If You Only Knew

By Shermaine Gore

The reason why I wrote this book is because I wanted to express all of the things that I was going through in my life in order for me to prepare myself for the next level of my life, which means to put my past behind me and live toward my future. I had to get this stuff out of my system in order for me to be free.
Here are seven things I desire in my life:
1. Happiness, peace, love, and joy
2. Travel around the world and be a motivational speaker about my life and my book
3. Earn my master’s degree in psychology focusing on marriage and family counseling
4. Maintain a peaceful household. No more drama!
5. Publish my first book
6. Purchase a Lexus or a Jeep Compass
7. Start my own business in Atlanta, Georgia, or Washington DC

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: May 24, 2021
• ISBN: 9781664176126

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Copyright © 2021 by Shermaine Gore.

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CONTENTS

Preface

Acknowledgments

Chapter 1 Introduction

Chapter 2 After High School

Chapter 3 Living on My Own

Chapter 4 My Life Changed at the Age of Twenty-Five

Chapter 5 His Grace and Mercy Endure Forever!

Chapter 6 Losing Everything

Chapter 7 Living in the Shelter

Chapter 8 Back to Basics

Chapter 9 Marriage Again

Chapter 10 The Custody Battle over My Daughter

Chapter 11 Paying a Ransom for My Daughter

Chapter 12 Guess Who I Saw?

Chapter 13 My Flower

Chapter 14 Ebony and Briar

Chapter 15 A Change for the Better

Conclusions

If you only knew!

PREFACE

When I lie down at night and go to sleep, before I close my eyes, the last thing I would say or hear is my last thought. Good night, Jesus. I will see you in the morning. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 read as such. No matter what happens, always be thankful, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. Amen.

Every morning when I open my eyes, I thank God for waking me up and starting me on my way. He gives me the strength and power to deal with all of my trials and tribulations every day. My life journey has not been easy.

My daddy used to always say, If you wake up in the morning and placed your feet on the floor, then you are okay. But if you wake up in the morning and cannot get out of the bed or put your feet on a flat surface, you are not okay.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

The purpose of this book is to explain how God sent me a message when I attend a different church on Easter Sunday, April 25, 2011. The name of the church was called Living Waters Worship Center, located at the following address:

8262 Lokus Road

Odenton, MD 21113

Telephone: [phone]

Faxed Number: 410-672-4262

Website: www.thewaters.tv.org

Services: Saturday, 6:00 p.m. to 7:15 p.m. and Sunday 9:00 a.m. to 11:30 a.m., and from 11:30 a.m. to 1:30 p.m.

As a result at the end of the service, they distribute a VIP package to all of the visitors and invited them to come again.

CHAPTER 1

Introduction

A. When God Created Me

On January 26, 1963, God created me. I was born in Washington, DC, the District of Columbia. Back then it was called D.C. General Hospital. That first day was strange because they placed me in an incubator due to birth defects such as breathing. They had to shave half of my hair off and put needles in my head—something like when they put those thorns on Jesus’s head. All I can see at the time was darkness. I know that I was just a baby, but I can remember this like yesterday.

The hospital room was very cold, and I was lying on my back, kicking my feet up like a normal infant, when all of a sudden I saw Jesus come toward me, and he stood in the middle of the incubator wearing a white robe. I could not see his face, but he opened his arms wide and said to me, I will bless you and keep you. Then he made a cross sign in the air and left the room. Next then I knew the doctors told my mother while scratching their heads standing at her bedside. They said, I never saw anything like this before because I had a speedy recovery. They kept me in the hospital for one week, and then I went home.

As a result, my hair is different from another person’s hair because of the growth and the texture. My hair is stronger in the front or the top of my head versus the back, for example, when I cut my hair, it grows back faster in the front than normal. When I color my hair, the dye fades away within one week. Later it’s supposed to be jet black. Now it’s black and white, so when I

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