:9), was the thirteenth in Ham’s line. (Ham was one of Noah’s three sons who survived the flood.) Thirteen represents all the governments created by men and inspired by Satan in outright rebellion against the Eternal God. The number six symbolizes man and human weakness, the evils of Satan, and the manifestation of sin. Man was created on the sixth day. Men are appointed six days to labor.²

So, I’m going to tell you why I outlined what I did in the meaning of the numbers, and please keep in mind the numbers and the meanings because I will refer back to them before I complete the introduction.

Leeta was a woman who lived in Indianapolis. She was spiritually mature (perfect #12), lived a holy life, and hated evil. She had two sons. Leeta was financially stable, had a nice home and a nice car, and she was well respected in the community and at work. Sometimes Leeta’s sons didn’t always walk according to the ways of the Lord. So, when Leeta would go before God to pray, she would repent for her sons and for herself concerning whatever they have done and/or said that was contrary to the ways of the Lord.

One day, the sons of God came before the Lord, and Satan came also. The Lord asked Satan,

Where have you been?

Walking to and fro on the earth, he answered,

Have you thought about my servant, Leeta? There really isn’t anyone like her in all the earth. She is doing all she knows how to do to live right; she hates evil; and she trusts and fears God.

Then Satan answered,

Does she trust and fear You with everything in life? If she does, it is because You have always blessed her. She has an abundance of everything, and it seems like she has money to burn. I guarantee You if You take away all that she has, she will curse You to Your face. Take your best shot.

God said. All that she owns is yours, but don’t touch her life.

Satan took off running and began to wreak havoc in Leeta’s life (God’s power and authority #12). Leeta lost her home and her car in bankruptcy; the IRS froze her bank accounts, including her child support checks; and she was no longer getting a paycheck from her job because she had been and continued to be off work sick. Leeta’s children began to misbehave in school and at home. However, Leeta continued to serve God and did all that she knew how to do to live a holy life.

Again, there was a day when the sons of God came before the Lord, and Satan came also.

Where have you been? God questioned Satan.

I was on earth walking all around, he answered.

Have you thought about my servant, Leeta? There certainly isn’t anyone like her in all the earth. She is doing all she knows how to do to live right; she still hates evil; she still trusts and fears Me; and she still believes in Me. She never said anything negative about me and surely never cursed me to my face, and she did all of this even though you moved Me against her to destroy her without a reason, God offered. (Order #4—God created everything perfectly and in order).

Satan quickly answered the Lord and said, Yeah, that’s true, she may have held strong, but it was only because You never allowed me to touch her body. People will get over material things, but if You let me make her sick, I know that will surely make her curse You to Your face.

Fine, you may make her as sick as you want, but do not kill her, God instructed. Satan then left the presence of the Lord quickly and once again began to cause mayhem in Leeta’s life. (Satan in outright rebellion #13 against man or mankind #6). Just as I wrote this book, I know exactly who wrote Job, and please allow me to be the first to tell you. Job wrote the book of Job. Job was there; he talked with God, and God let him know there were some things in his life that God wasn’t pleased with and just how he (Job) measured up to the big scheme of things in God’s plan.

When I first began to get attacked, I had no idea what was going on or why it was happening. Approximately thirteen months later, I realized I was in a spiritual battle. I began working toward learning all I knew to learn about how to fight in the spirit. I pulled out the church directory and contacted a sister because she is the only person in church I ever heard pray against spirits. After that, I basically refused to allow her to get rid of me. I followed her around like a little puppy, learning all I could about this thing called spiritual warfare.

In 2005, the boys and I moved in with someone because our apartment was filled with mold. During that time, I was a member of Love Apostolic Fellowship (Love), but we attended Living Word Tabernacle Apostolic Faith Church’s (Living Word) first reunion for their eightieth church anniversary. That is the church where I received the Holy Ghost and the church where my mother still attends today. Well, during this time, I was deep in the midst of my spiritual battle, and I was suffering greatly. I was off work on medical leave, physically sick, and the boys were acting up in school and at home. During the anniversary service, the Bishop that was preaching began to prophesy. He would go over to people, lay his hand on them, and start telling them what God had spoken about their lives. Before he could even finish what he was saying, they would take off running and dancing around the church. I don’t believe even one of them ever heard the full prophecy.

I sat in my seat, and I thought, Lord, I know what You have spoken to me, but could You please allow him to prophesy to me to confirm Your word. Because You said I would be in the palace, and I feel like I’m in the pit? The bishop finished prophesying and took his seat without saying a word to me.

Soon it was time for the offering, and the Bishop was asked to take the offering. The bishop began to talk, and he stated that God told him twelve people would sow into the church double. He stood there for a minute, and then he looked around because no one said anything. He repeated what he said, and then he clarified, What that means is this church is eighty years old, and God told me twelve people would sow double, so that means twelve people are going to give 160 dollars in this offering, he explained. By that time, God said to me, Give it. I thought, God, I’m off work, and I don’t even have money to give. Nevertheless, I hesitantly reached into my purse, pulled out my checkbook, and began to write the check.

