F*ck Monogamy: Sexual Freedom is the New Normal

By Sahar Taylor

Many people miss opportunities to restructure, rebuild, and ultimately save their failing relationships because of misconceptions and a lack of knowledge about sexual freedom. This way of thinking creates barriers to the success of many relationships and prevents them from achieving sexual freedom which is at the core of non-monogamy. To become sexually free, one must have an open mind and be willing to challenge his/her current views on sex and love. The irony of it all is that many traditional, monogamous partners may already be participating in non-monogamous relationships without their consent. Cheating continues to be one of the top three reasons many marriages end in divorce and two-thirds of people admit to cheating before and during their relationships. Non-monogamy can be a cure to the pain so many endure from the tribulations of infidelity. The idea of consensual non-monogamy is that all partners consent to sexual and/or emotional connections outside of the primary relationship. Many have found that consenting to extra partners for emotional and/or sexual support, helps to strengthen their bond and creates a more fulfilling and sexually gratifying relationship.

This book offers readers a very tantalizing and seductive peak into non-monogamous culture, while offering suggestions on how to navigate non-monogamous unions such as swinging, polyamory, and open relationships. Join the author on her journey as she discovers her sexuality through her intimate experiences in the world of non-monogamy.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: May 26, 2022
• ISBN: 9780578286884

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Preface

Censorship in America is real. Freedom of speech and expression and your ability to exercise your first amendment right is limited by your willingness to only express yourself in a manner that is appealing to those in charge. The original version of this memoir, Let Me Fuck Your Husband: Healing Black Relationships Through Consensual Non-monogamy, was, and still is, being censored. I was accused of soliciting for sex, which was used as justification for the denial of advertisements on Instagram, Facebook, and other media outlets. The original cover, which displayed three Black, gorgeous, partially nude bodies in a sensual embrace, was banned repeatedly on anyone’s site who dared to post the full-length version. It’s because you used the word FUCK, they said. I challenge you to google "books with FUCK in title, and you will find that several of them made it to the New York Times Best Sellers list and stayed there for years. So no, the use of the word FUCK wasn’t the problem. Perhaps it was the partial nudity that put people on edge and made it appear as if it were porn. Maybe it was the audacity to make a statement such as Let Me Fuck Your Husband in an attempt to normalize non-monogamous sex, love, and relationships while also depicting three Black, gorgeous, and partially nude bodies. Without any other explanation besides you have been denied due to the sexual nature of the book, I was encouraged to change the title and the cover in order to keep the message alive. It wasn’t an easy decision to make. It was my first book, and I spent a great deal of time, energy, and money getting it out to the public. I am very passionate about normalizing non-monogamy and non-monogamous culture. Let Me Fuck Your Husband was my first passion project, but I knew I couldn’t be married to the title; I needed to be married to the message. The new title, F*CK Monogamy: Sexual Freedom is the New Normal, seems to go down a little easier. Similar shock value, without the solicitation of sex."

Monogamy, with all of its restrictions and conditions, is dying. It is a social and emotional construct created to control who we love and how we fuck. It’s time for a change. How we view sex, love, and relationships must change. Although society at large isn’t prepared for such a change, for the destruction of an ideology that is sewn into the very fiber of Western culture, the people are ready. More often, we hear about celebrity couples who participate in open relationships. I use quotations because open is just one particular type of non-monogamous relationship. When people don’t know how to explain those individuals in relationships who share their partners, they label them open, when in fact, they could be polyamorous, cuckolds, or swingers (More about this later in the book). Let’s face it, most of us know someone, some couple or single person that refuses to be in traditional relationships. They may not say it openly to the world, but they exist all the same. Daily, I meet men and women who are bored with mom & pop relationships. They are more than eager to vocalize their discontent, as well as their overall lack of desire to be monogamous. The problem then becomes, what kind of relationship can I have if monogamy isn’t an option? How will anyone love me once I reveal I no longer wish to be in a relationship with just one person? Once they expose themselves, the anxiety around the thought of rejection leaves many feeling lost and unsure if they’ll ever find true love. That is where this book and I become useful. As a Lifestyle Relationship Coach, my goal is to guide individuals to exciting and pleasurable alternatives to traditional sex and relationships, with hopes they will find more gratifying ways to sustain love and stability through consensual non-monogamy or CNM. This book can be useful as a roadmap for you and your partner to properly navigate your journey through the non-monogamous lifestyle.

