Contrary to Being

By Marc Moderessi

I am trying to prove not only my scientific but philosophical theory, which is nothing anyone has ever read or heard. But it is difficult to present to the public for them to understand and accept considering English not being my native tongue. It is written in simplest possible English, avoiding difficult, complex, complicated, and highly sophisticated phrases, syntax, and sentences. One needs to read the entire book, even few times to get the full grip of the meanings. I have few poems on the subjects I intend to send along with my manuscript to fit among pages to help to explain the subject matter in question.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Oct 8, 2015
• ISBN: 9781514410967

Marc Moderessi

I have earned two PhDs, one in philosophy and another in social science from different countries. I am unable to prove I did since I am a political asylum and had to leave homeland without them including my house, business, and all valuables, wealth to save my health due to very high and sensitive position of grandfather and father in politics and close relationship to royal family at that time.

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CONTENTS

Life

Miracle or Magic

Power

A While

Beyond

The Lost Cause

Human

Colors of Wonder

Reward And Punishment

Creation

Silent Judgment

A Delicate Quest

LIFE

Such as life, that rises and falls

Death over us never ceases to call

Together we manage, until we part.

Whether, a fact, or fiction, I truly, in pure honesty, and total sincerity, with complete innocent intentions believe the world is not ready yet to hear what I have to say. I like nothing better if someone prove me wrong to relieve me from unbelievable, and unbearable heavy loads of pains, pressures, and delusions. After all, I am only human even if not exactly on the same level as others, no one ever is for representing unlike individual personality. It is only a dream, that may never ever comes true to evolve out of humanity. If, we really are after the truth, the whole truth, nothing but the truth, this is truly, actually, and exactly, what I am trying to offer. I know not everyone understand, appreciate, or approve of truth, and these words, are only for few, who do. Mostly when, transforming and transcending from physical life to metaphysical world, and quantum state beyond reach, where frankly speaking not many of us have any clue not just what it means, but how imagine it to be. Serious subject matters in question are far beyond physical, material, earthy, global, universal, even cosmological existence, and out of this world, where we the final evolved, advanced creatures living on this planet, and have stuck with it. And I honestly, realistically, and literally do not know, how elucidate what I have in mind, and it takes much more than energy, and intelligence in all of us put together to do so. Before I start to offer my side of story, either to bore, or impress anyone with my special selection of words, I want to make one important point real clear, that I am not using very big, sophisticated, and mouthful words, not because for lack of sufficient knowledge in English language, or language barrier for not being my native tongue, but to avoid unnecessary formalities, bureaucracy, supremacy to display skill in art and science, or my expertise in writing for trying to be myself, express my thoughts, and pour my heart out to open eyes, and minds of those, who never had a chance to contemplate on. When talking sense, common sense makes no sense, and it is nonsense. There is only one origin, and the original, that can never be duplicated. Whatever has taken place, it never happens again. If these words does not make sense to you, then we have nothing else in common to talk about. Some events never meant to happen, and should have not taken place, as many ideas, opinions, words are forbidden to be written, and many lives are too unfortunate, painful, and sign of cruel life wishing never been born. What I am about to say, may offend many people, whom I really cannot help if they feel that way. Since, my philosophy of life, and existence in general is quite contrary to how anyone may feel, believe, think, or analyze by personal imaginations. These words are not for everyone to comprehend, thus not expected to be appreciated, just as this life is not for everyone to live. Realistically speaking, none of us have it in us, or are not made biologically, and potentially ready to hear a direct, straight, pure honest talk. None of us meant to be, not a bit the way our lives in such a unknown, complex, and confused world we all feel lost. Not a single human being honestly, and strongly can claim understand science, or believe to be true in any divine faith to provide the answers, we all are craving for, if no remedies are available, then