It Happened Just This Way

By M. Apodaca

This book was an alternative to suicide. When I thought the only solution was to end my life I decided to write a book outlining my decision. I figured that way everyone I cared about could see that i had no choice but to end it all. The further I got into the book the more I could find reason to live. I actually had to laugh at some of my adventures that I at one time considered sad moments. I began to see how much pleasure I had actually contributed to my friends and family.

Im a 60 year old single mom of one. always trying to find a way or place to fit in with the rest od society. Every new decade brought new hope but no new solution, until age 60.

• Language: English
• Publisher: iUniverse
• Release date: Oct 21, 2011
• ISBN: 9781462060696

M. Apodaca

I’m writing the story of my life to show it is possible to hit rock bottom and emerge as a happy healthy adult. I live in Denver and wouldn’t change a thing about my life, well, not much anyway.

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