The bishop went on to say, I need the twelve people to stand right now. I was still in the midst of writing my check, so I stood with my checkbook placed on the back of the pew in front of me, and I finished writing the check. I was sitting in the second row of the church, so I was unable to see who else had stood. By the time I finished writing the check, the bishop had said, I need my twelve people to line up right here at the end of this pew. He pointed directly at the end of the row where I was sitting.

I walked to the end of the pew, and I stood in line. It took a little more prodding, but eventually, he got twelve people to give 160 dollars. When all the people lined up behind me, the bishop walked over to me and said, Since you were the first to stand and sow into this church double, God said, ‘I’m going to bless you double.’ You will have your own business, and no bank or the Small Business Administration will help you, but you will be able to do it with all your own money. You will be a millionaire, and your family will be blessed because of you. He placed his hand on my head and said, And I seal it in the name of Jesus; now go take your offering. I walked off and gave my offering.

Later that night, several people came up to me after church and commented about how I was a millionaire and how rich I was, and so forth. I believed God, and I knew He was telling the truth because He said the exact same thing God told me. When the Small Business Administration sent me the information I requested so that I could start my own business over a year earlier in May of 2004, I never even opened the envelope. By the time the envelope arrived, God had already told me they could not help me. However, living in the moment, I knew none of it had happened yet, because I, along with the boys, were still sleeping at my friend’s apartment because my apartment had mold. Then an Evangelist came over to me and said, You already knew that, didn’t you, Sister? God already told you that. Didn’t He?

Yes, ma’am, I replied.

I could tell when I saw Bishop talking to you, she said. You have a good evening.

You too, I said as I walked away. I walked away with a feeling of hope. I thought, Finally, I am getting ready to get out of this thing. Thirteen months was the longest I had been in a fiery test like that, where the heat never seemed to let up.

However, you must have guessed that the heat did not stop then. I didn’t see the temperature or the flames go down until around 2007, when I was able to purchase another home and I started a different job, but I was still working for the federal government. One time my Sunday school teacher said, If God promises you something, then get ready to wait for it. We all kind of sat quietly in class after that, and then she went on to say, Think about it. If you get a blessing, most times, it is a surprise. When God makes you a promise, just like He did Abraham, it takes years for that thing to happen. She was exactly right.

This book is being published in 2022, and as I look back over my life, God did exactly what He said He was going to do. I no longer suffer from those conditions and attacks. One of the conditions I was diagnosed with was cerebral lupus, and that is the reason I was losing the activity of my brain, according to the doctors. I was told by the end of 2004, Your brain will be mush, and you will be a vegetable. You won’t even be able to dress yourself. But as you all know, God delivered me from that condition, and He restored the functions of my brain because not only did it not turn to mush, I was able to complete my bachelor’s degree with a 3.89 GPA on a 4.0 scale. I went on to earn my master’s degree, and with the help of the Lord, I achieved a 4.0 GPA on a 4.0 scale. By the time this book is published, I will have owned two homes at the same time, owned two cars at the same time, and it was the first time my bank account more than doubled. I’m currently retired, but before

I retired, my salary had more than doubled. Now, I only work for myself if I desire. Additionally, in 2019, I was able to pay off a hundred percent of my debt, including two homes and two cars.

Thank you, Lord. You just keep on doing great things for me. To God be the glory for the things He has done! Therefore, it is true when I think of His goodness and what He has done for me, and when I think of His goodness and how He set me free, I could dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance all night!

prologue

No More Fear

The dreams I had for my life seem to have taken a backseat to fear. When I think of how I allowed fear to control my life, I realize I really didn’t have anything to be afraid of at all. The things I feared the most were all in my head, and I personally created them with each and every dream I had for myself.

My past experiences, let-downs, and disappointments helped me to slowly put my dreams on the back burner, with thoughts of defeat, rejection, procrastination, and, most of all, fear. No one had to tell me I couldn’t do it because I continued to tell myself daily. However, today is the day I decided not to allow procrastination, feelings of defeat, rejection, insecurity, and, yes, even fear to control my life anymore. Today is the day I actually wake up, stop dreaming, and begin moving toward the person God ordained me to be with no more fear.

Normally, I don’t look at things the same way as everyone else. I realize this, and I just call it Leeta’s Logic. I also realize it is good to hear how others view topics and get different ideas and have conversations with diverse people. I’m the type of person who will get on the elevator and just start talking to whoever is on the elevator about whatever topic is on my mind.

However, in doing so, I’ve also come to realize that the mind is a powerful tool. When I was a child, I remember a commercial that would come on television that said, The mind is a terrible thing to waste. I really didn’t understand it at that time, but now that I am an adult, I understand the meaning behind the commercial. I think back to times when I was in basic training and during physical training (PT), the drill sergeant would yell out, If you don’t mind, it don’t matter! Since I am a thinker, I began to think about what he said, and I would think to myself, I do mind, and shortly after, I would stop running or stop whatever other exercise I would be doing at that time. As soldiers, we would also have to yell out the phrase, "More PT, more PT. We