neither any solutions either through thinking, or believing. That is if we truly, and purely are honest with ourselves. Certainly, none of us had chosen our parents to be born from, for who and what we naturally are, somehow, we have been denied the right not to be, without any chance to be others. There are no democracy, equality, freedom, fairness, or justice in natural laws, that expected to be in our societies by many live evidences we encounter every day in an unbelievable life, we supposed to be happily living, instead of actually dreaming about it, and for many it is a nightmare. Human dimension have not been fully, correctly, and entirely defined. No one regardless of rate of intelligence can explain what, how, and specially why we are here. So-called scientists, philosophers, and genius thinkers have not yet come up with a convincing answer, or at least be aware of the a right way out of dump darkness of ignorance by depending on intelligence. Religion is only man’s desperate, helpless, and hopeless attempt to escape the hard, dark, ugly questions on creation, an easy way out, waiving responsibility not to face the harsh realities of life. We have created a god for ourselves to justify our acts, behavior, and get hold of something more solid than our own surroundings. God need us more than we need him, to run his empire of business, and certainly without believers, where would he be period. An absolute, perfect, omnipotent god, wouldn’t need anyone to believe in him to exist, and the truth we must be concerned, and discerned about first before searching further. It was a brilliant idea at the time when few genius men claimed to be messengers of god, to scare people from wrong behaviors, to stop stealing, killing, cheating, and bullying one another. It was a very good trick to warn people of someone bigger, stronger, and smarter up over clouds, who is always watching over them. If they behave human, and do good deeds they go to heaven, or must meet the devil in hell to suffer for rest of their lives if they commit sins. But today is so very far from that era, a simple, pure praying does not cut it. I have a very simple question. Why anyone who is created and loved by god must commit crime, or sin to be punished for it later on? Why dear, holy lord discriminate among different people not equally treated, guided, or created, and above all why almighty, omnipresent, and omnipotent god does not make sure we all understand, feel, vision to obey his commands? If he is responsible for everything in this forsaken creation, then he needs to act like one. Apparently, he did not provided us with the right and sufficient intelligence to see his way. Is it our fault, who has nothing to do with being here, but must be punished and suffer for it? We do not have the right to question god, or have necessary intelligence to know why we are here, but have right to wonder, suffer, be confused close to madness, and feel lost? This is only very tiny speck of real simple logical reason for god’s nonexistent. There are much more bigger, greater, and better convincing evidences so obvious, at the same time very sad, unacceptable suffering, and painful facts to know. What is really a belief? Truthfully speaking, they all have discredited themselves by what is happening around the world, behaving, treating other beliefs, and killing their followers for not accepting their gods to worship throughout the history in the name of holy war, and have failed to realize, that there is only one god. Does anyone in true sense can claim to know or feel a faith, or conviction? I must confess, I wish there actually was a god needed so desperately on earth, and truly desire to know how to be a believer. It is an insult to our intelligence, and degrading for believing in something, somewhere, somehow living up the sky either hiding the truth, or he is sneaky for not showing himself, but telling us to accept him. Only man has written any holy books, and I refuse to believe in believing, that is not knowing, defying, denying, belittling my intelligence, that is telling me not to think using my brain, but just feel through heart. Heart, in fact is just a fleshy muscle pumping blood through entire body. There are no atheists if there is no god. Spirituality, or soul are only man-made higher imaginary physical terms, and finer mental radiations. Spirit, exists in a semantic metaphor used for its greater quality only to describe higher, greater, and transcendental physicality. It is all man made words just to enslave others for one’s own self sake. I am trying so hard and desperately to find the answer through intense research and scientific discoveries of prominent scientists, physicists, and great thinkers if it is possible to live in any other life on other stars. Truthfully, I am not in any way satisfied, happy, or agree with