Coping with Real Life Early

By Racheal Orona

The book starts at 1999. That is far as I can remember. I was raped and given genital herpes from the guy that raped me. I was taken away from my mom at age ten. I was confused because I wanted to be with my mom. I didnt understand why I couldnt go home and live with my mom. I was a confused girl. I struggled with authorities. I was oppositional. I had strong feelings toward my mother for hurting me like she did. I couldnt understand why she gave up on me, for I needed her. Based on my grief from my fathers passing to my beloved husband passing away, finding ways to cope with my losses and surviving without those that had passed away, the happiness of finding love again kept me going.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Dec 29, 2017
• ISBN: 9781543457254

Racheal Orona

About the author: My name is Racheal Lynn Orona I had a hard life as a child. I was a Ward of the state for eight years due to my own mother gave up on me. My own mother let me rot in CYFD custody. I have mental health issues that I work on daily. I married Ismael Orona Jr. February 14th of 2013. I was my beloved husband's care giver around the clock because he was diagnosed with colon cancer. So 24/7 I had to be there for my sick husband who needed me. I have a daughter who I love with all of my heart and I would do anything for my daughter. Right now I am building my relationship with my daughter because I couldn't be there for my daughter because my husband needed me more.

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COPING WITH

REAL LIFE EARLY

Racheal Orona

Copyright © 2017 by Racheal Orona.

