Hope
By Rima Jbara
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Rima Jbara
Rima Jbara was born on 20th August 1979, in Damas, and spent most of her childhood writing short stories and eventually novels. At the age of 14, she published her first novel and by the time she turned 15, she gave readers her first bestseller. Rima’s zest for writing continued as she released Road To Hell, The Mystique of Asmahan and Shams. It took Rima three years to write Hope, which was called “a masterpiece” by many critics and readers. Through her writing, Rima has fought tradition and reality, and has always chosen daring topics to shock conventional people.
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Hope - Rima Jbara
© 2017 Rima Jbara. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 05/17/2017
ISBN: 978-1-5246-8128-9 (e)
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CONTENTS
THIS IS MY JOURNEY
GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE CLOUDS
AND BACK TO EARTH
I JUST WANT TO BE PERFECT
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO
OH! DADDY
MY ALBUM
HOW WILL I END UP?
BENEATH THE GROUND
WHAT HAPPENED?
THE END
JUST STARTING
THE INTERVIEW
TELL ME
J’ADORE
I WANT TO KNOW
VACATION
IF
WERE HERE
TRYING TO LIVE
AU REVOIR
ALIVE
ILLUSIONS
THE PSYCHIATRIST
TIME FOR A CHANGE
I WANT TO BE A PROFESSIONAL PAINTER
YOU OR NO ONE
GOODBYE
BEING LOST
ANOTHER DREAM
JE SUIS DESOLEE
FALLING LIKE A WATERFALL
DO I BELONG HERE?
I NEED YOU
THE NEWS
ROSE
ONE MORE CHANCE
YOU NEVER DIED
JE T’AIME
MAGIC
BLACK MOON
HIS STRANGE WIFE
MY BABY
MON AMOUR
THE TRIP
DROWNING WORLD
COME TO ME
SILENT RUIN
DON’T TELL ANYONE
MON COEUR
BACK WITH A HEART
HOPE HAS A PLACE
CONFIDE IN ME
PARDON
GONE
LONELINESS GAME
ONE DAY I’LL FLY AWAY
CRAZY ONES
AS I AM
IF ONLY
JE SUIS MALADE
FADING FAST
SHOULD I?
I PLEAD INSANITY
MORTALITY
SILENCE
WHEN DREAMS TURN TO DUST
DON’T TAKE MY HEAVEN
SHE’S WORLDS AWAY
CAPTURE THIS LIGHT
FORGET THIS DAY
GOODBYE
THIS IS MY JOURNEY
I must reach to where I must be
And see
What it feels like to be
A soul that is free
"All people dream. But I dream the hardest. I
must make this dream come true. And this is my
journey. I will not think of the place I want to
reach to, but of the journey itself. This journey
will be the base of my life. And I must make
sure it is a pure base, because all my future
depends on it. And with the end of this journey
my life ends."
Hope
GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE CLOUDS
AND BACK TO EARTH
Hope looked at her watch and it was exactly twelve o’clock. There was one more hour to finish this class. Hope realised that the class had started just ten minutes ago. There was no way to turn away. ‘How am I going to bear this class?’ Hope’s fingers reached for a pencil and she opened her notebook to draw. She loved drawing sketches and believed that they look classy. She concentrated as she moved her fingers slowly, forgetting that there was a professor who was watching her and that time was passing. It was one o’clock and the lesson had finished, while Hope had not finished her sketch. When she looked up, she saw her angry professor standing in front of her. Hope, will you please get your head out of the clouds and back to earth in my class next time? That is if you want to pass the course!
I JUST WANT TO BE PERFECT
Everybody is perfect at something in his or her life without recognising it. There is perfection. It is just that people don’t believe in it. I believe in it. I’m perfect in painting. I only have doubts, just like any other person who doubts himself because he wants to be perfect.
Reaching to perfection
Is not a reflection
But an injection
Right through your decision
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO
For hours, Hope wasn’t able to sleep. She tossed around in her bed until she was fed up. She went to stand next to the window to look at the stars in the dark sky. ‘I want to shine like this star. I want to be unreachable.’ Hope lifted her head as she whispered, I still have a long way to go.
With a low sigh
I’m going to fly
up and high
OH! DADDY
Why don’t I have a daddy like the others?