anything happening on earth, and how the natural laws of the land are managing, and ruling over everything. Unfortunately, no being on earth has that kind of authority, or magical power to do miracles, or make drastic changes. The truth is, that there is no truth, and for that matter there are no answers to be either addressed, or find the final solutions. There are so many different religion, and beliefs, and all claim worshiping the only god exists, nevertheless they all also insist their god is the only creator, fighting, hating, and killing other members of unlike denominations, calling it holy war and expect to go to heaven for eliminating other holy beliefs, and killing their members. There are truly, sociably, and naturally no happiness in entire universe anywhere, and success depends on pure skill, cleverness, smartness, and manipulation of business transaction for self interest, profit, and capital gain. No businessman, or a politician ever got rich, powerful, or reached on top by being honest, direct, straight forward. Simply, because there is no fairness, justice, or mercy in life we live on, and we all know it. We have to hustle, not just work hard, or think smart, but to be able to compete in diversified societies of so many different ethnicities, and human personalities not just in physical, facial, racial controversies but of unlike intentional, diverse attitudes toward one another. No two people have the same exact taste, feelings, thinking, and believing. That’s where all difficult moments, and struggles boil out not just for plain survival, but success creating unnecessary troubles no one either benefit from or could be ever happy about. It does not have to be among strangers, but it exist among friends, and families perhaps not on the same category, nevertheless it must exist, because we all are just humans, and none are angles, or holy ghosts. If one is out of touch with reality, then that person is far distanced from dark, deep, ugly, unpleasant devil himself, and nothing to be ashamed of only has to suffer severely, but innocently. This life leaves one speechless, dumbfounded, lost, and confused, when unfortunate to be highly sensitive, good, and intelligent. The rest go on living low, dumb, filthy, animal life, care free of what, how, or why actually has brought it on them, and are happy with as it is following a so-called normal, seemly living routines. One is either higher, or lower relative to the next person, however under no circumstances ever equal, whether within self, or outside of it. Only the politicians, and law makers come up with hate crime addendum pushed the idea of equality to keep people happy, and everything in order to win their votes, who know perfectly well, that is not so. Do we ever learn, or wake up to true, real realities of life? Certainly, no human will ever learn everything about natural facts need to know even if he/she survives to live for zillion years. There are so many, enormous, and countless issues, subjects, questions beyond physical, and material world we have not had chance to think about, and never ever learn to know them all. So long as we are human, there is ignorance, and life make sure no one ever live without it. What are the chances we transform to higher creatures? No one can answer that, and it will be a desperate attempt to do so. The best is never written, thus the actual truth remains in darkness as always been. Truthfully, because humans are social, political, extreme conservative, so called rational, minimal, and seminal creatures, that says it all without any needs for further explanations. Therefore, true, and actual meaning of justice is lost in the midst of translations, and transactions. Although, size, distance are important in our world, and speed may never cover it all, as a matter of fact agreed by all physicists, the shorter the wavelength the brighter, and faster the velocity of light energy particle. Time, was coincided with matter, that created physical world, thus it had beginning and will end with destruction of universe. However, moments always existed even before any sign of existence, where there was only vacuum, nothingness, and void of any particle matter, in complete emptiness, when, and where space itself had no fabric to be warped by gravity forces. Zillion light years ago, when no time was ever recorded, or a single light particle existed even space was formless, and no existence as we know had any meaning. Nothing exists alone, or ever last for long by itself. No one is able to figure out how long Nothingness existed in loneliness before to surrender to Somethingness sometimes later in future, thus energy, and matter were born. We live in symmetrical, duality state of physical world inherited without having any choices, voices, or chances to refuse. Big bang was the biggest, monstrous event ever