The Book of Beautiful Feelings: Thee Quintessential Guide To Deliberate Creation
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Originally stirred up around 2013 on scrap paper & juice-stained journals...
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This book finally came to fruition in 2016 after a raucous ride. I am pleased to say it was my very first book. It is different from the rest of my books because it dawned only when I was just beginning to feel like it was safe enough to shine. I just came off the streets of Philadelphia & like a cat... managed to land on my feet somehow. It contains a rather distinct version of the most harrowing part of my life story, not for the faint of heart. However, the pages thereafter are a delightful peruse down the endless isles of imagination, leading to all the many ways that... ANYONE can heal their demons, if you just invite them in for a little sweet tea.
It is dedicated to all the underdogs of our culture that deserve to now WIN, all those who suffer or struggle(d) with abuse, addiction, or incarceration... & their families. Essentially, this is a guide facilitating the art of holistic recovery via MANUALLY reintroducing the feel-good chemicals back into an otherwise "special needs" brain ravaged by drug or alcohol abuse, & the like.
Not to mention, FEELING GOOD is how we maintain freedom. Deliberately CHOOSING to feel good is the modus operandi of a MASTER MANIFESTOR. Gain this skill just by reading! Fortified with over 100 colorful images, this book is like a cool magazine from cover to cover.
Looking for ways to become more mindful? Look no further. All it takes is to be grateful within the details of the moment. If you decide to go forth unto the many beautiful pages & beautiful feelings that are captured within this book, you will see how mindfulness comes naturally. It's simple. It's easy. Words are wands. Thoughts become things.
If you do not have the beautiful feeling faucet flowing by the end of this book you just might be dead inside.
BookonFire Press~ InLoveWeTrust
Jenay Zapparelli
Jenay Zapp is an Indie Author of 9 books, a Philadelphia native, a Wilmington NC local & a changemaker who is a skilled technician when it comes to scattering the ashes of yesteryear. Tuned to Infinite Intelligence, she is your trusted source for all things happy, healthy, healing, wise, 5D, New Earth and the Golden Age of humanity. Leading people to the "Promised Land" she is an avant-garde provocateur of righteousness, a proactive agent for the greater good, a lightworker, cosmic conduit, proponent of plant-based eating and a prosperity conscious activist. Her work simply cannot be ignored! A former prostitute, and hopeless drug addict lost and strung out on the streets of Philadelphia who lived to tell, her story is nothing short of fascinating. It can be found in bits & pieces throughout all her books, but in its entirety in these publications: The Age of Aquarius, The Devil's in the Detailz & Porn: A Hard Look. There you will find homegrown "Ted Talks" chock-full of page turners that will 100% rock your world & leave you feeling lucky you met her. Her books are channeled, edgy, fun, entertaining, nostalgic, and relatable. Simultaneously, they are instrumental regarding human evolution, enlightenment, and deep spiritual transformation. Revolutionary characters such as this, show up to help us crack codes, cut cords and move on triumphantly, with bells on.
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The Book of Beautiful Feelings - Jenay Zapparelli
Copyright © 2016 by J. Zapparelli First Edition
Copyright © 2021 by J. Zapparelli Second Edition
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form without written permission of the author/publisher except by reviewers who may quote brief excerpts in connection with a review.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Zapparelli, Jenay D
Title: The Book of Beautiful Feelings: thee quintessential guide to deliberate creation
ISBN: 9798516466311
BookonFire Press, Wilmington, NORTH CAROLINA Manufactured in the United States of America
Published by: BookonFire Press /www.bookonfireblog.com/ "Revolutionizing the World One Book at a Time."
