Falling Through Love: Poems

By Akif Kichloo

“Beautiful . . . Kichloo speaks to predecessors as diverse as Seamus Heaney and (fellow doctor-poet) Rafael Campo in a series of lovely, compelling poems.” —Chaya Bhuvaneswar, author of White Dancing Elephants

Falling Through Love submerges readers into Akif Kichloo’s deeply personal yet widely resonant experiences, exploring relationships in their most exposed and honest states. Written in a variety of poetic forms—free verse, rhyme, prose, and visual poetry—Falling Through Love takes the reader on a poignant journey with the writer, about charting one’s own path in life, investigating failure, family dynamics, and love. Looking at life backward and forward simultaneously, this collection brings forth new perspectives on what it means to be alive, to have made mistakes, to have fought for an identity, to have loved and lost and then loved and lost again.

“Falling Through Love is a brilliant and unapologetic exploration of faith, loss, mental illness, and the many facets of love. Kichloo’s compelling storytelling will remind you of the push and pull of love.” —K.Y. Robinson, author of Submerge



“Reading Falling Through Love felt like what I imagine Alice felt like falling into Wonderland—it’s beautiful (almost overwhelmingly so), evokes a remarkable variety and amount of emotions, and ultimately causes you to look inward towards yourself . . . The poems and artwork throughout Falling Through Love create an emotional journey that you can’t help but relate to.” —Juliette Sebock, Nightingale & Sparrow Literary Magazine

• Language: English
• Publisher: Open Road Integrated Media
• Release date: Nov 5, 2019
• ISBN: 9781524860240

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CONTENTS

Acknowledgments

My Father Says Poetry Will Not Pay My Bills, Clinical Practice Will

I Think You Have Heard This Before

Secretly I Am a Mathematician

Salam. I Am Sorry for Yesterday

A Sickness That Is Absolute

Courage: Making Sure with My Actions That My Mother Knows Her Prayers Don’t Work 

A Bird Flies Not Knowing Why 

Opening

In Death Everyone Becomes a Buddha

Basta

Lessons

An Autumn Infinite  

Dreamers Dream Dreamers Do

Always

Riptides of You

PLMD

The Snapshot of a Scientist Frozen in Time

Until Then Love Me Like This

Stuck in a Melancholy Flower

Palliative Care

Post-Laughter Guilt

Elegy for Our Unborn Child – 1 & 2

Anomaly

Gateless Home

Meditations

The Absence of Everything

For Madness

The Lover Disappears & the Mirror Falls Silent

Some Questions from a Past Self to the Present Self

This Is How I Still Keep Holding On to You

Promise

Restricted Entry

Calling a Mountain a Spade

sometimes what we call love can be an ugly thing 

Notes on Rakeeb without Qaafiya

Falling into Love / Neither Here nor There

Against Madness

Sometimes Loss Looks Like a Mirror 

What is fair. What has been fair. What would be fair. Why fair. Who promised it?

Simple

So Much More

There is a girl who likes fire

A Juneberry Plant Doesn’t Blossom in June

Hitched to Nothing

The Voyager

Episode I—Clinical Depression

SUICIDE

I Am God I Am Not

Is there a place where regret comes from?

A World Where Everything Ceases to Conceal Us; A Quandary

I Find God Everywhere There Is Nowhere to Go

I Love You

Stockholm Syndrome

NOTES

At the Crossroads I Met a Beast

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Acknowledgments

I am grateful to the following publications and their editors, where versions of these poems first found homes.

FlyPaper Magazine:

Courage: Making Sure Your Mother Knows That Her Prayers Don’t Work

Homology Lit:

Horrors of My Childhood Horrors,

My Father Says Poetry Will Not Pay My Bills, Clinical Practice Will

Obra / Artifact:

I Think You Have Heard This Before

Kissing Dynamite:

"Salam. I Am Sorry for Yesterday,"

Secretly I Am a Mathematician

Nightingale & Sparrow:

Dreamers Dream Dreamers Do

Sheraza:

Riptides of You

Verse of Silence:

Basta

Palette Poetry:

An Autumn Infinite

My deepest gratitude to my elder brother, Asim Kichloo, and his wife, Farah Wani Kichloo, for allowing me to stay at their home for the final months of working on this book. This book wouldn’t have been possible without their support.

To my sweetest nephew and best friend Adam, for all the exhilarating tales from his four-year-old existence and some real deep talk. For his honesty, innocence, and unconditional love. For making me believe in love again.

To Surbhi Pathania, for being there for me whenever I needed someone to look over new work and for contributing her wonderful artwork to this book. It wouldn’t be the same without her help.

To the wonderful staff at Barnes & Noble, Saginaw, Michigan, for allowing me to sit on their couches for the better part of six months, and the baristas there, for refilling my coffee mugs an endless number of times, and, of course, those two-for-one cookies.

To everyone I crossed paths with while staying one full year at the foothills of Himalayas, in Himachal Pradesh, India, where this book was originally conceived.

To Dr. Asif Khan, for doing what he does best.

To Adnan Khateeb, for his ceaseless technical support.

And to every patron of the arts. Thank you. By supporting artists, you are helping make this world bearable enough for everyone to live in.

I wrote this book for everyone who has