Evidence of Existence

By Casper Morten

The concept behind the book, is to provide the world with evidence of my existence.
An attempt to create some art that will have the potential to live forever.
To leave a mark here on earth.
Like when you carve your initials into a tree,
It’s the same mindset.
You’re allowing the future generations to know that you were here.
That’s what i'm trying to do.
That’s the purpose of this book.
I’m simply trying to live forever.
Or the memory of me to be immortalized.
Hoping that I can be considered worthy of this.
I just wanna be heard.
I just want the future to know
I was here. That’s the simple concept of this book.
Achieving my purpose.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Sep 21, 2021
• ISBN: 9781543499032

Book preview

EVIDENCE OF EXISTENCE

For a year

I’ve been convincing myself

That it would get better

If I just gave it time

I’ll keep it straight

When I deliver the next line

I am not happy

Despite my efforts

Trying to overcome the hump

Because I really wanted it

To be okay

I really wanted it

To be like it once was

But I understand

The present can not remain

So we gotta expect changes

I just thought that

Maybe I could control the change

By making a change, myself

But it did not work

I failed

And to be honest

I am exhausted

Exhausted of giving energy

To a cooperation

That does not care

Their attempts are driven by greed

To paint a picture

Meant to portray

That they do

I am

Exhausted of living this existence

That provides me

With nothing

But a fear of the future

That I will be an old man

That made it to the finish line

But in ignorance thought

That the only objective

Was to finish

At first

I thought that

I was exhausted

Because of working

But in reality

I was exhausted

Because I had to go to a place

That no longer provided happiness

And since I’m growing older

I understand

That sometimes

Things doesn’t change

But rather

We change

We grow as people

And as we grow

Our views become different

Our minds will no longer tolerate

Something that doesn’t

Approve of our character

And you can always expect that

Change will always be consistent

So I’ve decided

To go on path

Towards my purpose

And the reason

That I haven’t done it before

Is because

I’ve been lacking courage

I get caught up in fear

More often than I wanna admit

But I’m trying to be brave now

So this purpose lies within

A book that I have written

This book full of poems

Will allow the world

To see me perfectly clear

My voice and mind

Will finally be something

That people will hear

And once they are heard

I can disappear

With a smile on my face

As I finally close my eyes

This book will signify

I was here

Evidence

Of

Existence.

1992 IDOLIZED

When I was younger

I told my mother

I wanted to be like my brother

But he left her here with me

Realizing that he’s someone

I don’t wanna be

My older brother

I hate the way you make her feel

For so many years

I thought you was real

Through so many tears

Mama helped you heal

But now you’re nowhere to be seen

My brother, you’re selfish

Your presence is beyond precious

To Mama

But I fucking doubt you even care

Tell me brother

Did you know Mama is sick?

Or are you too caught up in your own shit

That in your life, Mama no longer fit

Do you see mama as your mother

Or is your dad’s wife your real mother?

You should see the way

Mama is trying to recover

From your actions

That made her suffer

But the thing is

Mama can’t

She can’t recover from the misery

Cause you left her in mystery

She keeps looking back

To the time in history

When you was there all the time

Let me tell you something, my older brother

Mama is shining

And you don’t deserve to see it

Until you stop whining

I know you went through a lot of shit

but so did I

And mama was there through it all

So stop drowning your sorrows in alcohol

Be a fucking man

Like I always thought you were

And use your hand

Pick up the phone

And reach out to mama

Like it was a part of your birth plan

Do