Oftentimes, we make relationship choices out of fear—fear of what we may lose if we don’t make the right choice or the fear of not knowing where our choices will lead us. If you are afraid, trust me you are not alone. I used to be afraid as well. Like you, I never thought I could love someone and share that person at the same time. Like so many people, I believed that love was a sacred connection that two people shared. This is a common belief shared among monogamists. However, the notion that once you love someone, they belong to you and untouchable by others is an ideal that is fashioned from fantasy, selfishness, and insecurity. Only a minority of humans are capable of achieving the idealistic and heavily romanticized monogamous relationship for a lifetime. I had arrived at a point where I was willing to challenge what I believed about love and relationships because I didn’t feel like I was a monogamist in my heart. Besides, everything else I tried leading up to that point hadn’t worked.

Surprisingly enough, after twenty years of failed monogamous relationships, I decided to give non-monogamy a chance. This is how I discovered that loving someone meant allowing that person the freedom to exist as he/she was, which included the freedom to find sexual and emotional gratification in whichever way possible. True love can only exist in the absence of fear and possession. In other words, you cannot possess a person, claim he/she as untouchable property, then profess your undying love. That isn’t love; that’s possession. But we cannot possess other human beings. Humans are not property for us to own, and you cannot love whole-heartedly if you fear losing that person to others. When you make choices derived from fear, it’s the fear that motivates you, not love, and fear is one hell of a motivator. I recognized that it wasn’t for me to dictate how or from whom my partner received love or sexual fulfillment. I could only control how I loved, and I wanted to do so in absence of fear.

I embraced this ideal of love while participating in an open relationship and found value in sharing myself and my man with other people. I’m sure that sounds strange to you, loving while sharing. However, we openly admitted to each other what very few people are willing to reveal about themselves, that we needed to enjoy other people to be happy in any relationship. This wasn’t because we didn’t love each other enough; we loved each other a great deal. We just knew it would be impossible to have our needs totally fulfilled by the two of us alone and were willing to explore ways to ensure that both of us were happy. Now don’t get it twisted; all of this was new to me. I didn’t start at a place where I understood how to love, or knew exactly what our relationship would look like, or even how difficult it would be. To be honest, I was a fucking mess. It took time, a lot of emotional growth, stability, and maturity to get there.

This memoir is my journey to that place. Sharing this with you allows me the opportunity to help guide others who are fed up with doing things simply because it’s the way things are done. I decided to utilize my voice to help liberate other men and women who feel helpless in their relationships. So many people think about experiencing many of the situations I will reveal to you. The difference between me and the people who only think about it is that I actually do those things and love it; it is a lifestyle I’ve chosen. Within these pages, I’ve compiled some of my most intriguing and compelling experiences so that you may gain a more interesting perspective of non-monogamous culture. I would like for my story to be used as a road map, providing guidance on how to effectively initiate and participate in relationships that are quite different from the norm. I want you to use my experiences and those of other non-monogamists to guide you on your lifestyle journey.

My own journey was a whirlwind. Be prepared to read about my sexual entanglements as I shifted from traditional, monogamous relationships, including a marriage, quickly divorced, then journeyed into the world of non-monogamy in an open relationship. Once that relationship ended, I evolved into a Unicorn, having unique sexual and emotional entanglements with a variety of couples, discovering my true place among them. As I became heavily involved in the lifestyle, I recognized the lack of diversity in sexually uninhibited environments. That observation evoked my desire to open the hearts and minds of people of color everywhere to alternative forms of relationships. Please make note that the reference to people of color in this book is meant to be inclusive of any variation of Brown-skinned people from every culture. Occasionally, the reference to Black folks is made, speaking more to the culture of Blackness and less of actual skin color. Also, the reference to couples does not strictly pertain to those who are married or in legally committed relationships. At the minimum, it’s two people who fuck each other.

