Four Days and Four Months

By Alishia B

Ever thought of transforming depression into an ambition?
I took that bold step towards the burning issue of the society without evaluating the outcome. This book is about personal encounter towards an unforeseen affair while dealing with trading market, has completely reshaped my life. The irony was, fell for a stranger whom I never met or had a glimps, just spoke. Isn’t that bizarre? Reminds me about the perfect phrase “Love is blind”.
Moreover, the realization of people dealing with depression became stronger when confronted with one myself. Hence took fearless move to reach out to the wider world. However, did ponder about the embarrassing and humiliating state it will put me through. Plenty of question has evolved, daunting my decision and warning regarding the aftermath. Ultimately stood my ground to open up and leave the decision on the readers. Not expecting any empathy but surely appreciation to take such a radical step.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris UK
• Release date: Aug 5, 2019
• ISBN: 9781984590718

Alishia B

Attaining teaching qualification from East and West has enabled to explore two extreme parts of the world. It has enhanced the ideology of life opening doors into unexpected zone. Being mother of one and older sibling of four never had an opportunity to fulfill desired dreams.

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Rev. date: 08/02/2019

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CONTENTS

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Finale

This book is dedicated to my Mum & Dad whom I worship as God

CHAPTER 1

Had no inclination that I was heading towards a mid-life crisis until, a stranger providentially, entered my life, without any apprise. This person taught me life changing lessons which felt like hard slap with a huge wakeup call. I kept thinking what exactly went wrong or maybe it was meant to happen. I was in a daze, all kind of thoughts running around in my head. In my somewhat confused state of mind I tried to make sense of the whole situation. The puzzled mind has been constantly boggling with similar thoughts, but the baffled brain has lost its intensity to gather the whole situation.

Silence of David started to clot the chest so hard that I could feel lungs getting choked to inhale. Struggled to control the pumping of heart rate. After a while pressed hard to reduce the pumping, but failed. It was a challenge even to hook the bra, sounds hilarious but in that situation it was pain in the backside. Everything came to a sudden and abrupt stop. All appeared dark and foreboding mode – no trace of gleaming light to show hope of assurance. Life has always been harsh whenever tried to get closer to someone or developed a sense of liking. Felt like blaming God, why do we have heart? Wish I could separate it from torturing the innocent body for no reason. Significantly, every hour of the day seemed stretching longer and longer. Where can I hide or alienate? Drained by frustration of inability to bear the succumbed affection led to continuous headache. Immediately realised none of the medication would make any difference because heart wouldn’t accept the reality. Moreover, shoving painkillers down the throat was a big ask. Embarrassing truth can’t swallow any pills.

Leading to the sole question, why is it happening? What triggered in four months that led to this tremendous attachment? Apart from casual flirty chat we never promised anything to each other nor made any commitments. Then why can’t I accept the fact that it was just a business deal and move on in life. I believe we disclosed too much personal information about our lives which resulted in empathy. Actually, could blame my gift of gab which bear no full stops once the sentence starts. In