Death Without Dying
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I only pray that there will be someone or many who read this and know there is hope and help. You are not alone, and you can make it through the storm and manage to find the light of day. Never give up trying! Always love and forgive yourself! You are lovable and capable and worthy of being happy and loved.
Life is a highway. Ride the road and enjoy the journey.
Robin S. Anthony
In the year 2016, I am moving forward with a positive attitude. Life has ups and downs, but I can conquer any obstacle that comes into my path. Peter, Donna, and Angela Amadeo thought I would crumble and die when they put me out of the house. Not so! There is life beyond 39 Summit Road. I have a lot of accomplishments. I am a certified peer specialist, an author, a singer, and an actress. I have turned lemons into lemonade. Not to mention that, on November 15, 2015, I had a three-and-a-half pound tumor removed from my shoulder. I am doing fine.
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Death Without Dying - Robin S. Anthony
Death
without
Dying
Robin S. Anthony
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Contents
Chapter One
Darkness
Chapter Two
Falling into Frustration
Chapter Three
Trying to be an Adult
Chapter Four
Trying to Survive in the World Hindered by Mental Illness
Chapter Five
Could the Cycle of My Life Get Any Worse?
Chapter Six
Going From a Nice Home Living in the Suburbs to Being Homeless
Chapter Seven
Living at Robert’s House Part 1
Chapter Eight
Living at Robert’s House Part 2; More Losses and Setbacks
Chapter Nine
Brighter Days and Feeling More Hope
Chapter Ten
Another Journey Through the Valley
Chapter Eleven
Job Had Nothing on Me
Chapter Twelve
Learning to Use Coping Skills and Accepting What I Cannot Change
Chapter Thirteen
Heartbreak and Heartache
Chapter Fourteen
Hope for a Better Year and More
-March 22, 2011
Dear Mom,
I write this letter to you to give me closure. I found out a few weeks ago that you passed away. I guess I don’t feel sorrow or grief! I just feel numb. Pierre and Dawn never contacted me, I found out through a nurse that worked at the Coyne House.
You never called me to see if I was doing all right. You knew Robert’s house was a mess and he is an alcoholic. Let me just give you a run down of how life has been for me the last six years.
I lost EVERYTHING! I have no family. I have friends but no one can help me through the terrible journey I have to take.
• I lost all my money that I saved. I hired a dumpster for $395.00 to clean the house and Robert put everything back within hours of my hiring the dumpster.
• I had to contend with Robert’s friends stealing my things and being a threat to my safety.
• Robert was drunk most of the time and he broke most of my things.
• I had to walk every place a lot of the times in all kinds of weather.
• Robert forced me to buy a car that was a lemon for $2,500 and I had to have it towed.
• I lost my beloved Yorkshire terrier Susie Q on August 5, 2008 because Robert will not fix the door. She had the value of $900.00 but the point is I miss her and I will never get her back.
• The furnace is unsafe and I am always afraid of fire.
• The ceiling leaks every time it rains in the bathroom and the kitchen.
• The toilet backed up on the clothes that I am forced to keep in the kitchen and ruined them.
• Robert won’t give me a bedroom and the clutter is deplorable.
• Valerie and Lynn do not want to bother with me because of the way I live.
• I had a nervous break down in 2008 and now can only work at Trudy’s between 3 and 12 hours a week.
• Robert expects me to pay for everything and I had to give him $2,500 for his transmission on top of everything else I lost.
• I can’t take a bath in the tub because the tub is filthy.
• I can’t watch TV because there is no signal.
• I am trapped in his filthy house from morning to night because I don’t have a car.
• He once hit me in an argument that we had.
• The yard is filthy and the fences are broken and I have to worry about the dogs when they are outside.
• I have met undesirable people in my life that took advantage of me because of my dire situation.
• I tried to rent a room and the couple were drug addicts and I never got my security deposit back.
Well my life is ruined. I have been to the hospital countless times for stress related illness. I lost $630.00 to hire a handwriting expert and $1,000.00 for the defense lawyer to defend me. The probation officer put a warrant on my license and I had to return to court to drop the charges that Pierre put against me.
You did NOTHING TO PROTECT ME OR THE DOGS.
You signed the second deed leaving the house to Pierre and Dawn when I had no place to live.
I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THAT!
I used to believe in God and an afterlife. I am not sure there is a God or a place called heaven. If there is a heaven I hope you are not there.
I hope I do not encounter you in another life!!!
I can’t undo the damage you allowed to enter my life. My life is forever tarnished and I know I will never truly be happy again.
I only look