The Last Weekend: A Story of Love, Loss, and Hope
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Each year, millions of widows and widowers face a new “normal” life because of the devastating loss of their spouse. In this modern, digital age, losing a beloved spouse comes with more than it used to. For author C. B. Schneider, the loss of her soul mate one April afternoon also meant that all of the account passwords died with him, his digital life locked away.
Shutting down a digital life is not an easy task for those left behind. The Last Weekend documents one woman’s battle with grief and all the new tasks to be done, showing you how to make it through the first thirteen months of your new “normal” life.
C. B. Schneider
C. B. Schneider was born in the sixties and has lived in St. Paul, Minnesota, all her life. She has a grown daughter, Kristen, and a shih tzu named Frodo, who keep her company after the loss of her beloved husband of thirty years. Schneider holds a master’s degree in organizational leadership and a bachelor of science in business administration from the University of Northwestern–St. Paul, and is an eccentric visionary with a love of history; The Last Weekend is her first book, with more to come.
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The Last Weekend - C. B. Schneider
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WestBow Press rev. date: 04/12/2019
Contents
Introduction
1. April 2017
2. 911 Emergency Network
3. Donor Call
4. Funeral Planning
5. Picture Boards
6. Music
7. Eulogy
8. The Celebration Luncheon
9. The Enormity of It All—Widowhood
10. Bill’s Antics
11. Anger
12. Unreality and Disbelief
13. Two Walls
14. Emotional Pain and Sadness
15. Physical Pain
16. Month 3
17. The Necessary Items
18. Obituary Notice
19. Shutting Down a Digital Life
20. Actual Death Benefit
21. Bank Accounts
22. Social Security
23. Cell Phone
24. Car Loans
25. Student Loans
26. Selling the Elm Street House
27. Other Phone Calls
28. Solitude
29. Past and Present Pain
30. Month Seven
31. Month Eight
32. Months Nine and Ten
33. Month Eleven
34. Month Twelve
35. My Borrowed Antics
36. Month Thirteen
Afterword
Bibliography
Appendix
Death Discussion Checklist
There are so many people to thank for making this book a reality that I could go on and on; blood family and family friends, you know who you are and how much I love and cherish all of you. My bottom line is to thank God for the vision and the words, and for Bill, my beloved husband, who never stopped believing in me. Ever.
Introduction
I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD OUTLIVE MY BELOVED HUSBAND, BILL. I THOUGHT WE would be one of the few couples to grow old together like bookends, still in love as the decades rolled by. Well, here I am, sixteen months after his unexpected death, and I’m trying to stay focused on learning to breathe again, without him.
If you are reading this, then you may have become a card-holding member of the widow/widower club. Welcome. I wish (just as you do) that we were not in this club; the dues are extreme. Even in this digital age, we can’t hit the reset button, no matter how much we want to. There is no do-over.
I want you to know that you’re not going crazy. You will have good days, mediocre days, and horrible days ahead. Not gonna lie. Your grief path may be similar to mine; it may also be vastly different. Some of the thoughts I’ve documented in my new journey may cause you to cry, laugh, just nod your head, or all of these. We’re the same but different. We’re widows/widowers in a digital age who will have to fight with every ounce of our being to be able to fix our digital lives for ourselves and our family.
You’re lonely but not alone. Take a deep breath. Take another one. And take one more. Learn to breathe deeply again.
God is with you.
C. B. Schneider
August 13, 2018
CHAPTER
1
April 2017
NO ONE EVER TELLS YOU HOW TO BE A WIDOW; SOMETIMES, IT JUST HAPPENS OUT of the blue. My Saturday blue sky brought instant widowhood without warning, without any promises, and without my best friend for the rest of my life here on this earth. In thirty minutes on April 29, 2017, my world came crashing down, and I knew my life would never be the same.
My husband was one of those healthy individuals who gets a cold, is sick for one day, and is 100 percent better the next day. Super annoying. I would then get the cold and be down and out for a week or more, sniffing, coughing, using up all the Kleenex in the house. Bill was a happy person, always cheerful in the morning. My rule was Don’t talk to me until I talk to you; you are safe once I talk to you.
He was the reason I got up each morning and went to bed with him each night. He was my safety, my rock, my love, my other half, and the father to our daughter, Kristen. He was Daddy. He was the one who could soothe her nerves, the fail-safe car fixer, the manual reader of the house. If it was electronic, he not only understood it but also would install it and teach you how to use it. He was the handyman of the house. We planned for now, and we tried to save for the future that we thought we would have with each other. Undiagnosed heart disease and a massive heart attack proved both of us wrong just five months shy of our thirtieth wedding anniversary.
BILL AND CHRIS SCHNEIDER, SEPTEMBER 25, 1987
The beauty of our relationship meant that we talked about everything and nothing. We had discussions about death. We both knew that we didn’t want to continue life if either of us were hooked up to a machine keeping our physical forms alive. We agreed that the surviving spouse should go on and find love again. I remember these conversations as if they happened yesterday. We were so filled with love for each other. We thought these conversations were unreal, but we still had them, together.
I have provided a discussion form (see appendix) as a way to start a conversation together. These conversations are really important! If you don’t have a living will, you will need your surviving spouse to know your wishes.
We both wanted to be cremated for a number of reasons, one being that we didn’t want to purchase land just to be buried in it. We viewed land as something to use or invest in when you’re alive or provide as an inheritance. You don’t own anything once you’re dead. While this would give the survivor(s) a place to visit, it wasn’t something that either of us wanted for the other. Also, it’s easier to visit his urn that has found its place in the living room. I still have him