Dark Passenger: First Love Cuts the Deepest Volume 1

By Matthew Tayvonne

Sex, lies, and betrayal. Story of my life. I was looking for a cure to pull me through. I thought I found that cure in the different men that came in and out of my life, but they were only making my life worse.
My name is Damien Hill and Im always looking for love in all the wrong places. I look at these men, I date them, and I enjoy having sex with them, but I keep thinking hes the one. Hes supposed to take away the pain but he never does. I want the marriage, family, and kids, but I just cant seem to find the right man.
On this insane ride called life, I not only have to deal with the lies, cheating, and drama that people bring into my life. I also have to deal with my own issues such as being an educated, black, gay male, and trying to build a close relationship with God. I also have a secret. The saying goes, Whats done in the dark comes to the light, and my life proves that point.
While reading this story I want you to see everything from my perspective. I want you to experience every heartache, every moment of passion, and every moment of joy. Youre now my passenger. Get ready for a crazy ride!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Balboa Press
• Release date: Dec 29, 2015
• ISBN: 9781504341783

Matthew Tayvonne

Matthew Tayvonne is a young, elite, up-and-coming author and a college graduate with a master’s degree in counseling. His home town is Cleveland, Ohio, but he is now residing in Atlanta, Georgia, where he continues his journey to the top as an author. He is also now CEO of the website, TheUtopiaSuite.com—a site for erotic stories and commentary on the entertainment world. Tayvonne’s drive and ambition is an unstoppable force fueled by Jesus Christ and the love of his family and close friends. But his writing is more than erotic and explicit stories. There is a meaning behind each story, and within this three-part book series, you may come to understand life is a gift and we must live it to the fullest.

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ISBN: 978-1-5043-4177-6 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-5043-4178-3 (e)

Balboa Press rev. date: 12/28/2015

Contents

Acknowledgment & Dedications

Acclaim For Matthew Tayvonne Dark Passanger First Love Cuts The Deepest

Chapter One Alone

Chapter Two Christopher Brown’s Truth

Chapter Three My Truth

Chapter Four My Past Returns

Chapter Five Boys Will Be Boys

Chapter Six Remembering The Past

Chapter Seven Fight For Your Life

Chapter Eight Life Or Death

Chapter Nine Good Bye Forever

Chapter Ten Another Heart Break

Chapter Eleven Time To Party

Chapter Twelve The Annual Purge

Chapter Thirteen Relationship with A Gemini

Chapter Fourteen I Love You

Chapter Fifteen Cherish These Moments of Life

About the Author

Acknowledgment & Dedications

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This book is dedicated to all of its readers. Life is truly what you make it and we only get one, so I say Live it to the fullest. Go after your dreams and never take no, or you can’t for an answer. You can do anything you want with hard work and dedication. Whatever you do, make sure it comes from a place of peace and love. Enjoy reading the first volume of this three part series.

Without the Lord our savior, I would not be here today and I am forever grateful for his continued blessings upon my life. My family is everything to me and through my rights and wrongs they stand beside me. Thank you to my beautiful mother (Crystal), grandmother (Queen), and my family. I love you guys with all my heart. My family is my world.

To learn a little More About Me, you can follow me on all my Social Media. I would love to hear from you.

FaceBook: Matthew Tayvonne

IG & Twitter: MatthewTayvonne

Website: www.TheUtopiaSuite.com

Thank you to everyone who has supported me and believed in my dream. I truly appreciate all of your feedback and support since the beginning of my writing.

Photography by: Blair Devereaux for Pheauxtography", Nathan Percy of NP Photography. Model/Actor: Andrew Ghent, Special Thanks to David Snyder & DeAngelo Green, David A Rice, Danny Jackson, J’Lamar Nichols, lynnell Scott, Deandre Burgan, Sherry Tyree, Torrance Nowden, Courtney Robinson, Vicky Boyd, Shakia Cook, Shira Solomon, Michael Morgan, Alonzo Clark, Ebonie Lee, Al K Edwards, Waki Henderson, Kelli Jacobs, Latisha Sloan, Kivan Pennington, La’Daunte Ecckles-Clay, Crystal Mason, Savannah Harris, Brandon Lee, Tony Rutherford, Nicole Simmons, Autumn Montgomery, Michelle Rasoletti, Mike Brown,, Darius Brown, Timothy Patrick, Asante Moore, Jae Dumas, Nelson Irabor.

Acclaim For Matthew Tayvonne

Dark Passanger

First Love Cuts The Deepest

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February of 2012 we were auditioning models for THE F.A.B. EVENT FASHION AGAINST BULLYING first show here in Atlanta. During the audition process a young man walked through the door and introduced himself to me and the other founders and people involved as MATTHEW TAYVONNE…. with one shake of the hand I knew there was more to Matthew than meets the eye.

3 years and many stories later, what I saw in Matthew that day is now coming to fruition. Matthew or son, as I call him, is a gifted story teller. Matthew’s stories are based on a gift to tell the truth of A JOURNEY. A truth that comes from allowing himself to live out loud and be proud of who he is and the world he walks in. There is a Grace Gift to how Matthew puts feelings to words and draws you into feel as if you are reading and watching a movie at the same time. Only a few writers have that gift.

In this story you will be taken on a journey that I believe is personal, heartfelt, mysterious, intense, passionate. Filled with desire and danger. A search for Unconditional Love, Love of Self, Forgiveness, Anger, Pain. Most of all you will finish this book knowing and understanding each character is someone we know and maybe someone who needs our love.

Matthew you are truly like a son to me and I am so proud to see you finish your first of many stories. I have had the pleasure to style you for photo shoots and fashion shows and the esteemed pleasure of reading your stories and being interviewed by you. Remember continue to stay open to God’s guidance and open to Love.

David Anthony Rice Owner/Lead Stylist Nuvizions INTL

Chapter One

Alone

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I’m Damien Hill, a 25 year old college student. I pretty much try to maintain control of every aspect of my life. Every single solitary detail. I can’t be left unsure of what’s going on. I did that before and it left me confused, scared, and alone. I wasted my time