Grief and a New Identity: the Second Year: The Diary of a Grieving Mother
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GRIEF AND A NEW IDENTITY:
THE SECOND YEAR
THE DIARY OF A GRIEVING MOTHER
A grief mystery story with the question,
what happened to Charles Daniels
Diana Daniels
Copyright © 2014 by Diana Daniels.
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Rev. date: 08/18/2014
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CONTENTS
Memories
Christmas Is Around The Corner
Feeling Blessed
My Dream
Good Day
What A Day
My Grief And You
Where Is The Beauty In Death
Today I Cried
In Loving Memories
Happy Birthday Charles
Let’s Make Spring Time A Time We Visit Our Love One
Dear Charles
My World Is Round
From The Beginning
My World Is Round
GRIEF AND A NEW IDENTITY
The Second Year
Hello again I’m sure by now you know who I am from Grief and a new identity the first year when I first experienced grief from the lost of my son. Going into my second year things changed a bit my pain remains, it seem to have had matured into something else I’m not going to tell you how things got better and all the support groups made my life so wonderful because then I’m lying, it helped, there are so many others that’s going through the same thing so we can share things, changed far as how to live my life without my son, but living my life without him in my life now that’s something different. My stories don’t have all the glory happy ending or look she gave us hope, we do have hope, but I’m explaining in the true light just how it is, my son lost his life to murder suddenly no readiness and senselessly… How am I the second year let me tell you
Updates—Holidays & and now November 29 2013
GRIEF AND A NEW IDENTITY
The Second Year
image002.jpgNovember 29 2013
Updates I do understand why the last two days I have been feeling depressed, I can’t have stress in my life, when I’m stressed out it brings on my grief like triggers that sets off emotion disorders, I never had this before until my son passed away, I try to stay far way much as possible to anything or anyone who’s going to trigger my emotion disorders, my sister stressed me out about my mother one day and later on that night I was so deeply set back into my grief I wished my son was here so I don’t have to deal with these people who are left in my life as family members I had my own family my son and I and I was happy with it, ‘then it was’, I know you’re not dead so where are you, why did you leave me by myself with these people sinking fast
looking for some where to hide the feel of being abandoned again all of these from being stressed out then depression, I can’t live like this I don’t want this life I have left, I miss well go, who cares all this from stress, my grief played a big part of my emotional feeling I’m more easier to bend until I’m stronger enough to stand on my own I stay away from stress. My days here are for God, I’m so in love with my Lord and always been at the age of four I felt him around me, my path in life wasn’t the one I left it was to completely serve him but he gave me a different path to teach me what my problems were and that was understand love and what it really was, love for one another and to know when you see it back I loved every one but I always question if anyone really loved me I had to learn love, my son was that gift and my teacher to show me just what that was and a good teacher he was, the first time in my life I knew what it felt like to have someone who really loved me, so do you understand how much this breaks my heart now that he’s gone, now what is my lesson in life now? To teach others the same? Some asked me today if you wrote a list of all the things you loved about your son what would you put on your list his beautiful eyes, his smile, his sense of humor, the way he could make me laugh, his beautiful built, his skin the way the sun hits it, his brains he was so smart the way he taught mama a lot of things, his height I loved looking up to him, my little man child, his kindness, he was full of compassion, he love life and he taught me to love myself and my life, he taught me love, I love you my angel.
December 1 2013
Updates what is this? tonight feels like the first day my son passed, but a little different like it manifest into something else the pain is so intense it’s like a dream that I can’t wake up from please wake me shake me because this isn’t for real, stop telling me how to grieve my pain, stop telling me this will take time, stop telling me that I’m strong, when I know this will always be with me, that I’ll never wake up because this is the worst dream I ever had, stop telling that I’m strong, I know I am ‘I’m still here’, walking around try to become one of the living dead feeling numb so I won’t lose my mind mixed feeling and I don’t care for any of it, but I was blessed with this from the price of a lost love one, I loved you this much that my pain is just as strong you filled my day of every moment of you so how could I live the rest of my life without you, every feeling is now formed together not like at the beginning one expression one at a time but this time it all comes at once disbelief, anger, being a afraid, not excepting, abandonment, lost, confused, hurt, dead, stressed depressed what is this called?
Back in the same place with my back against the wall sitting in my sons room in the new place Charles place feeling different not in the same place my son lost his life moving was the right thing to do, I left so much baggage behind the bad memories but did I? The people who killed my son, bad neighborhood bad neighbors the people who wanted to kill me because they knew I knew it was them, the suffering the surrounding walls being in prison in my own place for four months finally rid of it, did I? now I have peace to grieve.
December2 2013
GRIEF AND A NEW IDENTITY
The Second Year
MEMORIES
No sleep, sleep won’t come tired and I twist and turn I keep calling out for my son still in disbelief I say his name out loud so I can remembering what it sounds like when I say it, seeing him coming in my room on nights like this, when I can’t sleep