ISBN:         Softcover             978-1-5434-5724-7

                    eBook                  978-1-5434-5725-4

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Rev. date: 10/17/2017

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CONTENTS

Chapter 1     1999

Chapter 2     A Confused Girl

Chapter 3     Understanding Authorities

Chapter 4     Feelings Towards My Mother

Chapter 5     My Dad Died 2004

Chapter 6     Grief Process

Chapter 7     Bad Relationships

Chapter 8     1st True Love

Chapter 9     Married

Chapter 10   Colon Cancer

Chapter 11   Obstacles

Chapter 12   My Beloved Husband’s Death

Chapter 13   Becoming Stronger

Chapter 14   MaryJane

Chapter 15   New Love

Chapter 16   Reasons

Chapter 17   Understanding Life

Chapter 18   Love

Chapter 19   Angry

Chapter 20   Heavenly

Chapter 21   Blessings

Chapter 22   I believe

DEDICATIONS

I DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO LARRY MARTINEZ FOR BELIVING IN ME AND ALSO LOVING ME THANKS TO YOU I FEEL ALIVE, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR NEAR ME.. I DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO MY MOTHER LEAH CASSIDY FOR MAKING ME STRONGER, I DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO MY THERAPIST OSCAR FOR HELPING ME, FOR UNDERSTANDING ME WHEN NO ONE ELSE UNDERSTANDS ME. I DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO THOSE WHO DOUBTED ME WITHOUT YOU GUYS I WOULDN’T HAVE SOMETHING TO ACCOMPLISH, I WANT TO PROVE ALL MY DOUBTERS THAT I COULD ACCOMPLISH WHAT I SET MY HEART AND MIND TO NO MATTER WHO DOUBTED ME I WAS GOING TO SUCCEED BECAUSE I CAN. I ALSO DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO MY BELOVED HUSBAND ISMAEL H. ORONA. JR REST IN PEACE MY LOVE FOR YOUR TRULY MISSED BY ME, MAY I ALWAYS CARRY YOU IN MY HEART AND FOREVER IN MY SOUL. THANKS TO YOUR LOVE, YOUR FAITH IN ME, AND FOR YOU UNDERSTANDING ME. YOU ACCEPTED ME FOR ME THANKS TO YOU I FELT LOVED AND ACCEPTTED FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I FELT SPECIAL AND THAT MEANT a lot TO ME BECAUSE NO ONE EVER GAVE ME A CHANCE TO BE SOMEONE ESPECIALLY A WIFE THAT MEANT A LOT TO ME AT LEAST YOU GAVE ME A CHANCE WHEN NO ONE ELSE CARED THAT MEANT SOO MUCH TO ME!!! I ALSO DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO MY FATHER CLIFFORD EARL MULLINS FOR NEVER GIVING UP ON ME, FOR UNDERSTANDING THAT I WASN’T PERFECT YOU ACCEPTED ME FOR ME AND YOU LOVE WAS A TRUE BLESSING AT LEAST YOU CARED WHEN NO ONE CARED, YOU DID, AT LEAST YOU WAS THERE WHEN MY MOTHER WALKED OUT OF MY LIFE. I MAINLY DEDICATE THIS BOOK TO MY BOYFRIEND LARRY BECAUSE HE STANDS BY MY SIDE. WHEN EVERYONE WALKS OUT YOU BABY ALWAYS HANGING IN OUT WITH ME THANKS FOR BEING PATIENT WITH ME THAT MEANS a lot TO ME YOUR A TRUE BLESSING IN DISQUISE YOUR LOVE BLOWS ME AWAY, YOUR LOVE AMAZES ME EVERYDAY AND EVERYDAY I KNOW EXACATTLY HOW LUCKY I AM I KNOW THAT AM A VERY LUCKY WOMAN WITH THE LOVE YOU GIVE YOUR LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL ITS NON STOP YOUR LOVE IS A BEAUTIFUL BREZZY NIGHT ON A CALM BREZZY NIGHT, FOR YOUR VERY PATIENT WITH ME. I THINK YOU UNDERSTAND ME BETTER THAN OTHERS UNDERSTAND ME AND MAYBE BETTER THAN I UNDERSTAND MY SELF YOUR LOVE IS SIMPLY AMAZING WITHOUT YOUR LOVE I WOULD BE NOTHING WITH YOUR LOVE I FEEL MORE ALIVE AND I FEEL MORE LOVED THAN EVER BEFORE YOUR LOVE IS JUST AMAZING ITS THE BEST FEELING TO BE LOVED BY YOU, YOU MAKE IT WORTH LIVING YOU MAKE IT WORTH WAKING UP AND YOU MAKE IT WORTH FIGHTING TO SURIVE MY LUPUS YOU MAKE IT WORTH IT, THANKS TO YOUR LOVE LARRY YOUR MY BEST FRIEND NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU FOR YOUR LOVE ITS A BLESSING AM VERY LUCKY TO HAVE YOU WITH ME BABY YOU MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE TO LIVE JUST BY HAVING YOUR PERSENCE AND YOUR COMPANY YOU MAKE IT WORTH GOING THE EXTRA MILE YOU MAKE IT WORTH IT, YOUR THE BEST FOR ME. NO ONE CAN STOP MY LOVE FOR YOU FOR I AM CRAZY ABOUT YOU, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOR YOUR LOVE COMPLETES ME COMPLETES MY WHOLE HEART AGAIN AM HAPPY THANKS TO YOUR LOVE YOU MAKE IT WORTHWHILE, YOUR LOVE IS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT I AM HAPPY WITH YOUR LOVE AM A VERY LUCKY WOMAN TO HAVE A MAN LIKE YOU. YOUR LOVE IS SIMPLE AMAZINGLY GOOD.

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MY BEST FRIEND, MY ONLY ONE I LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE HEART

HE’S MY INSPIRTION TO WRITE

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WITH THIS MAN AM VERY HAPPY, I HAVE REASONS TO TRY FOR MY BABY BELIVES IN ME. HE’S MY EVERYTHING. WITH HIM I KNOW THAT I CAN DO ANYTHING ESPECIALLY WITH HIS GREAT LOVE, HIS UNDERSTANDING AND HIS PATIENCE, MY BABY IS ONE IN A MILLION AM A VERY LUCKY WOMAN I KNOW HOW BLESSED I AM, AM BLESSED WITH LOVE. WITH REAL LOVE, A FAITHFUL LOVE, AN UNDERSTANDING LOVE, A HARDWORKING LOVE, I COULDN’T ASK FOR MORE BECAUSE AM CONTENT WITH WHAT I HAVE IN LARRY FOR I KNOW HE TRIES HIS BEST AND THAT’S ALL I ASK OF HIM IS HE DO IS BEST, FOR I KNOW NO ONE IS PERFECT WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES ONCE IN A WHILE BUT WE JUST LEARN FROM THOSE MISTAKES AND