Confessions: The Love Story You Want to Feel . . .
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It is the most unique gift of love designed for couples or individuals. Often we feel we must have a silent scream and still smile. This book finds the ecstasy in exhaling—sharing the truest, purest heart and the newest rose-budding smile.
It is a truth and an unveiling of my eyes as the intention was ruling, renewing, and elevating my life, not just the outcome, to celebrate rebuking the old and becoming the best me or each of us that we can be—not just for each individual but for all of those around us that we also impact.
I put this into the world to encourage self-evaluation, self-strength, and appreciation, acknowledging healthy partner love yet not necessary.
A day celebrating love is in thought because one of my daughters loathed a holiday built upon connection and approval of another, which often was not her space. Yet this is well beyond that and the holiday. Although it is lovely to share love through the entire country, it is never the focus. No matter what I did, she could not see her beauty on this day because it was not acknowledged by another as we can all relate yet can enjoy despite.
Knowing and finding our strength often proves to be the forest. But one strong tree can stand even stronger next to another or even just as beautiful alone.
That strength, that level of love, and that grounding of one’s own roots last every day of the year—an elevated love.
G. Meridian Paris
This author has also written “Southern Women”, from the voice of the disabled victim fighting for normalcy, “Chameleon”, helpful points sourced from extensive experience regarding human trafficking, and now “Confessions”. The author expresses up close and personal and professional experiences.
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Confessions - G. Meridian Paris
© 2019 G. Meridian Paris. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 10/15/2019
ISBN: 978-1-5462-7794-1 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-7283-0248-5 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-5462-7795-8 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019901058
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25377.png1_pass.jpgTo have an educated mind you must have an educated heart…
G. Meridian Paris
Contents
Sugar: Loosing The Addiction; Finding My Own Sweetness
WALKING ON GLASS
Tolerance Dissipated, And Rediscovery…
The Band-Aid Effect
Beginning to Love…
Ribbons, Laces, And Frills
Roses, Tulips, And Calla Lilies
Stunning Blue Irises
First Birthday; Again…
Alstroemeria & Rose
Doves Of Love
Harps And Orchids
Maple Leaves At The Foot Of The Bed
Swans Of Purity
The Shell: Protective Of Life, Love, And Self-Actualization
Lyrical Art, Oceans, Boat Rides, And Inspiration
The Elegant Purity Spoken And Creatively Unspoken From The Heart
Entangled Fingers Of Holding Hands: Of The Eternal Friendship
and Eternal Love Of Prince Albert And Queen Victoria
THE ONE-SIDED RELATIONSHIP
Constellation
Art, Poetry, Gems, and Inspired Music
Claddagh-Synergy
Mesmerizing Gardens On A Plate And Healing Red Clay
Productivity And No Holograms
Cupid’s Arrow Struck The Greek Apple
Lace Parasols And Intense Gourmet Chocolates
UNITED ENDEVOURES;
"Of course. And both very, very uncomfortable, but THE BEST PLACE IN THE, you know,
HURRICANNE IS, like, IN THE MIDDLE OF IT." - Jay-Z
01.psdSugar: Loosing The Addiction;
Finding My Own Sweetness
LOVE. What an interesting sentiment. It is an overwhelming elegant dance when you electrify this synergy with someone else.
Love is often associated with expectations and responsibilities that may or may not be accurate.
But can you love yourself tomorrow better than you love yourself today? Often, when we think of love we immediately think of another, the absence and expectations of the void that the another would fill, but not simply ourselves. If someone inquires, do you love yourself
most immediately shrug an outburst of of course I do
. But, do you excite yourself because you woke up? Do you look forward to moments in the day that you will spend with yourself? This is beyond what you can do, to appreciate yourself is a level and this is a deeper level to that beginning. To care for yourself is a wonderful basic shallow end start. To take pride in what one can accomplish and push that to the most utmost limit is coming out of the shallow end.
So, Happy New Years! Happy Valentine’s Day! Happy every day! Today is not just about how life incorporating you intertwined with the balance of others, today is also about you loving you!
02.psdWALKING ON GLASS
When being determined that the house had to have every single item removed, either to donate, storage, or mostly to let go, some things broke. It was hard to watch that happen. Several times, I got glass in my feet, in my thigh once when I sat down, and so forth. It was not that we aimed for glass and it did not happen in every moment. It was that it was impossible to keep up with the fragments and to keep going on the pace that we were aiming for. It can be looked at as trying something new or an adventure for life’s new page turner. The new chapter can be seen as a harmonic melodic concert. The beginning to the next ride of our lives. It may not be the only ride to take but at least preparing for the ride is the first step.