happened in history of creation, and not all have been good. Where, positive without negative does not exist, freedom without slavery is meaningless, no exhale take place if inhale is not possible, death in absence of life can never be, and etc. Power, on form of energy force is behind everything that exists, and how it came to being, is the greatest myth of them all. Without force of energy, no universe, physical world, heavy mass, or hard matter would have been created, where forces of power so rudely, cruelly, and ruthlessly had imposed themselves on everything into being. Only very naïve, and imbecile beings unaware of the natural facts expect freedom, democracy, equality, fairness, or justice, when the origin, and initial time at the very beginning had none to offer. Attraction, and repulsion between two unlike signs, or symbols, is an original attribute, a natural property, and part of physical law of the land we are living on. It has been observed in substructure, subterranean, fundamental bases of sub-nuclear atomic particles, that are the very elementary groundwork, original foundation of the universe, and the world including creatures living in it. Positive, and negative signs, two opposite sexes of any species are very simple, clear, and undeniable examples. One always is compared to other one, making a distinct analogy, and differences. Since nothing by itself is sufficient to leave its mark, make a point, or survive for that matter, thus being human can never be complete to survive or succeed individually alone. We travel within space, but also in time, and we waste both for not taking full advantages, or putting them in good use, because we have not yet reach to that cognitive percept to see, realize, or understand to appreciate them. It appear to us cruel, but so true, that we may care more for less, whatever it might be. It is a hard, dark, perhaps ugly fact, but again it is also part of our physical world, and natural laws of the land we live on, where more is available for less, either to distribute, contribute, or consume. It is cold, cruel, indifferent cosmic code, that care less about emotional feelings. It is what it is, and there is nothing anyone, a being, or power can change, help, or do anything about it. In the world of energy power, there are no place for mercy, fairness, justice, true democracy, or freedom. They all shine so bright, and have any meaning only before their opposite confronting forces, otherwise just another phenomenal signs on natural terms. Entire universe is not just based on energy powers, but operating under its imposing forces, no one either intended, ordered, wanted, or asked for. No one regardless of intelligence, power, or courage is able to utter, or alter what originally, exactly, or clearly had ever happened to be, and certainly if wish it not to be. Politics, and power are two only signs, symbols, and forces people truly understand and deserve. Many others do not even deserve that much, and it is simply waste of precious time to bother, and need just to be ignored. It is so true no one ever changes, how one is born, and made to live, but never meant to be. Simply, it is impossible to expect, or decide on topological physical, or nonphysical form, or structure of unborn babies never had a chance to be born into life. Education, knowledge, learning only helps to realize one’s potential already born with. No one ever think, live, or breathe any others’ air except one’s own. Special, exceptional superb people’s kindness, generosity, and favors are simply misjudged, misunderstood, and misinterpreted by commoners throughout history for being too rich, complex, complicated, colorful, heavy to digest, conceive, or ever is appreciated. Even goodness, intelligence, fairness, and beauty are not safe from strong, ruthless pounces of relativity, and fate. Perfection, absoluteness, infinity are only man’s conspiracy phrases just as he created a god for himself to brag, impress, ride, and rule over the rest of dummies. This is actually what happens for thinking beyond physical world, and existence, doomed to pay the unbelievable costly price for having values beyond human understanding. We all more or less, know life is much easier, happier, and safer to stay dumb, and without serious questions asked, and we all were far better off, at ease, enjoyed life in past when we were less experienced, knowledgeable, and life much younger. As we go through ages get older, and wiser life gets tougher, harder, and unhappier. Past can never be retrieved or reversed. Why do we tolerate, and cherish life, it is a very big puzzled actually a mystery, mostly due to human ignorance, what it really is, how it operates, and no one ever find out why. Intelligence, is only one side of the same coin sharing with ignorance. One without other one cannot exist, or be recognized.

