Esperanza and All My Hope
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There he goes again driving, wondering what type of man would let his children walk into a classroom with that feeling of failure stamped to their future before they cross in the classroom door. Hes counting his money to see if he can at least buy some soap before turning into the grocery store. After counting the change in his hand, his eyes turn red. He wants to cry. He wants to hit something. It needs to come out. It will come out. He hides his face from his sons who are wondering why the car is not moving. Its hard to be a full-grown man and to have that feeling of hopelessness that you cant take care of your own children. In their eyes, theres nothing that you cant do, but you know the difference. Dont see me cry. I cant break down right now.
Why cant I do it? Why cant I make it through the week? Why do I have to beg? But I will beg for my childrens sake. They deserve better. Ill keep looking for that job, start that business my wife and I always want and always talk about, tired of just talking about it though. Ten years together. Two children we have brought into this world. Weve got to stop driving in circles for our children sake. We can do amazing things for our children. And, children, learn from our mistakes. We dont want you to struggle, but if you do struggle, know it will get easier in time and that your family always loves you.
There he goes again driving, thinking which road looks the best. He cant afford to turn down the wrong road. But how does one know which path will lead to prosperity? His children beg him to go while his wife touches his hand reassuring him that wherever they go, they go together. Slowly the brake pedal releases and the car starts to move even as hes not sure which direction to turn the wheel. And there he goes. God bless. Your mother and I know that feeling. Sometimes you just have to push the gas pedal and see where God takes you.
Carlos Garcia
Carlos Garcia has been Professor of Research for the Spanish National Research Council (CSIC) since 2003. He is currently working in the Centre for Soil Science and Applied Biology of the Segura (CEBAS-CSIC) of Murcia (Spain). His scientific work focuses on the problem of highly degraded semiarid soils and strategies for their protection and rehabilitation, as well as the search for new sources of organic matter. Dr. Garcia has published 189 scientific papers in SCI journals. He also has extensive scientific management experience, having served as director of CEBAS-CSIC, Scientific Coordinator of the CSIC Agricultural Science Area, and as a partner in national and regional research programs.
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Esperanza and All My Hope - Carlos Garcia
Copyright © 2015 by Carlos Garcia.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2015903770
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-5035-5099-5
Softcover 978-1-5035-5101-5
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Rev. date: 03/06/2015
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Contents
Chapter One Our Future
Chapter Two Walking Strong
Chapter Three Mom Would Be So Proud Of You
Chapter Four Esperanza
Chapter Five Digging Holes
Chapter Six Through My Eyes
Chapter Seven Different Seasons
Chapter Eight High School Drop-Out
Chapter Nine With These Hands
Chapter Ten Round And Round
Chapter Eleven Making Mistakes
Chapter Twelve The Teacher
Chapter Thirteen Once Upon A Time
Chapter Fourteen Welfare Line
Chapter Fifteen Are We Poor? I Hope So!
Chapter Sixteen Go To Church
Chapter Seventeen The Endless Circle
Chapter Eighteen Not In Front Of My Children
Chapter Nineteen Intelligent Being
Chapter Twenty You’re Going To College Now
Chapter Twenty-One Graduation Day
Chapter Twenty-Two Do You See A For Sale Sign?
Chapter Twenty-Three Leaving Home
Chapter Twenty-Four Love Letters
Chapter Twenty-Five Clarity, Then Confusion, Then Clarity, Then Action
Chapter Twenty-Six The Dead Flower In My Pocket
Chapter Twenty-Seven The Last Chapter, We’ll Call It No More Being Sad
Dedication
To Samantha and Esperanza with love
CHAPTER ONE
Our Future
Aug.6 2001
My Future,
Life is beautiful. Don’t ever forget that and don’t be afraid to live. I love to run and dive into the coming waves. I love the sand going between my toes and the gulf water washing it away. I love the sound of seagulls singing and flying; sometimes I think they do it just for me because it brings me joy. I love to watch the sunrise and set and the way the trees dance with the cool breeze. I think they’re alive trying to teach us something. I love to climb oak trees like a child, and I grow them too. I love to play with the earth and slide my feet on the green grass; it’s a sensation I can’t describe but it makes me smile. I love to lay back and look at the stars and the moon; I wonder what’s out there and then I get a little sad because I’ll never experience that notion. I love the smell of burning candles at St. Joseph Church; it makes me feel holy and that I’m not alone. I love running in the cold rain and feeling the shock. I love holding your momma’s hand where ever we go; I need her so much. I love that we’re going to be a family and how much I need you too.
The Yellow Butterfly
You run so fast. It’s what you want the most, it’s just too fast for you. Don’t fall and then you do any ways. I dust you off and back to the chase you go. Its’ yellow wings dance up and down and dances all around you. It plays with you. You twirl and fall once more. You try so hard and then your time comes. Here is your chance, but you let it go. Why did you let it go? To see it fly some more. Yes, it’s beautiful. It’s beautiful to watch it dance and fly, so much better than just catching it. And as I watch you, I think, fly beautiful, dance.
CHAPTER TWO
Walking Strong
He was out of place. He was scared to death. He could hear his heart pounding as he had to wait in line with the others.
When the music starts, start walking together in a straight line. Stay with your group. It’s going to be a long walk. Let’s go! Time is up! No more restroom breaks! Get back in line! Here we go!
How did I get here? I’m the first one to graduate from a University. I wish my grandfathers were here. They wouldn’t believe their eyes, or maybe they would. They knew something was there where others may have given up on me. I have them with me in spirit. Now we are moving. Look at us. We look like a thousand soldiers marching into battle. Your grandfather was in a war. He marched to a different beat. It was a different set of instructions.
"What the hell are you doing son! Do you want to die out here boy? You stay alert, you stay alive! Do I have to