“It’S Not Going to Be Easy.” God: A Memoir
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In this book, Its Not Going to Be Easy. God, Ruthie bravely exposes the painful choices of living her life her way. She became a believer of Jesus Christ in her early teens but lived life carelessly absent from the life her Creator designed her to. Through her emotional pain and turmoil, Ruthie released the death-grip of control and openly verbalized her desire to surrender her life to God. She experienced miraculous and dramatic life-changing experiences. Life is full of challenges but her heart, emotions, thought patterns and choices are drastically different.
Ruthie Jo Wilson
Ruthie Jo is an inspired and passionate writer of poetry, biographies, and personal experiences. She enjoys teaching young students to write a variety of genres. Ruthie has been married for over thirty-one years. She has two adult daughters and four grandchildren. She and her family live in Austin, Texas.
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“It’S Not Going to Be Easy.” God - Ruthie Jo Wilson
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WestBow Press rev. date: 05/20/2015
Contents
The Beginning of the End
It’s Not Going to be Easy.
God
January 2013: Refinement and Sorrow
Changing Heart
Choices
Spiritual Warfare 2013
Peace in Heartbreak
Closing Doors
Starting Over
Beautiful Ugly
The Beginning of the End
I remember precisely the conversational exchange I had with my Lord and Savior.I was alone in my thoughts while I was driving along on a hilly, lonely stretch of highway. It was a sunny, chilly ‘happy’ day. However, my heart was broken and hurt. I was disgusted and ashamed of myself. I had a sinking feeling; What kind of person would I be today had I been more diligent about the commitment to my faith in Christ Jesus?
That awakening in my broken spirit instantly charged my heart into a firm commitment of determination. My heart had finally caught up to the knowledge and what it meant to be completely surrendered to Christ Jesus. At that precise moment, I knew that I had come to the end of my worldly behavior. It was the beginning of the end for me. It was at that profound, pivotal moment that I would commit myself to the life God had intended for me. The living word of the Bible penetrated my soul; my heart was open to receive the Holy Spirit’s prompting and my ears were finally open to listen. It would be months later that I was able to understand the transformation that had happened to me. At that moment of heartfelt surrender, the words of the Bible began to live in me.
"I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but
Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by
Faith in the Son of God, who loved me,
And delivered Himself up for me." Galatians 2:20
The New American Standard Bible
I passionately write this memoir because I know that there are people like me who hurt deeply. I would wake up most mornings rehearsing the same agonizing voice in my head about how much of a failure I was; that I had no real significance in life and decided that the world would be a better place without me. Yet somewhere deep inside of my soul something told me that those horrid thoughts just couldn’t be true. Year after year I used different remedies to smother those self-defeating voices in my head. So often I lived life weighted down with ‘damage control’ because of the poor decisions I created for myself. Oddly enough, the cure and remedy for me was in me through God my Creator. And as perfect timing would lend itself, a family member told me directly, I promise you will be transformed if you give yourself over to God the Father.
For the first time in my life