A diamond, is found among mire and mud waiting to be discovered, belonging to the same genus, however far from the rest of dirt. If we actually, and naturally do not know, who and what we really are, then right and wrong, good and evil have lost their meanings. One thing even god is so incapable of doing. He can never ever undo an event, and claim it never happened, once it has been taken place. He may be able to erase the trace from our memory, what has been done, but there is no way, he is able to say it never happened. Once it has taken place, it makes its mark forever, even time is unable to ignore, or erase the moments, when it took place. you cannot undo what has been done. That includes everyone, every power, even god, if it exist. God is neither He, or She, but It. It has somehow found its way into our vocabulary by greatest mistake someone ever made in past. We created a god for ourselves, not the other way around. There is no holy creation, only man’s creative mind running, and managing his best to get through life in most intelligent manner born, and dropped uninvited on a very weird, odd, and strange creation not clear how, or why it came about. However, the real problem is not, whether a god exists or not, but how humans supposed to learn the truth, and the truth is, that there is no truth. If ever come to a conclusion, that a god exists, I am sure, he favors the one, who challenges his existence in deeper meanings, to be proud of his creation for creating such a unique creature for making him to realize, what he never did during his long life. That exceptional being, certainly would wonder, what is he/she doing in such a world order, under present situation, living a human life, and why not in another form? Such creation should have never happened, not at least in this way. It is literally, definitely, and absolutely impossible to make any sense out of it, it is totally pointless, meaningless, ruthless, and senseless with no purpose at all. There is no excuse whatsoever for unjustified events had taken place and counting. There is no intelligent reason for being, living, and existing as it is. It is so difficult to keep sanity in this complex, and confusing life, that makes it only impossible to live for having hypersensitive senses, and above average intelligence. No logic, reasoning, or higher intelligence can explain or justify existence. The only way one is able to face life on earth, is to be smart, clever, a manipulator, connive enough to present oneself with strong, likeable, but false personality, that requires pure luck to be born with healthy cerebral, and neural unit organs if not strong, cold, cruel, calm ones. Never mind the origin, the critical question is why do we have to live, and tolerate such world’s order, rules, and natural laws. The vital question in debate no longer persist on whether such world establishment is as the result of creation or determination, but how life’s events with unpleasant realities have taken place. Right and wrong fade away, when personal feelings are at stake. How is it possible to get back to past at origin in any speed, while everything, and all events are in constant move forward on to future? Unless past, present, future, and time are operating completely and entirely unlike what we have acknowledged, felt, and imagined to be. Only space separate things, and objects in it, are distinguished, and recognized with unlike entities. There are empty spaces even among different subatomic particles with unlike duties, and properties doing different jobs assigned to them by nature. How else differences are recognized, and separated by individual items identified from others?