On one of the last days, I stepped onto glass. I did not fret at first, as it was not the first time and the mission was the focus. I was not able to get this piece of glass out and over time the glass in my heel made it hurt with every step. In the following days, others took the time to attempt to tweeze the glass from the swollen and sore location upon my heel. They could feel the knot but could not see the glass. Every touch streamed further pain through me. I withstood the added extreme shooting sharp pain in hope that each time would be the last and the glass would be removed. It was not only excruciating. Each time, they still did not remove the glass. I knew each step would hurt and could have quit. I could have quit and let go of the sweet dreams as the overwhelming situational blazes were breaking loose. I walked on this foot. I did not let it stop me. I checked it, I said occasional comments when it became almost unbearable. My tolerance was in determination. Some inquired if the forced situation of the circumstance made me clear out the amount that was cleared. No, it would have been easier to move it all into storage and not go through it. To not reveal to others how much had accumulated from fear and time. Now, there is a tiny knot in the bottom of my foot. Some thought it would work its way out, but that theory only worked if I were not walking on it every day and in an enclosed shoe. And yes, often I began in shoes but due to cleaning, rain, lots of rain as winter was coming in, and other circumstances, often the shoes would come off. Once I even had on sock slippers and the glass went through that. It was a magnetic hourglass. One of the children were board and kept trying to figure out how it worked. Of course, they broke it. They were sorry, and we placed the two pieces onto the table to get it immediately out of their reach. The next person who came by in just moments knocked into it and the top part shattered across the floor. We swept but could not find it all. Some shards were found when reaching for other items and suddenly sharpness is felt in the side palm of the hand or such. That is not the piece that is now wedged permanently into my foot behind scar tissue, for me to always have a reminder, but glass was everywhere and much of it just simply became destroyed in the process.
I knew from the glass around it that it was a thicker piece but not antique mirror or 1970s table glass thick. It does not pain me in each step but I yet to have to see the repercussions of the glass remaining within my body. For now, it serves as a reminder. A reminder of how much has to be conquered, how painful it truly is, to reach the other side. Like a diet, yes, one can do fat freezing through lunch or other measures that may be necessary but unless they change a diet and begin to exercise at least somewhat to utilize the body, then the same behavior will render the same outcome. The same verdict may not be the goal if one is attempting to do fat freezing or surgery. In my case, the pre-packing or getting rid of a few handful of things, and a few trashcan loads, at a time. The first time I was aware of the problem, the first grocery trip for two items ended up being an entire trunk for the place we stayed for a couple of weeks and for the first temporary location. I had to remain tremendously aware after that not to transfer one necessity area to another. I also reminded myself that no matter what pain emotionally, physically, or anything else that I was ever about to face, I was walking on glass, and then after all that it was worth reaching the next step. And as far as the glass, I touch the knot from time to time, but it does not shoot pain into me with every step anymore. I suspect this is what it is like to reach each new phase of life. You must be willing to endure all that is dished, including walking on glass. It may hurt to make a change, but the effort is worth it. And improvement of what we do know lets us begin to know what we do not know, what is next to reach for.
Tolerance Dissipated,
And Rediscovery…
Unlocking the power and knowing the existence of a problem, I came to realize are two separate
things. To climb a mountain has to occur one step at a time. But the path may not be seen. I
was stronger than I knew and had a voice that only others said was great. I did not know how
to conquer and achieve what I believed was once and desired once again. How to feel the
strength and being stronger than I even knew, where to begin? By being willing to take the step.
By asking for help but putting more effort out than I even knew I could do. It was not just the
physical, but also the mental levels. There are so many hours in a day. We reach for those things
that are most important to us or is required for another goal, such as survival and prestige. I
knew I did not want to turn back and some things, if I had taken longer to think about them, I
would have held onto them longer. To self-maintain, to force a better step of oneself despite the
obvious barriers and others doubts and believe me even in this situation there were doubters,
is always worth the modification to what is important on a daily basis.
There is so much information online on every single subject or topic. Friends and family have
opinions. One has to know the combination of measures that one desires to implement, stick
to it, and utilize to make a difference. Also, at what pace does one accomplish the clear journey
and path to be taken?
I recall a supporter becoming angry with me and providing an analogy. They told me of being
a boxer in a boxing ring and that you have to be at that level to even compete with them in the
ring. I cried. My soul just withered, and I felt dismay. I felt as if I had to bring who I was up,
that was true. I had done much to make that begin but had a long way to go. I felt that truly we
were walking on the same trail path. We were looking at the same changing season leaves, the
same frost on a pond, twirling in my own dance next to them and feeling the synergy through
our climb. I also realized that one slows down to try to step into someone else’s footsteps.
I never saw us as the same footsteps. Yet, supportive and moving with the same conviction
and on the same path in the same direction, yes. I cried that night. I lifted my head with a new
light and his words and his beliefs that he always said regarding me as if they were bird sung
melodies in my heart. I had heard him often. I have not been able to listen. I was now able to
begin to shine my brightest light, but lights come in all settings, and I was New Year’s excited
to find mine. I was lucky to have someone who desired to suggest to me instead of negativity
or pushing, until I actually could feel the meaning behind the words they were saying. It hurt
more to hear them when they were occasionally negative versus anyone else because they
said something that many did not, and I did not know how to feel in order to believe, "You
are stronger than you know; I believe in you". It was the perfect personal gift. Sure, a flora is
gorgeous. It was a continuous gift from the heart. And they backed their words with actions.
The feelings behind it. The thoughts that went into it. The positivity of even the one comment.
People say to surround yourself with positiveness. Sometimes, that is not an option. Sometimes,
situations are so overwhelming, just knowing what to admit without complaining can be hard to
find within ourselves. Sometimes, people know the problem, but they provide meaningless or
empty gestures because they do not know what else to do, negativity may be more partial to
their nature, or they are overwhelmed by the matter and cannot bond with it. If the environment
is toxic, reach online for uplifting, reach within oneself despite any environment and then decide
what you desire for tomorrow. How can that be reached? Seeing tomorrow is taking today to
reach that visual. Then, what is the first step to take? Even if that step takes a year, stay focused,
the first step is the hardest.
The Band-Aid Effect
Doing it all at once can be fine and good but it does not resolve most internal issues.