Her Heart
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Visions of her Cherokee grandmother, Cordie flashed through Sarah's mind as her abusive husband brutally raped her repeatedly shortly after giving birth. He took what he wanted, leaving her bloody body to be filled with years of
TBD
Patsy Stanley is an artist, illustrator and author and a mother, grandmother and great grandmother. She has authored both nonfiction and fiction books including novels, children's books, energy books, art books, and more. She can reached at:patsystanley123@gmail.com for questions and comments.
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Prologue
Visions of her Cherokee grandmother, Cordie flashed through Sarah’s mind as her abusive husband brutally raped her repeatedly shortly after giving birth. He took what he wanted, leaving her bloody body to be filled with years of physical pain and emotional scars that led her to believe she was worthless, and a happy life was hopeless. Sarah tried many times to leave but that was always futile. She felt useless. Her life was shattered once again when her oldest son, John, died at birth and Simon, her youngest endured a horrific cancer battle. With her only living son, Daniel she felt renewed strength knowing Cordie was watching over them always. She finally had the courage with the help of Cordie’s visions from the spirit world to leave her abusive husband and make a new life for her and her son. Her new oath to her and Daniel was that no one would ever hurt either of them. Romantic love never existed for Sarah, although she had room in her heart for love. Life taught her to be wary, until the day an old friend from her past, Aaron came back into her life. Would she finally find and know true love? Could Aaron break through the walls that surrounded her? Dare she hope for love once?
Chapter One
Sarah
Romantic love never existed for Sarah, although she had room in her heart for love. Life taught her to be wary, until the day an old friend from her past, Aaron came back into her life. Would she finally find and know true love? Could Aaron break through the walls that surrounded her? Dare she hope for love once?
Cocooned in the small two-bedroom apartment I shared with my son, Danny in Lakewood, Colorado, thirty-year-old Sarah Anderson felt unexposed to the risks of everyday life, particularly men. I retreated inside my small shell and allowed a few trusted friends inside with me and Danny. My wavy blond hair cascaded over my shoulders and down my back, showing off a trim, slim figure in denim capri pants, an old T-shirt, and brown leather sandals – all five foot three inches of me. Danny was eight now, with short darker hair and cobalt blue eyes he received from me, and he loved going to school and playing with friends, yet he always spent most of his time at home. After the horrific loss of his baby brother, and my youngest son, Simon, from the effects of treating aggressive cancer, Danny was lonely.
I realized my son needed to be socially connected to others his age and enrolling him in the Boy Scout Program was the perfect way for Danny to reintegrate socially into society. I made sure to be involved in the scouting program as much as possible, so I never worked Monday evenings.
Working as a registered nurse on the trauma unit of a level one hospital, gave me a chance to help others in the milieu of the world of medicine, and I was fulfilling my passion as I cared for my patients. I’d made friends with some of the staff, and adored caring for my patients. Getting back into a working pattern after Simon died was no easy task, as I’d lived day and night at his bedside for eight months. With support from co-workers, particularly my best friend, Suzy Hill, another registered nurse, I was determined to restart my life with Daniel while protecting my heart and soul.
Chin up and have faith, things come in threes… I thought to myself as my Cherokee Indian grandmas’ spirit whispered.
I’d been close with Grandma Cordie. We were thick. Sadly, I lost her right after Danny was born, a heart attack took Cordie into the spiritual realm.
Later, after Danny had his bath and was fast asleep, I fell into a restless sleep, and words viciously yelled at me by my ex slipped into my dreams. You are nothing… you have ‘nubbins’ for breasts…hee hee…you are only a sperm receptacle… no man wants you… as he slammed my body into the kitchen wall knocking my head through the plaster and slats…in front of my son… before leaving to drink beer and have sex with women he picked up in the nearby bar.
No. Please stop kicking me! Don’t hurt me! No! No…!
, spilled from my mouth in my dream state of terror. Danny was yelling and shaking my arm.
Mom! Wake up! You’re okay. He can’t hurt you anymore. Please Mom!
Opening my eyes, I saw Danny looking at me with cobalt eyes of terror filled with tears. I’m sorry. I had a bad dream, I’m sorry that I scared you and woke you up. Come snuggle in bed with me, Danny.
I remember what Dad did to you. I saw you get thrown into the kitchen wall and I won’t forget it, ever!
Danny yelled.
After a deep breath, I gently spoke with soft words. I’m so sorry you saw and remember that incident. I’m so sorry that both you and Simon saw this kind of cruelty your entire lives. The abuse will never happen again, not ever, and I love you and cherish you, Danny,
as he crawled into my bed next to me and we soon fell back to sleep.
As a young child, I watched "Julia on television. That character was played by Diahann Carroll, and she was compassionate with patients. Widowed, Julia raised the young son alone. My role model was always, Julia. She had the ideals I looked for in a mother and a nurse. I even had a
Julia doll when little. No one understood me, it was me in a world of my own, helping kids, just trying to emulate my favorite television nurse, and reading. I would get lost in any type of book and pretend I was
Nancy Drew or
Laura Ingalls Wilder".
My father was in heaven now, my mother an evil bitter woman and lived in a different state from Danny and me. I missed my dad and his wise teachings. My mother had ghosted us, and I was fine with that. It was for the best. I’d never want Danny to be influenced by such an evil and malicious person.
I was an attentive nurse not above shedding a tear with a patient or family… professional, yet consoling, strong yet human with my patients and family. It made no sense to me that I could be positive about my professional skills and downright self-conscious about my looks and body. I was damaged goods
, and no man would see me as anything else. Neither did I want any man thinking of me in that way. From here on out it would be Danny and me.
Dark shadows were evident under my eyes the next morning, but I wanted to be