Somehow, we never know how, or ever learn why. A life only to die for. Space is a spirit, but it is neither a ghost, mirage, an image, nor a consciousness, perhaps a shadow, that is real we can see, it exists in reality, however cannot be captured, felt, or materialized. Nothingness is elusive, but an illusion difficult to imagine, however never to deny being conclusive. Life (somethingness) is not so much difficult to understand as it is to accept, adapt to its environment. Nothingness, always is compared to other conceivable, and comprehensive, entities, thus it is something to be considered just like its counterpart somethingness is. Some billion light years ago universe came to existence from nothingness and will return to its origin some billion years later again, though it could have happened many times over with moments lapsed in between elsewhere. Being terrible, horrible, cruel evil person is just antimatter, a necessary opposite side of nicety in such location, where none exist in absence of the other one. Naturally, and certainly I could be more specific, courageous, a terse truthful, and nasty to tell it all in purest form, and metaphoric words, but I leave that for later, when minds are ripe and ready to hear it. The best, or you might say the worst part in writing is never written. It is bad for the publication business. No writer dared, or were naïve enough to do so. There is always danger of being accused of wrong interpretation, corrupt politics, bad attitude for possible loss of life if forbidden words are spoken. No man has ever reached to that point of acceptance or highest tip of power, courage, wisdom, and civilization to understand true natural laws, and actual life’s facts and realities to tolerate with dignity, decency, and profundity. We are all yet at the very early stages of history living as primordial ancestors, and primate creatures, who not only blind to the actual truth, but unable and unwilling to learn it, and do not ask me to go into details, where devil lives. It is too deep, dark, dungeon, and scary to step in. You just have to trust and respect my opinion. Believe me, you do not want to go there. It is not a place for human creatures, who are not used to it, and in fact so far off from it. It has reached to the bone so painful, where no politics, power, proposition, or profound big words can cure. Someday I may be able to lay it all on the table without any holding back, or reservations, but again maybe never. It is far dreadful, ugly, inconceivable, and actually out of this world to be mentioned, comprehended, or appreciated. This is not a fairy tale, a bed story, not even a philosophy, it has passed those stages, and painfully very serious problem only not too many are aware of. I waited long enough, a lifetime to bring it all into open, though I know no one either is ready to hear, accept, or understand the purpose. I could go on and on to explain personal feeling, thinking, believing, and I know it will be boring, mostly when I fail to make it sweet enough explaining my point. It is so true, we all without exceptions intend to put away a book we do not understand regardless of its important content, or meaningful subject, yet fail to learn the lesson, and reason behind it written for. Believe it or not, I had very hard time to present it to so-called experts in the field. It is obvious what possibly could be ever said about majority ordinary laymen. As I have said long ago: It is obvious, that nothing ever is. We all live how we are born to be, regardless of what we believe. That is exactly why, I believe, that nature should have never given humans the power of bringing any children into this world, what they have no rights or business to do so impossible to guarantee their health, sanity, sensibility, or happiness even, when provide every possible living comforts. No radical, natural change comes to this world, any stars, or existence for that matter no matter what anyone thinks, or believes. Unfortunately, in our mad world, it is more vital, and smarter to be good at it, rather than to be just good. Like many geniuses in past, who died unknown, and in poverty, and the new comers are no exception to incredibly painful, sad, cruel, unfair life on earth falling as innocent victims. The more we learn on this complex, totally crazy joint, the more complicated, darker it gets, and not simpler or brighter. Therefore, nothing is accomplished, only helped to lose little sanity left. The whole existence is just a senseless nightmare, and it only ends at death. There are lots of natural, unnatural, phenomena, anthropoid events, and activities taken place constantly beyond any reasons, measures, and logical necessities impossible to make any sense out of them. Under present living conditions, life style, and universal events, where nothing is clear, for believing in upper, supernatural being is not only impossible, but pure ignorance, however many humans still persist on, though it is never clear if they just practice politics, exercise their rights, truly believe it, simply are unaware, or playing plain dumb. One thing is crystal clear, that no human is able to explain to me deity, or piety to the point of revelation. However, I do believe, we all do need god in such a chaotic world to manage, and make it right, since no man has ever been able to do. No justification to present ridiculous location called planet earth has ever been offered. How is it possible for a being, who claims to have intelligence to build a conviction, belief, or faith under such living conditions, regional location, and global situation? Existence, as an open deep wound phenomenon never heals, or ever reveals its dark, and agonizing secrets. No one can either