Subjects: Nonfiction ⬥ Inspirational ⬥ Motivational ⬥ Health & Wellness ⬥ Self-empowerment ⬥ Self-development ⬥ Poetry ⬥ Gen-X ⬥ Affirmations ⬥ Relationships ⬥ New Earth ⬥ Human Potential Movement ⬥ Pop Culture ⬥ Autobiography ⬥ Cosmic Consciousness ⬥ Animal Rights ⬥ Human Rights ⬥ Holistic Healing ⬥ Addiction Recovery ⬥ Mindfulness ⬥ Spirit Guides ⬥ Nature ⬥ Mysticism ⬥ Spirituality ⬥ Social Justice ⬥ America ⬥ Mind, Body, Spirit ⬥ Soul Mastery ⬥ Metaphysics ⬥ Quantum Mechanics ⬥ Chakras ⬥ Energy ⬥ Meditation
Table of Contents
Dedication
About the Author
Introduction
Chapter 1: What Are Beautiful Feelings?
Chapter 2: Let the Beautiful... Games Begin!
Summertime
Coincidence, synchronicity, serendipity, synergy, harmony
Sleepytime tea
Things that make ya go... hmmmm
Life is good
Caring and kids
Chapter 3: Thoughts Explained
Chapter 4: Thoughts to Think
Chapter 5: Keys and Kisses
Chapter 6: Music, Money, and Gifts
Music
Money
Gifts
Chapter 7: Connection
Chapter 8: Pop Culture
American holidays
Tattoos
Threads and ornaments
Tee shirts and bumper stickers
Talking heads
Books
Smell goods
Chapter 9: The Metamorphosis of Moving Forward
Chapter 10: Pack Some Snax, Come Follow the Moon, Catch a Ride on the El Train
Snax
Come follow the moon
Catch a ride
Chapter 11: The Contract of Commitment & Affirmation
Affirmations/Outro
Bibliography/Diamond Resources
Meet Her Books
Dedication
This book is dedicated to anyone & everyone who has ever been caught up in the struggle of addiction & anyone personally affected by it. I wish to give a voice to those who cannot speak. I would like to be an advocate for those who suffer. Victims of abuse, addicts, those in recovery, any person with a personal struggle, any person doing time in a prison cell... must know, there is hope, that this too shall pass
& promise of a better day will indeed come, if you will indeed give yourself the chance to change, grow & realize your own happiness. It’s up to you, my friend. I am no different than you. You have gifts too, a purpose & a light to shine, just like me. I commend you for your strength to survive. Bouncing back from hard times, recovering from substance abuse, self-loathing, trauma, mental illness, or abuse... takes tremendous patience, courage & faith.
If I can do it... so can you. And not only can you do it
but you can also very well maintain it, more importantly. The power lies within you! This book can & will be a catalyst for your freedom & happiness. Trust the Universe, this book is in your hands for a reason! Sometimes it’s the hardest roads, that lead to the happiest places.
Special thanks to my Mom, my Dad Ernesto (R.I.P.), Patty Natalia & every beautiful soul that ever touched my life. Just to name a few: my handsome brilliant son Nevan, his family: Heather, Cole, Nico & Nathan. Skinz, J. B., Ducky, Silky, Kenneth G., Khalid, Chef Bob Hart, Skip Lanx, Stephen the storyteller... old flames & friends will always remain a part of who I am today.
Throwback dynamic duos→ Jon & Peter, Donna & Mike, Jim S. & Ryen E, Steve & Rudy.
Family gems→ Aunt Sue & Aunt Cass (R.I.P.), Gary, Annmaria & my handsome cousins Matt & Nick.
To all lovely fans, family & friends old & new, musicians, artists, poets, crazy amazing people that make up this wonderful melting pot of doers, believers, achievers, & warrior spirits! You guys make the world go round. And, if I never told ya...
you inspire me!
About the Author
Hi. My name is Jenay. For the record, it took me until a little beyond my 42nd birthday, to grow a pair. With that said, allow me to introduce myself... I am an empath, healing agent, intuitive light guide, gifted writer, researcher, poet, gypsy & sage. I am a conscious leader, channeller & righteous renegade for the Spiritual Revolution. I’ve always been this brand of superhero within. Ever since I was a little thing, wearin’ knee socks & making up dances... I knew I was wired different. But regarding what I am about to say... I am more importantly, a survivor. Yea I walk through the valley of the shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou art with me: thy rod & thy staff they comfort me.
