It Is God Not Me

By Hannah

This book is about the love of our master, how he saved me and others from the many troubles of life, and his compassion even when we dont deserve anything. He still comes through for us. I wrote some of his goodness to encourage others. He was and is always there for me. He will do the same for others.

• Language: English
• Publisher: WestBow Press
• Release date: Jul 21, 2017
• ISBN: 9781512794694

Hannah

Aja Hannah is a writer, traveler, and mother of two. Her work on race and equality has been featured in publications in the US and UK. Before becoming a journalist, Aja worked as a substitute teacher and educational aide in schools across Maryland, Hawaii, and Ohio for over 10 years. She has worked with students of all ages, from intrepid preschoolers to enthusiastic high schoolers. She believes in the Oxford comma, cheap flights, and a daily dose of chocolate.

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It is God not me

I dedicate this book to Jesus my Lord and Savior,

who was,who is,who is to come.

God of heaven, thank you for everyone you place on my paths

in this beautiful ministries, all praise,glory,honor,

For Jesus our Lord and Savior,

I thank God for those who share their love with the children

And also their life and bread with them

Some time so much is going on, when I seat in dust.

I received an e-mail from sister Miriam, or sister Ruth

And joy came to my heart, than sister Abigail, video call, wow

You are worthy oh Lord, that why

I praise you for those that answer your call to build your house block by block, I also thank my dear mother

For always there as an important part in my life, when I’m thirst, she bring me water.There are time

She call me, you need to rest your back,

she say, you must be very tired

Thank you Daddy, for Mom a good partner,

You give me the best Mom in the whole world, even when I got mad inside,

I thank you for all, brother Aaron, who always

Obedient to your voice to help the kids.

I Thank you for Pastor Joshua, who has been an encouragement,

and a prayer partner, in this ministries,

And, I also thank you for all my children, and friends

You give me, oh Lord my God, the Most High,

the Creator Heaven and the earth,

You are Alpha and Omega.

Lord Jesus, I bless you, for giving your life on the cross for us,

For supporting me, and for been my bridge to Daddy.

Holy Spirit, thank you for leading and guiding me.

Even when there are time, I’ve been disobedient to you

You discipline me, and continue to love me.

Who can be like you Adonai?

You love us with your every lasting love, thank you Abba Father.

Your daughter, who learn to love you too. Hannah

Amen

Lord I thank you

Just for who you are, Eternal Savior,

You give us the power to call you Lord, because of what you done at the cross for me, and many others, but I take it personal

You call me from my youth, you take care of me.

You except me just as I am, even when I make so many mistake in my life

You die for me anyway, thank you is never will be enough, but I will continue

thanking you all the time, that I have the possibility to do so, while I am still alive, not only for me but, for those who have no idea

Of who you are, even though they don’t know you yet.

That why,I am separate in that precious meal, you place in my presence,

your words Lord

Some people, would be a shame of some one like me.

When they knew, what I use to do

I remember when I was pregnant my first son, I leave in one small room,tiny bed, I was hungry,cool, the lady I rent from,was cooking lot of foods,she ate,

and went to her room,

the baby lipping in my stomach with hunger.

I could even talk, for the baby smell the food,

if only she gave me the leftover,what she trowing away, that would satisfy me. After couple minute, I wait until she went to her room,

I go to the kitchen to see what

I can find nothing but,there were foods in the table

I took a hand full of it and ate it, ran back to my room

Lord, you see and know it all, you know when I’m up and I am down, you know, after the death of my son, how many time

I went to the Dr, for more drugs, you know how I’ve drink until

I was completely drunk and pass out, can’t even get up from

Where I was, you know all the ugly I’ve done

And yet you think about me, and receive my

Despair life, you give me yours, a new life

So you open your harm and received me anyway

Despise of all the ugliness that was in me,

You has no reservation, but, you oh Lord.

I call on you, my Lord, you giving me the gift of your Holy Spirit,

to help me discuss your holy words.

Allover, you change me, I feel the different of my new life

Not only feel it, but also seen it.

and tremble even in my Soul.

When, I minister to your saint, I share lot of tears.

Knowing your compassion, even though, lot of your creation don’t know You Daddy, you give me a piece of heaven on heart;

For you know the plan you have for us

You know, after revealing, how much you love me.

You chosen me from the belly of my mother,

to speak your words to your saints,

my flesh constantly try to reminding me

Of my disgraces, and mistake, but you, oh Lord.

You forgave me, PS103 (NLT), You forgot all my sins, and you love me

I try to never use your holy name with just my mouth,

I only want to call your name with my heart.

I also try not to use your word without asking your precious Spirit,

I want to be always in your presence,

this planet is not really interesting me anymore, but, I love to seat in your presence, you are good,and that my desire.

Bless you, oh Lord, you have giving me permission to call on your name, all the time,you say, I can seek, search, and call

Thank you, for allowing me to use your holy name.

