Magnolia Dances: A Poetic Diary of Unrequited Love...

By Jenenne Castor-Thompson

Grief, heart shattering, soul searching, dark nights alone, grief.

Grief has a strange way of making one whole; whole in ways that all the happiness in the world cannot ever do for one. And, wholeness only comes after grief is faced with all of the self/Self. If one avoids the process, the gold of wholeness is never achieved.

I did not know in 2001, while I was falling in love, that I would eventually go on a journey to wholeness; all I knew, at that time, was that I was not loved in return, that I could never be loved in return, and there was nothing I could do to change this.

For some reason, at that point in my life, either due to age, or circumstance, I decided to walk on the rock filled path of grief to see where it might lead me. What resulted was wholeness, and Magnolia Dances, a poetic diary of unrequited love.

For if we never face love in all of its glory and devastation, but only fear love, and run from it, who are we after all? The heart can only grow with tears that are allowed to fall...falling in love, magnolia dancing, flying home.

"Magnolia Dances" is now available for purchase from Xlibris.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: May 28, 2015
• ISBN: 9781503559677

Jenenne Castor-Thompson

Jenenne Castor-Thompson holds a BS from the University of New Mexico in Albuquerque, New Mexico and a MA from Holy Names University in Oakland, California. Ms. Castor-Thompson spent her career in health care management and consulting in various health-care institutions in the western United States. She is now writing full-time. This is her sixth published work. She lives in southwestern New Mexico among her cactus and her stones, and is an aficionado of the sky and the sunsets. More information about Ms. Castor-Thompson can be found at her web site: www.jenenne.com

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CONTENTS

Prelude

Magnolia Dances, Part I

Orange Pekoe

Falling

And what of ecstasy?

The San Luis

Interlude

Simple

White Light Heat

Pearl of Self

Wine of the Sufis

Edges

Oak/Acorn

Light and Darkness

Equus: Crazy/Madness (revisited)

Embedded in Life, Alone

Magnolia Dances, Part II

Gold/Purple/Jade

I have

Honey Sweet, cornbread

The Great Nothingness

Trap Doors

Saul and you and I and she

Your smell, Perfume

Magnolia Dances, Part III

Postlude

Falling, Dancing, Flying

T’ung Jên/Fellowship with Men

Broken Hearted

Today

Goodbye

Love, unseen, seen

The End

Love’s Executioner

Heart Stone

A Year Later

Notes

Acknowledgements

For Irina Tweedie

The most astonishing,

beautiful,

and, oh, so fine woman

I have ever known.

My love for you

has become a boat,

a boat made of the stems of roses.

A boat

I have floated on

through the rough waters of my life.

I thank you,

and I will always love you.

Unrequited love is always characterized by a series of small goodbyes,

until the final goodbye.

It can be no other way….

Prelude

Magnolia Dances, Part I

Golden, stunning, elegant

Caressing me softly

with her mind

She is not whole, but she is healed

A chipped blue crystal vase

holds the white rose

Magnolia Dances

We danced the dance of eternity,