Walking Immortal
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Italia Vanhouten
Italia Vanhouten, writer, poet, and author born May 25, 1990 in Houston, TX. She is a film major at Los Angeles City College as well as a board member of the BSU (Black Student Union) and apart of the social media team for the Black Caucus. December 5, 2010 she performed her first live poetry reading at New Beginnings a local church in Long Beach, CA. March 17, 2011 she performed three poems also featured in Walking Immortal at the LBCC’s Y B Silent PCC Young Poet’s Society. March 24, 2011 by request Italia performed a reading of her poem titled “Sorrowed Moans” at the Central Neighborhood Advisory Committee Presents Black Awareness. Italia has worked with Music Video Director/Photographer Peter Pearce and Jeremiah Rosborough. Now as alumni of the YPS, Italia is a regular speaker at the LBCC’s PCC open mic night. Italia is also an active member of the non-profit organization called A.I.M. founded by Leila Steinberg.
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Walking Immortal - Italia Vanhouten
WALKING
IMMORTAL
ITALIA VANHOUTEN
Copyright © 2013 by Italia Vanhouten.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2013907276
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-4836-2948-3
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Contents
Shadow
Touched
The Beast Within
Hellion
Field of Darkness
Attention
Bleed
Silent Cries Fall On Deaf Ears
Evanescent
Missing Bond Between
Numb
Doom To Never End
Crying Out
Abuse Divide By Lust = Love
Bipolar
Disconnected
Relapsing
Suicidal
Taken
To Be Or Not To Be
Rescue me
Hate
Higher
Fears
Intoxicated
The Outside’s Inside
Hollow
Imprisoned
Mucho Mas
My Only
Reviled
Which?
Done
Misunderstood
Bound
Ashamed
Agony
Lost
My Suicide
Lithium
Empty
Dreaming
Running
Fallen
1Need You
Hear Me, Feel Me
The Unknown
Inside Myself
No Sleep
Consumed
Tears
Unspoken
Angel In My Dream
Alone
Show Me
Hurting
Departed
Can’t Tell
All Said And Done
End
Life’s Death Match
Moment Of Times Pauses
Plain Sight
Season Come, Seasons Go
Walking Immortal To Impermanence
Attempts
Breathe Unto
Freedom Of Hope
Alive
Patients Of Fulfillment
Process
Yet Holding On
Weight Of The World
Addicts Underbelly
Mirror
Underneath
Say Words Felt
Soul Love
Lightweight
Found Bond
"Secrecy’ (Lost Along The Way)
Sorrowed Moans
Roads
Survivor
Mchakato wa uponyaji
(Healing Process)
Temptations, Attack Of
Dear Lie, Real Stay’s Dry
Anger
Recovery
The Discovery Of Friendship
Woodstock
Don’t Give Up
Traveled
Til The End
The Family Within
Crossroads
Enough Of The Circles, To Draw Nigh
Eruption
Heard Without Ears
Hope
"Impermanent Sorrow’
My Rudi
Dominion
Jane Doe
Rare Raven
Sign of Time Changed
Stand
Hand In Hand
Kilio
I Was Here
Reason Defining Why
Storm
Spirit Eyes
Shades
Seeking
My Will
Map
The Climb
Home
Grace
Eyes
I Remember
My Speech
The End Is Near
Shadow
Ruff palms creep up the flesh’s senses
Aware and alert
Shallow breaths die under pounds of heavy breathing
Blank stares nerves running wild
Gasping
The dark shadow speaks
Words repeated with no reply time and time again
This hurts
No ability to vocally response
It just hurts
Eyes reading the bodies reactions
Wet curving rolling between
Placement waiting hands
Tear drops fall as unidentified senses begin to rage
Gripped to the shadows hand clinching cotton
Panicked tense overwhelming
No understanding though of such
Relentless vibe
Seconds seeming to be hours
Fading out slowly
It stops
The shadow reappears insight
Soft words spoken as if the shadow knows
It’s ok repeated over
Difficult to swallow
With a cuffed hand wiping the tears away
Lying beneath the shadows embrace
Shamed mental flow of words form
Begging to close the gap the shadow rest between
Dimmed eyes mix emotions
Barred beyond
Trying to ignore all feelings and just hold onto the period of every sentence in the
shadows speech
Anguish sets in fear of having lost something that was suppose to be kept
Worthless limp feral waged between the sheets bunched on the floor
From motion and the shadow
It covers it speaks it touches it takes till there’s nothing left
Leaving a fate whisper behind
Good girl
28910.jpg28560.jpgTouched
7 signs of terror
Wilted meadows of youth
Broken roots
Scared internal
Left the senses of my own
Forever kept
Forever to drive
Confusion draws comfort to a backhand to the flesh
Gripped to the lining
Flow rushing
Lids full
Easily bent to your demand
Knowing no resist
Shadow repeats its motion night after night
Fixed on
Love it?