You have one.
Where is he?
Dead somewhere.
You mean he’s not coming back?
Yes.
Why?
Because he gave up on life.
What?
Years have passed and I still don’t accept what was said to me that night.
Oh! Daddy
Why?
MY ALBUM
This was the beginning. A child’s imagination.
My first was Mermaids swimming. Mermaids brushing their hair. Mermaids sitting on rocks. Sunset, shading at the sea as it sets. A white swan wandering around in a huge pond. This is my album. Where I take a picture of each painting I did. This is the only reference I have to what I did in life.
HOW WILL I END UP?
Hope sat in her bed crying. I’m very exhausted and I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep. I can never sleep.
Suddenly, her mother opened the door slowly and entered her room, I came to check on you. I thought you were asleep. It’s very late.
I know, but I can’t sleep.
You are like your father.
Did he have the same problem?
Yes.
The door was closed again. Hope was worried now.
What else do I have like my father? Will I end up like he did?
BENEATH THE GROUND
How does it feel?
With no light
With no oxygen
With nothing to look at
With no one to listen your screams
Is it cold?
Is it hot?
Is the space too narrow?
Can you move?
Beneath the ground,
Where there is no sound
Where nothing is found
WHAT HAPPENED?
"It was dark. And I was running. Running to nowhere.
I was very scared. I was out of breath.
I was shivering. I was sweating. I was tired. I couldn’t run anymore. Please help me. Hide me. Protect me."
Why were you running?
I don’t know.
Where were you?
I don’t know.
Are you still scared?
I don’t know.
THE END
Now I will rest.
I’m finished with that test.
Enough
Life was rough.
I had no desire
To play with fire
Do I make sense?
Or what I’m speaking is nonsense?
JUST STARTING
Dear Monsieur Gerard,
I would like to thank you for selling my portraits in your art gallery. I hope we work together in future.
Merci beaucoup.
Hope
Hope went to the gallery of Monsieur Gerard to give her letter to his secretary. Then she went off, walking happily. Life was smiling at her. She was pleased that her paintings were sold. She earned good money. Hope had been selling her portraits since she was fourteen and that made her proud of herself. The money was given to her mother, who, in turn, kept it in a bank account for Hope. While walking, Hope was thinking of the new paintings she was planning to paint. Suddenly, she saw a gallery with beautiful paintings that were extremely unique. She decided to enter the gallery and look around for other paintings. Hope observed every single painting very closely for several minutes. She checked the prices that were very expensive, unlike her prices that were more reasonable. After an hour, she arrived home.
Hello mamma?
Hello sweetie.
How was your day?
It was exhausting, and what about yours?
It was fine. Oh! I’m so happy.
I hope always my dear. I deposited the money in the bank.
Thanks mamma.
I brought a new movie with me.
What is it called?
The Phantom of the Opera.
It’s not horror?
No, why?
It makes me dream of nightmares.
Are you still dreaming?
Yes, always.
That’s strange.
Shall I play it?
Okay, we better watch it now, so we can sleep early.
Yes, I have a lot of work tomorrow.
Hope and her mother Chantal sat to watch the movie, then they went off to sleep. Hope had another nightmare that night. She kept dreaming till morning when her mother woke her. There was horror in Hope’s eyes, which worried her mother,
What were you dreaming of?
I don’t remember.
Go on, wash your face and meet me in the kitchen.
Hope was ready in ten minutes and was in the kitchen, eating her pancake then drinking her fresh strawberry juice.
I want you to eat more. You’re thin. You must gain weight.
I never gain weight.
If you eat more than you’ll gain more weight.
After breakfast, each of them went to their respective work.
Hello, I see a change in you.
Hi Hope,
called Natalie.
Oh! I wish I had your type of body. You’re full. Not like me thin. That new red hair colour suits you. You look fresh.
I wish I was thin like you, then I could wear anything, when you have my type of body you can’t wear anything you like.
Good morning,
Florence said with a smile.
Florence, you look lovely in that new haircut. Don’t tell me you both went together?
Yes we did,
Florence replied.
I have to admit short hair suits your long face.
Natalie said.
You two are the most wonderful girls I’ve ever seen,
Hope said, as she started to unpack the new collection from the boxes. The girls had to iron the clothes, put them so