Haze
By Abdulla Kazim, Ghada Ahmad and Zahra K.
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Abdulla Kazim
I am a native of the United Arab Emirates. My first language is Arabic and I started learning English late as it was the requirement of my college. To improve my English, I started reading and writing, and from there I developed the love for books and writing in English. I completed my bachelor's degree in Business Information Technology and I working now as a programmer in Dubai Aluminium Company, DUBAL. I am 29 years old and married. I love exploring new hobbies and learn new things especially that is related to art.
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Haze - Abdulla Kazim
Copyright © 2015 by Abdulla Kazim; Zahra K. ; Ghada Ahmad.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2015919605
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-5144-2963-1
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CONTENTS
Decide to Stay
Flower Story
You
Belonging
Stay in My Heart
Don’t Hide
Relationships
The Great Wall
Drained: A Letter to You
Godsend She
When I See You
A Wanderer in Life
February 9
Mercy, Memories
For You
The Eldest
Impurity of the Pure
Blank
Valentine
Love Is
V1
Let Me
Among Wolves
The Night Visitor
Mercy
He Can Feel
We Don’t Eat Friends
Justice
Mind Games
Super Human
It is a Theatre
Teach Me
My Love
Man with a Flower
Love’s Faith
No Angel
A Broken Memory
Letter to My Lover
Pride
Talking To Death
Seven Deadly Sins
A Blessed Friend
The Beast’s Wish
Thank You Note
A Thorn in Heart
Torn
To Kill a Fire
Green Days
First Day in Heaven
Electricity
Dark Shadows
Angel
Different
There
Pains in Rains
Undying Glow
The Morning Scent
All I Want
Sister in Dream
Queen
The Fight
With You
Children
Among Others
Then
What Lies Beneath
Meeting in the Park
Of God and Dreams
Biography
Decide to Stay
By: Zahra K.
I know why you’re here and it’s not for me. I know why, I can sense it.
I can see the mascara streams down your cheeks, from crying all night. I know you were too tired to even move to remove the makeup off your face.
I can hear the harshness in your voice. I know he’s making you smoke extra cigarettes per day. I can see the redness of your eyes and the dark halos around them; I know you’re barely sleeping.
That’s why you’re here.
Not for me. But for you.
But I won’t ask you to leave. I can’t do that to you.
So I helplessly open up my arms and let you fling yourself between them and hold you while you cry your heart out.
I won’t let go of you, until your shoulders and sides start to ache from all the misery. I won’t let go of you until you dried up all the tears that streamed down from your eyes. I won’t let go even if my knuckles turned white because of how tight my grip on you would be.
And then I know you’ll drift off to sleep. And I let you. I want you to dream. Leave your reality for a minute. Leave the sorrow you were bearing when you came to me.
But my sorrow is greater. Because I know that you don’t belong to me. You hate him now, but you will hate me tomorrow.
I’ll let you sleep, and I’ll watch over you all night. I won’t close my eyes, not even for a second. I want to see the peacefulness on your face, because I know it has been such a long time since you felt your insides unwind. Your mind hasn’t been at ease in centuries.
And then I’ll make you something to eat in the early morning so I can sense the blood flow in your veins again. But I know you won’t touch me in the morning.
Even though you held on to me like I was dear life last night.
It’s because the guilt grasps your soul and clutches at your heart, asking you to hate me. And miss him.
You miss him. And now you hate me for allowing you to hate him, even if for a night. That realization grows into you and I know your routine. You’ll place your cup of coffee on the table and walk out coldly.
God, the entire night I don’t shut my eyes off. I don’t shut my mind off. I just keep thinking and hoping you would decide, this once, to stay. Stay with me.
But you never fail to disappoint my expectations.
I know I want you around me. But you want me around you only when it’s convenient, and sadly, I am okay with that.
So, the sun goes down into the sky and it’s the darkness surrounds me again. Darkness amplifies the loneliness in me. And I sit by my bed, staring at the coffee cup you left this morning. And I look at the time.
And inside of me a little spark of hope, that maybe you’ll come knocking down my door again. Maybe in a few minutes, you’ll decide he’s not worthy of you. And I sit there by my bed, waiting on you to hate him and love me, and waiting on you to show up at my door.
And decide to stay. Just a little bit longer.
Flower Story
By: Ghada Ahmad
Does the flower have a story…
Or it witnesses certain stories…
Does the flower have a friend…
Or it connects a friend to friend…
Does the flower fall in love…
Or it strengthens stories of love…
Does the flower have a story…
Or it witnesses certain stories…
You
By: Abdulla Kazim
The flower,
That blossoms every day.
The sun,
That never stops shining a day.
The life,
Enriching the souls of the dead.
The perfume,
Arousing the senses of the dead.
The tears,
That burn hot on cheeks.
The sorrow,
That only my heart seeks.
The light,
That is calling my name.
The fire,
Setting my body on flame.
The love,
O, shall we talk of it?
The sea,
Swallowing me deep into it.
Nothing from life I seek,
but you.
I always see death,
without you.
When you are not near me…
Darkness falls.
Belonging
By: Zahra K.
What does belonging mean? What is the actuality of that word? Does it necessarily mean that a person fits into a certain environment or that he belongs to a group with certain rights? To wake up in the morning, belonging to a family, to a house, to a neighborhood, to a city, a country and to the world. So where do we really belong? It all depends on your perspective.