This biblical quote is relevant to my journey, & soon you will find out why.
(circa 2016) Just this week, I began for the first time to own my power fully. This is how I came to the great epiphany that my dedication page, bio, & intro must be revised immediately. Better late than never, I guess. Ha... story of my life. Late bloomer syndrome. That’s what happens when a child’s growth is stunted by the immature, selfish, irresponsible adults around them. It’s simple cause & effect. As an adult, that child has a faulty foundation doomed to crumble & destined to need serious structural renovations.
For valid reasons, I was ashamed to write this initially, for fear of judgement, exposure & excommunication from certain circles, but the heck with it. I am who I am, & the past doesn’t define me, it only turned me into a phoenix as it refined all my rough edges. Today I am reinvented, & like Angie Jolie in the movie Maleficent,
I grew my wings back. For the record, I could be classified as an old soul who was born here enlightened, hence the knowledge & wisdom inside the book you’re about to read. Intel from higher dimensions has always been accessible to me. But unfortunately, any optimal spiritual journey I could have had was rudely interrupted by a savage sojourn that led to a big long pause... hence wings being severed off for a time.
At age 19 I was a bohemian travelling street musician of sorts, chasing dreams with creativity & promise at the helm, right alongside my high school sweetheart who was basically my cosmic soul twin. Steve kept me safe for a little while, so to speak, much like an Archangel would. However, a decent into hell would soon follow 5 years later, which in retrospect, I see could not have been avoided due to the harboring of a painful childhood past. It’s almost like it was just a matter of time. But at least I was lucky enough to travel first, across this beautiful country of ours like a freewheeling spirit, meeting unique amazing people & getting schooled at the University of Life Experience.
I was fortunate enough to accumulate knowledge & wisdom on the myriad of Spiritual Arts. I was certainly a wide eyed, eager & enthusiastic student of life with fearless abandon. I studied & practiced prayer, art, music, & meditation from the wonderful assorted fascinating folks of our great nation. I was fortunate enough then consequently, to have a bunch of magic tricks in my back pocket before the sh** hit the fan, so to speak. This then enabled me to have some cosmic protection in the most dangerous & darkest recesses of human experience, which may explain why I was able to dodge all those bullets, virtually unscathed. For that I am grateful. Most people don’t make it out alive... let alone in good shape.
It was all a dream... I used to read Word Up magazine...
-Juicy by Biggie Smalls
You know very well who you are... don't let ‘em hold you down, reach for the stars.
Can you hear it?
This is just a summary, so I will get right to it. At age 24 I was led into the lives of people who were both creative artists but slaves to the drug game as well, & that’s how it all began. I then became a heroin addict. I thus then became a thief & prostitute to support my habit, and when all was said & done, I basically abused every single drug in the book. I was a victim of child abuse as a kid, physically, but more so emotionally. Toxic parental behaviors scarred me psychologically by distorting my sense of reality & as a form of rebellion, I began getting caught up in the criminal justice system quite quickly at an early age.
Even though I had great potential, it would never be realized until much later. As a damaged & emotionally stunted young adult I became a victim of addiction, incarceration, sexual assault, aggravated assault, homelessness & helplessness. I became a convicted felon who was in & out of prison, on & off drugs, in & out of rehabs, halfway houses, & recovery houses, most from which I snuck out of, escaped, climbed out windows, & scaled down walls & fences to go back out & get high again. I had six different aliases, I had warrants in 3 different counties & never called home for X-mas unless I was locked up in a cell & needed commissary. I didn’t care. All I wanted to be was comfortably numb, & that... I was.