Need it?
Captive to the hold
Innocent no more
Drained of all purity
Believing word sin soft tone
Stemming from guilt muttering words stay behind
Continued
Constant
Cycle lingers
At your hand a quiver
Reading inside pages
Drawing clueless waters to bayside
Pouring out no control
Make it stop
Like that?
Make it go away
Wash his essence off it burns
Feeding on the close
Formats remain same blueprint
Stinging
Pricing
Penetrating with the reapers claw at first
Entering with flogs then on
Still no movement
No expiration No emotion thriving only
Been touched repeatedly with the force of divine law
28913.jpg28562.jpgThe Beast Within
Angry madness alluring
Steady passing the line to being furious
Inner the beast calls herself Hellion
Breaking free she attempts
Chains rapped tight around
The key matched to unlock her has been melted to reassure
No escape now
Things left she has only being one
Chances used the option of one chose
Voice
Angry screams
Frustrated cries
Seeing the weak of her other side walk free
Still no feet step over to the other side of the cell
Clinching her teeth
Nails digging to her chains
No release breaking free in timings sooner moment
There in lie the danger
Not an ounce of fears drops to danger
Tons labeled anger
Hate
Rage that has no target
Lust that has no limit of numbers highs
Just spreading
Caged for safety of others and most of all safety of herself
Taunting her reflection she named weak
Not realizing she’s just taunting herself
Bared parts of her being weak stare her in the face
In a distance eyes meeting their opposites
Two in one soul
Very different but of the same person
Learning the innocence of the beast
Weak cries for her
Hurts for her
Feels for her
I feel her
Hurting for her
Crying for her
For she is me and I am her as one meeting for the first time as old a new
The beast has yet to give up on her release to cause drama freely
Nor give in to the act of the prisoner because of the chains that constrict her movement
Will she ever be released of just continue to live like a freak on a leash?
A horizon to all including self
28915.jpg28564.jpgHellion
The one who take up spaces in the dark places of my heart
A person I fear
Fearing my-self’s other side
For Hellion is a part of me
A part at one time poses all of me
Now in the dungeon of my heart but still there
Hellion fears those of good nature
Fearing that they will bring out the one she calls weak and make her strong
Strong enough to make her disappear forever
The weak being the side of me I can’t touch but always seems to reach out
Using her rage to overpower the weak
Hellion fights
Bringing the weak to her knees
Bringing me to my knees
Battling everyday against each other
Feeling like I can’t win for Hellion knows what I fear
She know of my weakness and how to provoke it
Feeling Hellion’s right as others continue to hurt me and abandon me
When everyone else leaves me she’s always the only one there
Trying to convince me to trust her and go head and unchain her
But not being the one who bound her I can not fully release her
Why should I continue to trust those who have no place in their heart for me?
Should I give in to Hellion’s ways or fight her til the end?
Can’t fight alone
I hate Hellion
I see Hellion
I am Hellion
Wishing she’d disappear forever
28917.jpg28566.jpgField of Darkness
My fields are not covered with beautiful flowers/But of grey fogs coving me and the dark pillows I rest on/ I wonder around in the deeps of my heart/ Can’t go too far/ Going