Mercy and Me: Memoirs of Darkness

By Anitta Stuckey

Have you ever been? Are you now? Or do you know someone who is, in a dark place, unsure, afraid, thinking theres no relief from their situation or their pain? Im here to tell that there is light that guides you out of the darkness leading you to its warmth, comfort, safety, peace, joy, and hope.

I am the Light of the World;
He who follows me
Shall not walk in darkness
But have the light of Life.
John 8:12

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jul 27, 2011
• ISBN: 9781462897353

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Copyright © 2011 by Anitta Stuckey.

Library of Congress Control Number:       2011910993

ISBN:         Hardcover                               978-1-4628-9734-6

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Contents

Dedication

The Plan

Out of a family of 13 there remain only 2.

Dedication

This book is dedicated to my only living brother Omego (Mickey) Stuckey.

Thanks to him, I do have some good memories of fun in my childhood.

Thank you Mickey for protecting me and helping me then and still.

I love you and thanks for all you did and are still doing.

Your sister

And To

Sharon Alsbrook

You were there for me

Mentally and emotionally

Thank you

Your # 1 Student

Anita

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THE PLAN

Lost my innocence

At the age of four years old

Distorted my mind

And also killed my soul.

Now my heart’s ice cold

And I’ve turned away from God

Hit the streets runnin

Hit em’ fast and hit em’ hard

I’m down on my knees

God can’t you hear me cryin

Lookin for escape

But yet I’m slowly dyin

I never had a chance to dream

10 years old love found in romance magazines

11 & 13 hit the abortion clinic twice

At 31, begot one son, thank you Jesus Christ

Had a Sister I barely knew

She left home early, left me there to do

Nine brothers, I was tomboyish and small

Abused and neglected, left alone, no one to call

Molested by my Dad

In the tub wet and naked

Mistreated by him

True Love, no he just faked it

God destroys the wicked

And their demonic minds

A tragic death, he

Was left, on my lap to die

I joined the service

That’s when I turned twenty-one

Raped and tormented

Three years, honorable done

My Mommy she died

In denial, didn’t weep

Blamed me for her death

And they put me in the streets

Ate from the trash can

Empty buildings, alone, cold

No thoughts or no doubt

The Devil, he had my soul

So the Church reached out

Was no doubt, they didn’t know

The pain I carried

The hurt was to help me grow

The drinkin and the druggin

The stealin and the muggin

The ups the downs, high and low

Nowhere to run, nowhere to go

Spent all nite in the crack house

Hours and days in the galleries

Smokin weed and poppin pills

Blessed God have mercy on me plez

Was time for a change

Sold everything I owned

So I made a drastic move

Time to get back in the zone

God smiled down on me

He healed my broken heart

Had mercy on my soul

He gave me a brand new start

Solid rock I stand

Now no limits in my life

My dreams have come true

By the Blood of Jesus Christ

I was the youngest child of 11 children. My mother worked at night and I remember looking at Lamb Chops while my mother rested. All of the other children were at school. I really enjoyed this show, especially the theme song, The Song That Never

Ends. This song reminds me of my life; how the events that have occurred in my life seem to never end. It always seems to be one thing after another. I actually learned a lot from this show.

I recall that when I was about four years old, my father would come home for lunch. I would be lying in bed beside my mother and he would come and remove me from the bed and take me into the bathroom. He would stick his penis between my legs and hump me. When he was done he would place me back in the bed with my Mom. At four, I had no idea that this was inappropriate so of course my Mom never found out about his transgression. This continued until I went to school. I was glad to go to school even if it was for only half a day. But that led to other problems. My brother picked me up at lunch to take me home; but he would take me to the basement where the boys slept.

My Mom was still resting and he would perform different sexual acts on me. I still did not know that this was inappropriate.

At the age of six I was introduced to drugs. One of my ten brothers gave me my first marijuana joint and told me to smoke it. I got choked and started coughing. My eyes were tearing and I