A Planted Seed

By Artina White

When a seed is planted it is buried it gets buried into the ground. It's dark and dirty. Every seed has a purpose. 'm taking you on a personal journey of my life to discovering my value and purpose. Asyou journey with me you will discover, as I did, that your value and purpose come from God. It can never be diminished by the actions of others ot

• Language: English
• Publisher: Natson Publishing & Creatives LLC.
• Release date: Sep 24, 2021
• ISBN: 9781087990224

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Secret Place

Two weeks prior to me sitting in my secret place, I had begun to feel like I was walking into a new season of my life. God had started speaking to me in my dreams. God had given me a dream, and, in this dream, I had planted two seeds into the ground. I remember being in a field, the field had no harvest and it looked like the ground was perfectly plowed. Then I had awakened out of my dream, and all I could do was lay in my bed trying to digest it because I knew that God was speaking to me. 

The dream actually had reminded me of when I and some of my girlfriends had gone to a concert a month before I had the dream. We had gone to a gospel concert in Cincinnati, OH and I wasn’t expecting anything but to get my praise on. The line-up of the concert was incredible. They had Fred Hammond, Anita Wilson, J. Moss, William Murphy and Isaac Carree. Not to mention the tickets were only twenty dollars. 

I was excited on the day of the concert because I had just gotten, in the mail, a consultation date to talk to an attorney. The reason I wanted to meet with an attorney was for my divorce. I had been married at the time for two of the longest years of my life. Although a big part of me really did not want the divorce, I felt that it was needed for the both of us. I was tired of the infidelity, him being in the streets, hanging with his boys every night. He was also living with another woman, and out of his mouth, he told me that he did not want to be in a committed relationship. So, when I received that paper in the mail, I said: Lord, this is it, this is really about to be a new beginning for me. I felt like I could move on with my life without feeling trapped in a marriage. Notice I said I felt like it. 

I was sitting inside of the concert minding my own business and praising God. William Murphy had sung a song called ‘It’s Working.’  The song goes, This is my season for grace and favor, this is my season to reap what I have sown. Another part of the song goes Everything is working together for my good. 

A lady who was sitting next to me had grabbed my hand and said to me, You are highly favored! I looked at her with a blank stare and smile, and I was thinking to myself okay who is this lady and where did she come from?  She repeated herself and said, You get to make a choice and God doesn't give everybody that opportunity. When she had told me those words, I had thought about Mary the mother of Jesus when the angel Gabriel had appeared to her and delivered a word from the Lord. 

I’m just going to call the lady Angel because she was definitely sent by the Lord to give me those encouraging words at that time of my life. Angel didn’t stop there with giving me words; she also had said to me that there is no right or wrong decision and everything, in the end, is going to be worth all the hell that I am going through. I had thought to myself, when is the end? And how long is it going to take for me to get there? I was lost for words. In spite of everything that was spoken to me, all I could say to her was thank you! My marriage was really weighing me down. I said to the Lord, in the spirit, Although my husband is not doing right by you or me, you want me to trust you.

Angel had turned around and looked at me again and said, Pay attention to the words of the song (being sung by William Murphy) because it was for me. Then, all of a sudden, she had begun to shout and praise the Lord on my behalf. I felt like my whole body was numb and I couldn’t move. I was still in awe and lost for words. Everything that I was going through in my life at that time, I knew that Angel was sent by God. Angel had just confirmed the majority of the issues that I had been battling with at that time of my life.

God had ordained that moment for me to be at that concert because I felt like God had given up on me. I have never seen Angel or had a conversation with her for her to tell me about myself and my relationship with God. I am going to be honest, although Angel had just given me those inspiring words I was still upset. I was upset because I felt like God was letting my husband get away with everything that he was doing, and I was being humiliated. I mean really, he was living with another woman. I was hurting, and I felt like all eyes were on me. I had a dagger in my back, and God was just letting people continue to push it in deeper and deeper.

I was still in love with my husband, and I did not want to be one of those people who gets married then turn around and get a divorce. On the other hand, I also wanted to just move on with my life.  However, I was also allowing my marriage to keep me oppressed. I must have worn everything that I was thinking and feeling on my face. Angel looked at me one last time and said,

Whatever you do, don’t do it out of emotions. 

The dream that God had given me about the planted seeds was on a Monday. I remember it just like yesterday. On Wednesday of that same week, God woke me up at 3 a.m. When I had awakened, I had a green root hovering over me while I was lying in my bed. Honestly, it had scared me at first because my room was pitch dark. I didn’t know where I was, and I had to make sure I still wasn’t dreaming. I remembered the seeds that I had planted in my dream and what Angel had spoken over my life. I knew that the root hovering over me and my body lying under it was a sign from God. My life was that seed and If you know anything about planting seeds they have to go through a process before it can bear any fruit.  

This was a season where God had begun to speak to me, and I had no choice but to listen. I was beginning to grow spiritually, and I was entering into a new phase of life. Not only did God give me a dream about planting seeds, but I also had a dream that I had gotten fired from my job. I woke up, and I prayed because I couldn’t take care of myself and my three sons with no income. I did feel like I was being attacked while I was on my job. I would play gospel music at my desk, and I also had a mini bible that I kept open on Psalm 23.

My supervisor did not know how to communicate well with people. She would talk nasty and rude to almost everybody with whom she came in contact. Personally, I couldn’t take it. I literally sat at my desk one day and pictured myself choking her for talking to me like I was a nobody. But, in the midst of everything that I was going through on my job and in my personal life, I would walk down the halls at work and see visions of myself speaking at conferences to thousands of people around the world.

Every time I had those visions, I would get excited to know that my life has a purpose and what I was going through would not be in vain. At this point in my life, I was trying to do everything right because I was tired physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. God was allowing things in my life to happen to get my attention, and it all started the summer of 2010.

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Summer of 2010

In August of 2010 Timari, Dj, Tae’veon and I had moved to Birmingham, AL. I told my sons when all three of them started going to school that we were going to change our environment. I had never been apart from my family in Dayton, OH, but I wanted a change in my life. I felt like I was not getting anywhere in life. I felt like I was caged in what I thought was my city, but it was actually my own mind. Every time my sons and I would go and visit my father in Birmingham, AL, I knew something was missing out of my life.

Although I was 27 years old, I always wanted to be closer to my father, brother, and sisters. I thought they were the perfect family I mean my father had his own construction company, a man of God, living in the suburbs and always had a nice car. When I went down to visit, he had even bought my brother and sisters a vehicle. I wanted the man that God sent to me to be like my father, and I wanted my sons to grow up around their grandfather. 

My family in Birmingham always got together for the holidays and family reunions. I remember the weekend of the Fourth of July of 2010, the same year I was planning on moving down there. We had so much fun that weekend. My father had a big