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Because we are human and a warrior never backs down. Not even when he knows he's headed for total downfall. He sticks to himself and his ideas. This is what it means to be a warrior. If you don't, you betray yourself.
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Fragment of Time - Roland Mezőfi
Fragment of Time
Roland Mezőfi
Underground Kiadó Kft.Contents
Impressum
FROM THEN 2008-2018
History
August 21, 2009
First-Year In The Capital
January 13, 2011
August 20, 2011
October 3, 2011
October 18, 2011
December 31, 2011
December 19, 2013
December 29, 2013
Goodbye To The Infection
God Brought Me Into Life
Already Ordered
Oppressors
May 9, 2016
Heavenly Plan And
Return, Or No
Another Year In Jail
CONCLUSION
Cue
TINY PIECES
THE THREE OF US
DO YOU REMEMBER
I MISS YOU SO MUCH
OBSESSION
EVERY MINUTE
WASTED EMOTION
LAY OUT PAPER
ALL FOR THE CROSS
EYES DOWN
WHAT IS THE POINT
CHILDHOOD MEMORY
I HAD TO GO
NO LONGER
IN INSULATED BOX
DRIFT OUT
THE AFFECTED
PICTURE REVIEW
I DREAMED WITH YOU
INTERESTING BEE
SUMMER THUNDERSTORM
I FEEL SHATTERED
UNFINISHED
THE CHOICE
TRANSITION
I WILL BE THAT
FAILURE
YOU WILL NOT LOSE IT
ALOM FACTORY
REMEMBER
YOU STILL REMEMBER
ON MY OWN WAY
THEY REMAINED QUIET
GOODBYE ZO
SPIRIT PRESENCE
EXTERIOR COLOR
PANIC
DEGREE OF EFFECT
BRIDGING
I KILLED IT
LAUNDRY
LAST PEOPLE
ON STANDBY
IDOLATRY
DAY 467
ENCORE
READ BETWEEN THE LINES
OVERCOME FATE
BRANCHING
WHEN THERE IS NOTHING ANYMORE LEFT
WEAPONS AND WORDS
STONE WORLD
SOMETIMES LESS IS MORE
ON THE EDGE OF EXTINCTION
DISCOUNT
PROBESSION
NOT MY SHAME
LAST FIGHT
SUNDAY ASPIRATIONS
THIS WAY IS FREE - THE RIGHT WAY
AFTER COVID
COMPLETE GAME
IN AN INSULATED BOX, II. PART
LAST PEOPLE
AS OF NOW
THAT'S WHAT THEY SAY
TO STAY STRONG
AT THE RIGHT OF THE LAST WORD
AS I EXPERIENCED IT
JUST NOTHING HOLY
WHEN I SEE CLEARLY
FOR THOSE WHO ARE STILL FIGHTING
THANK
Impressum
All rights reserved!
Published by Underground Kiadó Kft.
undergroundkiado.hu
Roland Mezőfi, 2023
I'm sorry for the damage caused.
Believe me, I felt guilty enough about it.
A painfully honest confession of will, of man’s struggle with him self. Addiction is a secondary character here, it could have been about anything else. Don’t let its relative brevity confuse you; it has all the important moments. How one become a pariah and from than on has only oneself to rely on in a hostile and hypocritical environment. How to stand on your own? It doesn’t end in glorious victory, as perhaps it should. Nor with defeat. The fight goes on, even if sometimes the fight it self is the goal.
FROM THEN 2008-2018
History
Until I was twenty, I believed in only one thing: understanding breeds contempt. About ten years have passed since then, I had to change almost every word in the writing in your hand. Names, so that I don't reveal who caused pain, thereby further opening up the wounds of the past, so that I relive the pain caused after each reading.
Places do not remind me of the obsessive thought that I was always on the run because I carried too much unpleasant information about every single city I visited. Well, and of course the ending. After all, while I lived in an era, I worked on this book. I didn't even know how it would end. I just drifted and hoped to survive.
As a little boy, it was hard for me to be like the others. I was tormented by oversensitivity, the multitude of problems at the time, and the many emotional outbursts, which neither classmates, teachers, nor even family could understand. I alone knew that the whole thing could be attributed to an irreplaceable void. However, socializing was not difficult for me, I made contact with anyone very easily.
Two rules prevailed during the rural school years. Either you surrender or you disappear. I chose the the former. Since I grew up in a small town, I couldn't find any life situation where I could feed myself. What gave me strength as a child was writing and studying. I wrote hundreds of short stories, which I read to the family every Christmas, and at school, I had to compensate for my bad image with good grades. Although I was full of good intentions, good grades, love and the desire to be loved, I felt like an outsider forever.
I have always chased idols, looking for the company of people with whom I found some excitement. Maybe that's why I started smoking. Maybe that's why I got drunk the first time. But the barriers inside me prevented me from unfolding again and again. I knew even then that it couldn't go on like this. And everything can be blamed on the family situation, and no matter how much my ancestors tried to love me, I needed something completely different. Fort oughness and purposefulness.
After two mediocre and horrible years of high school, when I was filled with fears about real and unreal events that happened in that certain small town; which I don’t want to name. I was finally led to try my luck in a new town.
I became a college student. I had to become enlightened, I decided that I would not continue the previous way of life. I no longer wanted to see those who held me back, those who devoured life in front of me while I barely saw anything of it. It felt like being blindfolded and given a straitjacket that stopped me from he was dying to be touched by my hand. I was thankful that I could finally leave my place of residence because I thought there was no greater contagion. I buried the events of the first sixteen years of my life as deeply as possible. I was naïve, I lived for the longing, but I put on a perfect mask so that it wouldn't show.
A new atmosphere always promotes change that's what I believed. And indeed I fought for every single human connection. Maybe it's the charm of the new place, but I finally felt a little semblance of being somewhere important. I made a lot of friends and that was what filled me up. The afternoons, then the nights, the early morning returns. A pack of cigarettes a day, the beers. Collected the phone numbers of the girls. The attempts. I promised myself that I would finally start living, and the excellent form attributable to this, as well as the goal-seeking drive to immoderation, took over me.
This is how I became much more open in 2008. That's how I met a girl with whom I had things in common, such as writing poetry and playing music. Getting to know each other turned into beer drinking, and beer drinking turned into a direct relationship, and from that became the first kiss. I never thought that this relationship would even get to this point. I was ridiculous. I will never forget what she whispered in my ear; I mean what I'm doing now.
Back then, this was what intoxication meant, walking home by the hand. And when the bus stopped, we fell into each other, then it got on, I waved to him one last time and looked around 360 degrees to see if it was me or the world, but something completely