Respect is given to the choices that every individual makes regarding sexual identity. This book does not seek to dismiss any gender or sexual orientation, but it is also not all-inclusive. This book was written specifically for people of color on their quest to achieve sexual freedom, be they straight, gay, or otherwise. This book is not about gender identity or equality. Therefore, in this text, you may not find who and what you identify as.

This book is also not intended to replace therapy. Still, it can be used as an informative text for those who struggle with the restrictions of monogamy and seek safe, pleasurable alternatives to achieve sexual freedom.

Intro

"If monogamy is normal, why is

infidelity so common?"

I fucked my first couple in 2017. I was on vacation in Negril, Jamaica, at Hedonism II, one of the few nudist adult playgrounds in the world. That year wasn’t my first time there, but it was my first time while having the mindset of freedom and happiness over everything. By that time, I had been divorced for four years and was no longer willing to compromise who I was just to be in a monogamous relationship. I repeatedly hid myself from my partners, including my ex-husband, and I no longer wanted to live a lie. I had been married to a man who was jealous of his own shadow if it stood too close to me, so I was never comfortable talking to him about my desires for women or other men. However, once I was single, I was free to explore my sexuality in any way I chose. When I heard about the event at Hedonism or Hedo from a friend, it was a no-brainer. It was a chocolate-filled event, complete with nudity and public sex, and it was exactly where I needed to be. I had no idea that my experiences at Hedo would change how I interacted with both men and women forever.

Welcome to the nude side! some random, naked man said while standing on the balcony of his beachfront room. He then pointed to the big sign posted on a tree ahead of us, Nude Only Beyond This Point (And we really mean it.). We still had our swimsuits on but were quickly reminded of the rules. Without hesitating, we disrobed, oiled up then ventured to the nude side. As the days went by, I realized that the sexiest and freakiest shit happened in the nude pool. And that is where I met the couple who really challenged what I thought I knew about myself sexually.

The wife was absolutely gorgeous! She had big hair, big breasts, and a body you would kill for. When we first saw each other, the attraction was instant. She was with her husband, who was also attractive, but it was she that got my attention. As I made my way to the swim-up bar, she approached me with a hug and pressed her beautiful breasts against mine. Our sex energy was crazy magnetic, and as we drank and laughed, all I could think about was what her pussy tasted like, and that thought alone made my head swirl. I immediately realized that a fire was set inside of me, and I refused to extinguish it, as I had so many times before. Prior to that day, I had been with other women, but none that had my pussy pulsating at the thought of burying my face between her thighs. I can’t really say I considered myself Bi at that time. I just knew I liked women and was open to new experiences. As we chatted, I noticed the shade casting my way from some of the other women in the pool. I had just arrived at the party and had already won the attention of one of the hottest women there. Others wanted her, but she chose me.

We hit it off quickly in that atmosphere. Although I wasn’t new to the environment, it was the first time I was surrounded by naked, sexy people partying freely, without the worry of being judged. If you haven’t partied nude before, you’re missing your blessings. There’s something magical about nudity that changes how people interact with each other. The energy that exists in nude spaces is so powerful that you can’t help but become deeply immersed in the atmosphere. When naked, you are truly exposed and forced to be more social and relatable because you can’t hide behind the false façade that clothing creates. The nude environment is also highly erogenous and sexually stimulating, which will have you questioning and testing your boundaries in the most creative ways.

I never imagined I could desire a woman so intensely, but being next to her, feeling her bare skin brush against mine, smelling the conditioner in her hair as she swung it from side to side, aroused and amazed me at the same time. I watched her intently, how her lips parted when she smiled, the way her breasts bounced as she bobbed in the warm pool. The sun was blazing, which made the water glisten and reflect on her skin. I wanted her. My heart rate elevated every time she touched me. I had never been so drawn to a woman before. My sexual attraction toward her was powerful, and although nothing was verbally stated, I knew her husband was definitely trying to fuck. He watched us eagerly as we flirted with one another, but he played the back a bit, laughing, conversing, and getting us more drinks. He wasn’t overly aggressive or annoying like men can be in those situations. He just chilled and let her work her magic. Although she was coming on to me strong, I could tell she wanted me to like him too because she kept saying, Babe, she’s gorgeous right? as if not only to get his approval but to let him know I was who she wanted for them. He would agree with a