tell you why such world exists, or cares to do so. When impossible to tell the truth, what definitely it is misunderstood, and misjudged, then the only choice left is to use common sense, and charm entertaining what everyone is interested in, and listening to pleasant, but untrue words if not all lies. Humans with limited, and uncompleted intelligence as master of universe consume fresh, good, whole food only to defecate later, coming into this world through darkest, smelliest aisle, and claiming pride, honor, dignity never truly had. I rather not to explain further to highlight darker spots unbelievably offensive, disgusting, and very unpleasant, how we have disgraced sanctity of a position agreed by majority of human population. We, rather pretend to be who, we are, and never leaned the facts about, what we are, chasing after fun, and pleasure never at least bother to find out how to earn them. One thing certainly, is for fact, that no one knows about everything there is to know, since everything per se is never clear. Even, god is so helpless to erase all memories of atheism to replace it with deism. Neither science, nor divine power could ever give us an answer, or convince us why do we have to be left alone in darkness of creation suffering from maddening confusion to feel lost. However, scientists have proven more than often logically, pragmatically, and practically through experiments of their findings. On the other hand, religion tell us just believe in an unseen, unknown, untouchable, and unreasonable source so unfamiliar, incomprehensible, and unacceptable to intelligence, that only contribute further to humans’ confusion, and insanity to add on top of piles of problems they already have. Besides, it is not just insane, but totally unacceptable to believe in other humans of the same limited knowledge, and intelligence to approve of so-called holy books, and holy prophets, who never actually seen, nor ever had direct contact with the source, but only relying on undependable, unconfirmed feelings, and pure imagination. Self claimed prophets are ordinary people just like rest of the crowds, only smarter with advanced ideas far ahead of their time for whatever the reason they had. Actually, they have added to our vocabulary word god, who is just another ordinary, but semantic name, however have caused huge pain and problems for humans, who cannot agree on a single god supposed to be the only one in entire existence, fighting and killing one another, believing, they are pleasing the god of their choice of faiths. It is more than ridiculous, it is pure insanity, sickness, and ignorance, to witness how low can humans sink, who claim to be intelligent, civilized, dignified, and of sound mind. Doesn’t it make one puke, and be ashamed of humanity? How is it possible to like, or love such creature, whose imaginary god encourages to do so? It is so simple to see that, and so sickening to watch these so-called advanced most recent evolved creatures be blind to something so clear facts. Ignorance feeds on hypocrisy, and arrogance to make it look uglier, lower, and worse than it really is causing more damages, contributing to further suffering. This creature knows about his/her ignorance, but arrogance is blocking it to realize and find a remedy for it. Regardless of anyone’s belief, or thinking this is the only life there is, and it has been for so long as any memory can remember, and it always been pain in the ass. No one wants to admit it for the fear of inferiority feelings being wrong. It is known, that the best is never written, because it is too good, heavy, hard, ugly, dark, and too rich for human blood to grasp the depth of the words to be able to handle or appreciate. Different locations on this planet register different records simultaneously, but distances remain unchanged, this is where the two phenomena differ in feature and nature dramatically. Nothingness is all around us, and we simply could not move to anywhere to set the differences without it. That nothingness, is the absolute space. Eons light years ago there was actually and naturally only an absolute space devoid of any particles or any kind of intrusion, creation, or foreign objects, where absolutely nothing existed, not even time. No one, no power created nothingness, or somethingness, and none could ever claim, or prove otherwise. I have always said: Everything only depends on us, and nothing is ever up to us, and there is a huge, serious difference in between. Knowledge, and information, are useless if only create problems, and bad feelings, mostly when they are far from facts. There is always either a pain in the ass, or doubt on the mind, and both are for lifetime. Being human itself is the biggest problem of them all, and be punished, guilty of being born, innocent of all charges, accused of sins never intended, simply they have been forced on against one’ will, and without one’ knowledge. A solid evidence of totalitarian, despotic, anarchic, autocratic, and tyrant power forced, and forged, and perjured itself into many lives. Everything in this world is made of, built on energy power, and no one knows why it has to be in such manner, or why there must be a creation or existence in first place of any kind, that is solely responsible for all creatures the way they are. I may not be speaking the normal, formal, usual language humans used to, but talking sense, and telling it as it really is closer to fact. We all speak English in this country, but not the same language. Humans’ decisions rise from a fixed, limited, and unchangeable source created at birth, that is neither clear how, nor fair to ask why, as total bodily energy has been already decided on, and so has on its nature, and attributes.

