From the Heart of the Spirit
By Nina Austin
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Nina Austin
Nina Austin is a resident of Pennsylvania. She is a Wife, Mother and is fondly referred to as Nana by her seven Grandchildren. Nina has always had a passion for writing. She has published numerous articles for her local newspaper. She is a first-time published Author and loves to incorporate humor in to her inspirational writings.
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From the Heart of the Spirit - Nina Austin
FROM THE
HEART
OF THE
SPIRIT
NINA AUSTIN
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Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Prayers From the Heart of the Spirit
Chapter 1
It is with utmost gratitude and humility that I have been inspired to write this book. I never imagined it possible that someone like me, with so little faith, could be touched so deeply by the Spirit of God. The seed of faith was planted in me, as it was in many others, when I was a small child. Growing up as a Catholic girl, I went through all the motions. I attended Mass every day during the week, and missing church on Sunday was never an option. In fact, it was unthinkable.
My dad suffered from the disease of alcoholism and was commonly referred to by my older siblings as a binge drinker.
I was a change-of-life baby, the youngest of four children. My oldest brother was sixteen years old when I was born, and when I was three years old, he enlisted in the air force. My second-oldest brother followed in his footsteps and also enlisted in the air force. I never had any memories of living at home with either of my brothers, and I always wished I would have been born earlier in their lives. I was very proud of their decision to make a career of the military and their service to our country. On one rare occasion, when I was in the third grade, they were able to come home together for a short visit. Much to my surprise, they picked me up from school. Walking down the hall with both of my brothers fully dressed in their military uniforms, and me in the center, was one of the happiest and proudest moments of my life.
My sister was seven years older than I, and I have many happy memories of having an older sister. I was the little sister who resembled a fly at a picnic. I could be quite the nuisance and test her patience. Regardless of that, I felt close to her and have always looked up to her. I knew she held no resentment toward me, because no matter how much I got on her nerves, I always managed to make her laugh. I distinctly remember that because it made me happy that I could make her laugh despite myself. When I was fifteen, she left home and married her high school sweetheart. I missed having my big sister home with me, although I was happy that she was beginning a new chapter in her own life.
When either of my brothers would come home on leave and my sister would stop by for a visit, I would eavesdrop on their quiet conversations with Mom concerning Dad. I did not understand why they would label him an alcoholic. In my eyes, if Dad could hold down a job working in a steel mill, then he certainly shouldn’t be placed in the category of an alcoholic. I found their description of my dad’s drinking very offensive, and I never hesitated to tell them so. At the time, I knew very little about the disease of alcoholism. To even suggest that he had a problem with alcohol was unacceptable to me. I realize now that I was in denial. My love for my dad and my pity for him turned me in to his best enabler.
Dad was a tall, outspoken man who never minced his words. For those who remember the comedian Carroll O’Connor, who played the role of Archie Bunker, his personality was very much like Dad’s. He told you exactly what was on his mind, like it or not. Beneath the surface, he was a kind and caring man, and I loved him with every fiber of my being. I was a daddy’s girl for sure.
Mom, on the other hand, was a woman on a mission. She did everything humanly possible to get Dad to stop drinking. This included hiding his shoes and other articles of clothing, to prevent him from leaving the house. He did leave on one occasion wearing his bedroom slippers. Thankfully, he always managed to leave the house fully clothed. I didn’t like Mom very much when I was growing up, though. I perceived her as not only an angry woman but a woman who had very little love in her heart for my dad. It was incomprehensible to me why she couldn’t just leave him alone to sleep off his intoxication. Since I always felt sorry for him, I would quickly come to his defense. When Dad was not drinking, life seemed normal. There was peace on earth—or at least peace at home.
Christmastime was exceptionally difficult for me as a child. When Mom and Dad would do their Christmas shopping, I felt the anticipation and excitement that most children feel during the Christmas season. I knew St. Nick would stop by, and there would be plenty of gifts under the tree. Unfortunately, by Christmas night, Dad would be drunk, and Mom would sit at the kitchen table and cry. I couldn’t understand why Christmas wasn’t more about the Christ child and gift giving like I had been taught both at home and at school. I would find myself focusing more on Dad’s drinking and Mom’s sadness. I struggled with this, and it left me feeling unhappy every year as Christmas evening grew near. It resulted in feelings of not only sadness but confusion.
I remember kneeling by my bed, hands folded in prayer, asking God to please make Dad stop drinking and Mom stop crying and help both of my parents be happy. God never seemed to answer my prayers. I think perhaps it was then I began to question whether God even existed.
Whenever Dad would begin to drink again, I assumed the role of the referee. I would give it my best effort to get between them to try to stop Mom from smacking him when her frustration and anger were out of control. It was always a direct result of his obsession with alcohol. Dad seemed to have no bottom when alcohol was controlling his life.
When he was