Lord, this is what I lean, when we are humble, You answer

May 89, my husband and I sat in a small room,

In a small little one Saturday we were going to a wedding

The old man that rent my husband the place

Saw my necklaces, complimented us,

And the next day, I went to do a little job, before going back where I came from,when we return, the house was rein-sake

They stole almost all my jewelry’s, I was so up set, I mean,

I was mad, and start to talk none senses

Now remember I have left the path of God, I start to curse

I say, I heard there are evil in this world

I will look until I found it to take revenge,

and I will make sure that person pay for what he did

Then, I light a cigarette, we use to smoke sometime 2 parks a day between us two, after talking so much foolishness.

I felt bad, I didn’t have a relationship with our Lord.

But I knew the Lord excite,and I respected you, we go to churches every Sunday

While we were kids depending on Mom,

she don’t let us miss one churches services,

we were raise certain Denomination, and churches every Sunday morning, but for some of us, it just go, because it feel like an obligation, for I know, there are some True brother and sister who are not about religion,

the room that we rent, can only take, one bed, one chest,one night stand

and a the chair, than I sat down,

But my consciences was not in peace.

I said Lord, forgive me, for saying these offal words

Since I was a little girl, I never see mom hurt a fly

Lord, you allow that to happen in our place, the person may need the jewelry’s more then me, since You allow that to happen.

Its ok but, forgive me, I am sorry

Instantly a figure of a person stand before me,

From the neck up, a bright light very pleasant, and beautiful, very toll, with white robe.

A beautiful Sash cross over His chest, with his hands fold one inside an other,

with a big smile, I had a cigarette between my fingers,

I ask who are you? the person said, you call me

I didn’t get it at first, I ask him again,so who are you?.

He show me a big hole on both of His hands.

I asked when they were stealing my stuff where were you?

The head of light just smile

I try to take a smock, my hand cannot reach my mouth,

He say to me, you are coughing don’t smoke

I was forcing the cigarette in my mouth,

It feel like my hand was push away, and believe me.

Till today, I like to know what happen to the cigarette.

After that, He tell me, if you call me, I will answer

If you seek me, you will find me,

if you knock the door will be open

I hide these words in my heart, for I know these words are precious

And He vanish,

I open my eyes, and say to my husband

I see Jesus, and I will not smock anymore, he ask what Jesus,

after you say all these nasty words and you see Jesus, you just want to steel more of my cigarette. No one believed me

Even after my son pass, I never have intention to smock

My prayer to you oh Lord.

Daddy, you know what you did, but

I never understand, how the cigarette vanish

From my fingers, and nothing burn in the room,

Is it because,we were talking in the spirit?

My husband seating right there, did not see nor hear You.

Glory to your holy name,

The Name above all other, Jesus Christ.

Amen

The next day we saw Andrea.

Andrea, Nane saw Jesus, after she curse all she can,

Andrea laughing with him,

God is real, those of you who don’t get it yet,

I pray, that the Lord will help everyone who need encouragement

To get this book, is not about fame, nor money

It all about our Lord and God, Christ Jesus,the infinite Savior.

Glory to God!

How God use a 12 year old

I was about 12 years old, one morning, I wake up

I say mom, I am coming at lunch time, because we

Always stay in school, until late in the afternoon.

That day was very special, I said I will come home, Mom say you will not coming in the hot sun, I said yes

I’m coming, she looking at me like what with that child.

She say no, I said yes

And she said if you come, I will beat you up.

You know God never late, in any situation. He always on time

For He knows the future.

That day, while I was listening to the teacher, I heard a voice told me go home, I turn to look to see who’s talking there was no one, my teacher asking me, who are you looking for in the back. When we are discusting are subjected here.

The second time,I turn again, but this time

I felt the urgency to go home,

I went to my sister class room, and take her let go home

For other people, it was crazy, for me it was a divine appointment, Even though, I didn’t completely understand

We start to ran, since we left the school

Until we got home, the people that leave in the house with us, and the servant said to me, what are you doing here, your mom told you not to come home,

I ask for mom, one of my cousin said she’s sleeping

I say no, she’s not sleeping,

We go back in forward with the same conversation.

One of our neighbor, who was listening

From her window, ask what going on

She came down, to see what taking place, I explain to her.

Mom is not sleeping, so they went to call her,

she did not respond to their voice, they put alcohol in her noes, no answer

They brush her foot, nothing.

They shook her, nothing, people starting to panic

They are saying she just finish to eat, what going on.

Then our neighbor who came down to see what was going on,

call me and said call your mom

I put my hand on her, with tear in my eyes saying manman

She open her eyes, asking me what are you doing here

Don’t, I told you not to come home,

And when she saw many people, she was asking what going on

The family ask her, what happen to you.

She told us, there were three women came in front of me,

and tell me to let go. They take a hold of their skirt,

and turn around, immediately, I start to follow them.

They go down in a dark hole, and when I heard Hannah voice say mom is not asleep, I come to a full stop, I heard everything, you wore talking about, but,

I was freeze at the sound of her voice, I stop.

The lady’s keep on calling me, but I could not move,

It was like I am stoke, and when Nane call me, I was release, I thank God for my daughter, it was the Lord leading her to come home.

We praise the good Lord,

When God is working with you, no one can stop it

Thank you Abba Father.

Amen

The love of our Lord is great

I was fasting and prayer for what was going one around us.

One evening, I lay in the floor.

I heard someone tell me the goat is strangling outside

I say to Samson, one of my son that

Sleep in my house that night, someone tell me the goat is