I Used to Be the Sun

By Valeria Eden

I Used to Be the Sun is Valeria Eden’s debut collection of poetry and prose. It is a summation of her experiences with love, loss, hope, and her journey through brokenness and the healing that came from it. I Used to Be the Sun takes readers through a roller coaster of emotions that leave you on the other platform with the message that despite the ups and downs, we have survived it all.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Nov 5, 2018
• ISBN: 9781984564276

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Copyright © 2018 by Valeria Eden.

ISBN:                    Softcover                      978-1-9845-6428-3

                              eBook                           978-1-9845-6427-6

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Rev. date: 11/02/2018

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this book exists because someone believed in me. someone who saw the light in me when i was convinced there was none to be found. thank you, my love. this is for you.

to whomever finds this book, please know that you are holding my heart in your hands. treat it gently. do the same with your own.

The Setting

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i wish that i could think of you and remember all of the times we loved without question, the smiles we shared, swaying to lord huron in my kitchen, the way our souls embraced, or the days and nights that i started and ended by curling into your chest.

but whenever you cross my mind, every happy memory is tainted by the one where you left when i needed you to stay.

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                         all i do is wholeheartedly

                         give myself to people

                         and somehow i am still surprised

                         when they take

                         instead of give back

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                                     forever

                                     or until one of us loves less

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                     some days

                     i wonder how the sun feels

                     and if she is tired of burning herself up

                     just to keep everyone else warm

                     i wonder

                     whether or not she knows

                     that she is killing herself to shed light

                     on a planet that is also dying

                     i think about whether or not she is lonely

                     if she too knows how it feels

                     to be isolated in a crowd

                     some days

                     i wonder

                     whether or not it is a compliment

                     when people tell me

                     that i remind them of sunshine

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               i have anger boiling in my bloodstream

               and concentrated misery in my bone marrow