Young Black & Dangerous: A Gangsters Memoir

By Lewis Pope

I am hoping that all my readers will understand that we all have many different struggles but you can overcome them and prosper as long as you don't give up and stay positive.

• Language: English
• Publisher: iUniverse
• Release date: May 6, 2016
• ISBN: 9781491796313

Lewis Pope

Lewis Jamaal Pope was born in New jersey then moved to Miami when he was ten years old. His life has been full of struggles. He has witnessed many life and mind altering things. He was always trying to find a way to do something with his life but there was a lot of evil and negative forces around him that always seemed to find a way to redirect his path. Now at the age of 28 having become a man of God with a wife and son he has decided that enough is enough. He has decided to take back the life that was stolen from him and live to the fullest! This story is his testimony and sheds light on what many young black males are facing today.

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Contents

Introduction

Frustrated

Vulnerable

Serious

Operation Silent But Deadly

Rules Of Survival

Menace To Society

Mind Playing Tricks On Me

The Struggle

Letter To My Mom

Letter To My Little Homies

Los Angeles

Second Letter To My Mom

Wicked

On The Edge

Sick Of It

True

Patience

War

Putting In Work

Play Your Part

Determined

Where Do I Go From Here?

Got Me Fucked Up

Insane

Eery

Handle It

A Real Man

Genocide

Killers

Traumatized

Dr Jekyll & Mr Hide

No Surrender

Shady

Evil

Judgements

5 Minutes Away

Death Around The Corner

Deep

Much More To Offer

Stand Alone

Just Don’t Know

Precious

Because Of You (God)

Fuck Amerikkka!!!!!

Life & Death

Sophisticated

The Darkside

Much Love

Hard

Lethal

Phenomenon

Hopeless

Against The Grain

What Lies Ahead

Haunted

Faces Of Death

Bloods

Sacrifices

In God’s Hands

Chosen

Faith

Ready For Whatever

Easy Way Out

Can’t Fade This

Better Days

Always Something

Rage Within

Holding On

Problems

Observe

Never Be The Same

Can’t Stop Won’t Stop

Is It Wrong?

Breaking Me Down

World On My Shoulders

Beneath The Surface

Better Off Dead

In Time

Silent

Courage

Destiny

Til The Death Of Me

Roller Coaster

Give Back

Life Is

Outcast

Dreams

Alone

Don’t Understand

Sincere

Push

It Has Begun

Thank God

Against All Odds

Uncertain

Another Day

Suicidal Visions

Sexaholic

Zombie

My Life

Promise

Always On Time

Violent

Straight Souljah

Impossible

Who Am I

Invisible

Use Your Brain

Can’t Hide It

The Essence

Success

Making History

Parallel Minds

What Women Want

All Wrong

A Fool

Good And Bad

Restless

Die Together

Reach For The Sky

Distant

Beyond And Above

Outrageous

The Ghetto

Too Late

Cursed

A Different World

Kids

Ruthless

Nightmare

Money

Love

I Am

Shadow

Looks Are Deceiving

A Normal Man

Consequences

Divide And Conquer

Do Or Die

Days Of Our Lives

Fuck All Yall!

Demons

Life I Lead

Smiles And Cries

Let Go

Something About Me

Fear Only God

Thicker Than Water

What Is It In Me

Can’t Turn Back

If You Only Knew

Crushed

Past Life

Transformation

Gift Of Speech

Spiritual

Crooked Ass Muthafuckas

So Much Pain

As Close As You’ll Get

Flashbacks

One Blood

Monsters

Follow Your Dreams

Like A Movie

Forever In My Heart

Nothing To Be Played With

Eternal

It Don’t Stop

Loss Of Words

My Niggaz

Black Prince

No Remorse

Street Scholar

Do The Right Thing

Thank You’s

INTRODUCTION

I was twenty years old when I wrote this book. I did not intend on publishing this at all. I left Miami and went to Los Angeles in February 2008 to pursue a better lifestyle and succeed with my rap career. I did not care about the obstacles I was about to face, I just knew in my heart that I wanted things to change for the better because nothing was happening for me in Miami. When I got to L.A. I tried to make something happen but failed, not once but twice! I was living in a motel in watts for a couple of weeks and had to leave because I was almost out of money.

I did not know anyone in L.A. And wasn’t the type of person to beg or accept hand outs from people that I do not know. So I left L.A. And went to stay with my grandpa and grandma in Arizona. I had a hard time adapting to where I was because they lived in a area called Peoria which is majority rich white folks. A lot of them were old so I hardly seen them. Peoria was far from the inner city so I did not have anyone to relate to. I tried doing several different things to help the time go by but this prison like setting eventually started affecting my mind. I did not understand at that time that god was doing

this to me for a reason. I had came to a crossroad in my life, and the only way to move forward was to face my demons and overcome them. I was initiated into the bloods back in Miami, and was involved in a lot of things that can ultimately alter and destroy the life that I was blessed with. This book is the written transformation that I experienced in Arizona. I hope this book gives other street souljahs insight on how they can break free from this plague that so many of us have been consumed by. One day at a time, may each one teach one. One Love

FRUSTRATED

1. Today was my first day working as a McDonald’s employee. It was frustrating at first, and those demons started calling me. I wanted to break out on their ass, but I stayed humble. It is extra and extremely hard for a brother like me to keep control of myself under such buster ass conditions. After getting the hang of how they operate I handled my situation much better. I know for a fact that I need money, and a real