Cosmos, should have stayed at its nothingness form, and emptiness just like it was before any sign of existence, or at so-called big bang, when there were total, complete peace, order, calmness free from any problem, trouble so clean, clear, and a true blessing. As teenager, I used to think what if there was nothing at all, and wondered why is it so difficult for people to accept facts of life, and face them in normal manner.

In my opinion, there is no change on earth in its true meaning, unless after death, or total, overall transformation of body to completely unlike anything it used to be. We have been observing the same world, and life in it for ages, and what we have not seen, is its true face. During periods from past to present on to future, there are only constant growth, mutation, permeation, permutation moving forward to the next spot, steps, and moments, that naturally is never the same again, nor will ever be what it had been before. We suffer, and have many hopeless problems, because we create them by our behavior, and not solving them by wrong thinking helpless to change the world order. This creation, and creatures never ever change for better if not for worse, and we better get used to it, and find a way to get along, and enjoy it, whenever possible. To be somebody, is possible only in comparison to any others, otherwise nobody. Intelligence destroys happiness, and encourages goodness given at birth. Sadly, humans never get wise enough to realize the very basic, simple, natural laws, or cause behind facts of life, and existence itself as a whole to remain ignorant beyond foundation. In analogy to idea, and theory of existence originating from nothingness to the birth of creatures, who were absolutely nothing before birth, that makes perfect sense, and logical tense. And no logic, reason, or intelligence can explain, decipher, or justify such unthinkable presence to be direct cause of all pains, and problems. The very hot, thermal energy at the very beginning formation of the universe turned to very cold, cruel, mindless, and heartless evil, where tears are shed in sorrow longer than in joy sharing a single source. Presence of humans on earth is enough proof, and strong evidence of what existence really, actually, naturally is all about, and stands for. This creation should have created creatures expected to fit in it, for whatever the form, figure, purpose intended, and we can only behave as humans sharing common characteristics. There is only one way into life, as there is only one way out. To be right on facts of life, nature, and existence per se does not necessarily guarantee success or happiness, but often results to the opposite direction. In fact, life could have been a living hell in dealing with underlying facts of life, and realm of underworld contrary to ordinary, daily living on earth. There are so many ugly, dark, unfair, criminal, unnecessary natural rules and laws, to mentioned it all could take forever. For damages done, lives lost, or ruined by criminal acts committed a simple apology, or by mere punishment will not suffice, and never ever compensate to replace any single suffering, or damage caused. It hurts even more than can be imagined, when one happened to be unlucky present at wrong time, and place caught in crossfire totally innocent. Nothing, whatsoever, by whoever, or any power can justify such unfair, and unacceptable incidence, where no sources can be held accountable. This is another unthinkable, inexcusable, unacceptable example of natural laws ruling, controlling, and monitoring over everything, and everyone alive indifferent to how, anyone feels about it, but expected to act as a normal, balanced, and well behaved humans to enjoy life. After all humans are the ones most affected by living rules to deal with. A simple brute, and cruel reality. Today, because of moving further into modern, but uncivilized era with novel, incurable pain and problem, one must fight for one’s sanity, far more sorrowful, painful, dreadful, and pitiful than fighting for life, living with loneliest feelings ever recorded. Make no mistake, we are all lonely, living alone on our own, separated from the rest of crowds not just by physical bodies, but by nonphysical composition needs. A clever, smart, cunning move is the only answer to success, and happiness on earth. One must pay higher price for being innocent, unaware of facts on things for lack of deeper insight. The saddest reality is, that no one favors such extraordinary intelligence, sensitivity, honesty of true innocence, and outsiders trying to avoid crusaders, who they actually are needed to be around. The wonderful, beautiful human creatures’ guilt is to be too straight forward not observant enough to follow social common rules of talented actors, smart politicians, and skillful psychoanalysts’ foot steps to fit in their groups. A society, even in the most acclaimed democratic country, where one is not allowed to speak one’s mind, and feelings, because some certain words are just not allowed in modern human society. Simplicity, actually does not exist, and never works in our so called modern, civilized society. We still would be living in caves if complexity did not replaced it. Tautology, introduced by Wittkenstein, the power of speech is so effective, and actually the most powerful weapon humans can develop, better to say one must be born with it. Nothing else even come close, or match metaphoric skill to be far effective than any actions with sweetest talk, oily personality in