Underbelly: Poems
By Malena Spar
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In her debut collection of poetry, Malena Spar explores the intimate journey of healing her past. She takes the reader through the darkness of confusion, the painful dawn of awakening, and leaves us at the door of freedom through healing. "Underbelly" is a message of hope
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Underbelly - Malena Spar
Darkness
How do you feel?
my dream asked
Unmoored, estranged
I replied
I’ve done everything right
By others
To lead to this moment
But now
Faced with the rest of my life
My body is screaming no,
No this is not for me
I want to break free
From the mold of pleasing
To unpack the layers of shoulds
That drive my actions
And poison my life
I will no longer lay myself
At the feet of others
I will no longer feel guilt
That my existence is not
Solely for them
I felt it again last night
The grip of a panicked heart
The feeling of groundlessness
That comes when loved ones are out of reach
Despite all my energy and efforts
The classes and hours of solitude
I’ve hopped back on the carousel of abandonment
Listening helplessly to the familiar tunes
Blaring from 28-year-old speakers
I run between the horses and tigers
Who stare at me with glazed eyes and plastic smiles
Watching as I desperately search for a sign of life
But the spinning platform is empty and bare
As are all places our minds invent
This time, instead of throwing myself off
Into the lap of an unwilling soul
I run myself to exhaustion
And collapse on the spinning floor
I wonder how long I will be here
Sitting with these unbearable feelings
Forgetting that as the engineer of this ride
Only I can dismantle the entire thing
The pain of trying to reach myself and only meeting a solid wall settles in me like the heaviness of every brick used to build it
What if this time you stayed
What if you gave me everything I wanted
Would that make the pain go away
Or am I using you as an excuse
To distract from the black hole inside my chest
That swallows anyone who gets near
And whispers discontents in my ear
So if you don’t leave, eventually I will
And because I’ve perfected the art of self-deception
I’m always left wondering why it failed
The room is dark and full of heavy objects
It casts long shadows into the hallway
A past neglected, calling to be examined
But I pass by without entering
I opt for more predictable spaces
Filled with ignorance and folly
At least there’s lightness here
Though I often leave feeling numb