A close friend once said to me back then, that he never met anyone that cried so much. Life to me, just felt too hard to live w/o codependence on something to help mask the pain & get me by. Numb was my answer. If that doesn’t make parents out there think twice before deciding to berate, belittle, hurt, harm or abuse their small spongy child, then I don’t know what will. Karma is a bitch. Moral of the story: don’t neglect, abuse or abandon your kid. It never ends well, for you or for them.
With that said, consequently, my stomping ground became the dangerous hood of North Philadelphia where I got chased with knives, hammers, and baseball bats. I jumped out of moving cars, out windows, off roofs...running for miles through the ghetto barefoot, hiding out in dirty abandon houses that smelled of urine & garbage, hiding in closets for hours, & sometimes even dumpsters. I slept on dirty mattresses covered with 100s of empty dope bags, drug paraphernalia & used condoms. I slept on couches full of roaches in trailers filled with mice & rats. This is not an embellishment.
I have been pistol whipped, robbed at gun point, jumped by 8 violent racist bad girls that threatened to take a razor to my face & make me ugly. Instead, they stood in a line & one by one beat & kicked me almost into a coma causing severe nerve damage to most of my teeth. I was called whore, slut & crackhead. Banned from neighborhoods, bars, & stores. I rode the El-train to keep warm at night & sometimes just for fear of falling asleep in an unsafe place, I stayed awake for days. I was the target of such racial slurs as white bitch.
I was strangled nearly to death on 3 separate occasions by three separate men causing me to lose my voice from windpipe damage. After being brutally attacked & beaten unrecognizable once, E.R. doctors had to sow my lips back together. I was chased by cars, by drug dealers, by johns.
I lived in cars, lived in crack houses, was solicited by pimps & drug dealers on the daily. I was maliciously raped several times, in addition to being sexually assaulted by an undercover cop & choice warrant unit officers in exchange for not being arrested.
One sunny Spring day, I found myself underneath the likes of 16 Philadelphia police officers who felt it necessary to trample on top of me when I tried to get out of handcuffs for stealing a candle at a dollar store. They crushed me into the ground so hard I couldn’t breathe. I had bruised ribs, cuts & abrasions too many to count & yet they still thought it was necessary to blind the crap out of me with police grade pepper spray. 4 teenage boys walking toward me one lovely afternoon bouncing a basketball, decided to charge it full speed at my face... which rang my bell good, knocked me off my feet, shattered my glasses, & blackened both of my eyes, as they stood there scoffing at me like bullies. Talk about PTSD. To this day, I shudder if a basketball is being bounced near me.
I detoxed on many of hard cold dirty jail cell floors surrounded by mean-girls, con artists & criminals that had no mercy. Plenty of times I could be found curled up on metal benches with one stale cheese sandwich & one 4oz carton of warm icy tea every 12 hours not knowing my fate. I’ve been quarantined several times to a cell on lockdown enduring unbearable drug withdraws alone with no medical attention well over 10x. There was a point where I hit every single detox in the city & surrounding area, that I maxed out all funding & options.
I went w/o eating for days, my all about that base
was gone. I was malnourished, 90 lbs., cracked lips, knotty hair, no underwear, zebra print platform shoes & all I had to my name was a dirty pipe & a crusty straw. That’s just the half of it. There is no... one single rock bottom.
There are several. I was crawling on rock bottom, for so long... for Pete’s sake, I had gravel imbedded into my hands & knees.
I have been exposed to the type of trauma most people never even see in movies or documentaries. My artistic aptitude visualized a documentary unfolding while I was an addict in the hood because it was hard not to notice the scandalous shock value of the street subculture. I sure feel like I had the idea way before any of these new reality TV shows became trendy. I even found a videographer once who followed me a around for a bit. But I was in no condition to execute such a sophisticated project. I really truly never thought I would ever escape addiction or the criminal justice system, to be honest.
I caught a glimpse of my rap sheet once in the public defender’s office on her desk... & I think I almost fell off the chair. The plethora of charges was horrifying. It looked as if they were going to ship me off to a backwoods Upstate