It might be that your most important sense of belonging comes from your family. You feel pity for those who wake up alone every day and those who have nobody to spend holidays with. Others may interpret this as freedom.
They may think that true belonging is belonging within your group of peers. That friendship brings upon the true essence of belonging. To fit in with people who have not naturally grown up with you and to share experiences, similarities and differences. To do everything together, whether negative or positive, so that you can fit in, so that you can belong. I see that all the time, especially in the toughest years of a teenager’s life, which are high school years. Everyone is so desperate to belong to any group. Personally, I’ve tried my hardest to fit in for three years to a group I didn’t even belong in. I knew deep down, that this was not my place but I tried and I persevered. Nothing was ever my way and nothing was ever what I liked, and looking back it was extremely stupid. I was just a thirteen-year-old trying to understand why groups and cliques were the groundwork of high school. But, everyone should understand that when you try so hard to fit in, you would eventually break.
And after three long years, my perseverance broke and my bonds broke along with it. I cut myself off from them and I left trying to find somewhere else where I can easily just slip in. Just like trying to put in a tight ring on your finger, if it was too small it would just hurt trying to fit it in and sometimes it would get stuck then you would have to pull it out so hard and hurt your finger. That would happen to anyone who tries to get in somewhere they don’t belong, you would just hurt yourself and your pride at the end of the day.
Acceptance and belonging should never go against your own morals and your own beliefs. Your friend can smoke that cigarette, and the other can shoot drugs into her system, and they would tell you that doing it would make you feel like you are a part of them
. I’m not against doing what you want and the freedom of it all, but utterly against the idea of doing something against your morals to belong and only to belong. You would tolerate the smoke and the bitter taste of tobacco on your tongue to get the approving smiles of your friends, but the disapproving sound inside you telling you to stop.
My idea of belonging is belonging to yourself, to your beliefs, your ideas, your morals, your values, and belonging to your being and what makes you, you. I believe that if I wake up everyday knowing that my conscience is clear and that I have nothing to regret because I didn’t do anything against my set of beliefs is the truest form of belonging to myself. To many people, belonging to a group comes only by name, whether it was a family or a group of friends. Or, on the contrary, they would belong to them in every way but go against their morals for them. There are the lucky ones, who belong to their family, friends, country and to themselves as well.
If your beliefs go with your religion, then there’s another form of belonging, which is belonging to your creator. That is the purest form. When you belong to the God who created you and gave you life and you care only about belonging to Him and to your religion, then you would have achieved the ultimate peace of mind everyone seems to be looking for these days.
Those little simple things, they are the ones that shape you up as a person and I think that belonging to yourself will make you belong any and everywhere.
Stay in My Heart
By: Abdulla Kazim
Yell in my heart
Take in it a part
Do not leave it
Or sadness will start
Build in it a nest
For your own rest
And take the rest
But do your best
Grow in there plants
With your own hand
And take care of them
Or they’ll be sand
Draw in there shapes
Of mountains and caves
With seas and waves
That a heart deserves
Perfume it with lime
But keep some time
For rose and its rhyme
That lime cannot mime
Cover the whole room
With lily and its perfume
And cassia that can loom
The sky with its perfume
Spread there a textile
Of your own style
Spread there a smile
Longer than The Nile
Floor it with care
And erase the fear
This place is rare
With no second pair
To find the eternal life
With an always beating heart
To live the eternal life
Just stay in my heart
The always-flying love
Is like the sky above
To find the love’s art
Just stay in my heart
To find your own soul
And your life, whole
To find your own heart
Just stay in my heart
Don’t Hide
By: Zahra K.
Don’t hide from me. Show me everything. I don’t want you to be afraid.
Don’t try to cover up your flaws. To me, they are perfections. And don’t think for a second that I don’t see you as flawless with all the faults stitched into you.
Don’t be scared to cry. Cry your heart out and until your ribs feel like breaking apart, and don’t worry about what I would think when I see you disintegrate in front of me. Instead, I’m in awe of the beauty you possess when your tears fall down and your eyes shine like diamonds and I see that your weakness in that moment showcases all the strength inside of you.
Darling, I would kiss your tears away and I know they’ll taste like heaven.
Don’t be afraid to tell me what keeps you up at night when you roll around and leave your bed and go back into it a million times. Tell me what makes your heart stop beating in your chest, because of how the fear of it consumes your being. Call me when the sun is still trying to color up the sky, and tell me what is the thing that kills you a thousand times over every single day and what are the things that never leave your mind.
I am more intrigued by the monsters that hide inside of you, dormant until the hours after midnight wake them up from their hibernation. I don’t want to only know the human you try so hard to be when the sky is still blue and the world is still chaotic.
Don’t be afraid to bear all the scars you have to me. Show me them all. If they were engraved upon your skin, tell me how you got each and every one of them. And then allow me to trace each and every scar with my lips and make marks of my own on you. And if they were etched in your heart, tell me what happened and who put them there. So I can never dare to scar your beautiful soul again.
Don’t be afraid to fall down on your knees and be crushed in front of me. Don’t hide what a wreck you really are. I will put your broken pieces back in place and