No Visible Bruises
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CONTENTS
Preface
The Beginning
Ian Page
People v. Kenneth Lyle Simmons III
Robert Frank Jonaitis Jr.
Dennis the Savior
Thomas Edward Rifenberg
Renee Tietz
Poems
Trauma
Soundless Night
Decisions
Sleeplessness
Mess after Meals
Time
Bedtime
Trust
Pills
Plagues
In the Moment
Serenity
Meetings
Suicide
PTSD
Parents
Ice Storm
Admiration
Without You
The Voice That Embraces
Depression
Flu Bug
COVID-19
My Dearest Love
Alcoholism
In the Dark of Night
My Husband
My Friend Annie, the Wheelchair Bound
My Dearest Love
Duke, my Dog
Grief
My Heart Aches
Dearest Dad
My Friend — An Alcoholic Mania
What Limits?
Past Teachers
Then and Now
Racism
Gratitude
PTSD — Once Upon a Time
Parent–Child Paths of Enlightenment
Forgotten Pain
A Learning Experience
My Bipolar Lot
The Emerging Road
Father’s Day Wishes
A Life’s Work
PREFACE
There are several people I need to thank for the inception of this book, without whom this book would just be a passing thought.
The first is my psychiatric nurse practitioner, who persuaded me to write this.
Second, I must thank my therapist, without whom I would not be as healed or together as I am today. I now enjoy the fruits of her hard work.
Third, my doctor has had a large hand in my recovery from various illnesses, both physical and mental. He treated me with the expertise of a psychiatrist when I was in between one.
Fourth, I must thank my son because his great need for a healthy mother spurred me to achieve heights that I never thought possible.
Finally, I thank my husband, for without his abiding love, I would not be soaring as an eagle today.
I do want to take this opportunity to thank you for purchasing this book. Because of you, my dream of setting up a nonprofit organization would not be possible. All the proceeds from this book are going directly to this organization. This house will afford women like myself, dually diagnosed (addiction and mental illness), a safe place to stabilize and learn how to live and function.
Again, to all, heartfelt thanks!
My pen name is Diamond. I am forty-nine years old, and this is my story.
THE BEGINNING
As far back as I can remember, my brother loomed large over me. He was always the policeman who thumped me because of my being the robber
or the cat in the cat–mouse game, with me being the mouse. In fact, sometimes you can say that our relationship was like that of the animals we had in our little miniature zoo—always viewing for dominance. We had lots of chickens, a dog, some budgies in an aviary, and a spider monkey, last but not least our aquariums. I should say that it is his aquarium, mainly because they were all alive and well, unlike my aquarium, which grew algae well but seemed to be a death sentence to any fish that happened to be in it.
An interesting curiosity was our spider monkey. It had a great distaste for our male nanny; his name was Rajiv. He just happened to be the one elected to feed the monkey. It hated Rajiv for reasons we will never know. The monkey used to bite, hit, and kick Rajiv. Any time Rajiv went near him, Rajiv would end up a stump if he started out as a tree. Often though, we wished that our father would have given us money instead of a couple of nannies and a whole slew of fancy animals. It would have been nice to have a warm full belly.
We grew some food and peppers. The peppers were there because that was how we flavored the rice and a good source of greenery. Straight white rice is not all that appetizing, but when you add some greens and peppers, it starts to taste much better. Mom was always broke because in those days, teachers did not make good money. My mother was an English teacher, so we grew up with two languages in the house and often spoke half English and half Malay.
When I was six, my brother Naim said to me that he was going to do something special for my seventh birthday. I remembered it, all right. I still have nightmares about the movie to this day, though the name has faded. My brother took me to a horror flick when I turned seven! I can still see the mud people in those dark moments. I am not sure if I will ever forgive him for that. All in all, things were good up to the age of seven, granted that sometimes food was a little meager, but we were not starving, if that means something.
Unbeknownst to me, life was going to change beyond repair after my mother met and married husband number two, David Jackson. Just as an aside, husband number one, our father, divorced her. We were not privy to the discussions of who belongs where; we just knew that Mom was not going to be with us anymore. In my heart, I