The Reluctant Caregiver: Making Peace With an Imperfect Parent
By Karen Oke
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Just because a parent needs care does not negate or erase their hurtful actions of the past. It intensifies them and drudges up painful memories.
It is no easy task to deal with the day-to-day demands of taking care of someone else. It is even more challenging serving and sacrificing for a parent whose presence
Karen Oke
Karen Oke is a Psychotherapist and Christian Life Coach. She is passionate about helping people begin their process of change to improve their life's circumstances. Karen lives in Texas with her husband and children.
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The Reluctant Caregiver - Karen Oke
Introduction
An unresolved issue will be like a cancer with the potential to spread into other areas of your relationship, eroding the joy, lightness, love, and beauty.
— Liz Mullinar
Vanessa spent most of her time locked in her room to protect herself from her mother. Her mom had always been a demanding person. She was self-absorbed and depended on her daughter to fill in the gaps for what she lacked in herself and missed in the husband who had left her. Whether out of fear, selfishness, or some other dysfunction, her mother never seemed to care that Vanessa had no life of her own.
Like most young women, Vanessa wanted to find love, get married, and have children of her own, but she couldn’t bring herself to leave her mom. Being an only child, in her mind, she was all her mother had. By the time she eventually started to consider striking out on her own, she was forced to stay.
Vanessa’s mom was diagnosed with early-onset dementia. The thought of committing her mother to a state-run nursing home left Vanessa feeling she had no other choice but to step into the role of primary caregiver. For Vanessa, it was nothing short of a life sentence. As the dementia progressed, it caused her mom to become verbally and physically aggressive to the point where she would do physical harm to her own daughter.
Vanessa found herself trapped in a life she did not want but from which she saw no escape. She thought of herself as a dutiful daughter, but what she interpreted as duty was really taking on her mother’s dysfunction. She had locked herself into a destructive pattern of enablement that left her depressed, bitter, and guilt-ridden.
Feelings of resentment towards her mother caused a series of stress-induced illnesses that proved detrimental to her overall health. Then Vanessa’s mother died, leaving her a house filled with painful memories and a heart full of resentment. A year later, Vanessa met the love of her life and was planning to get married, but she never got to realize her dream. Vanessa, a beautiful, vibrant woman with no known illnesses before becoming a caregiver, died of ovarian cancer at thirty-one.
HOW AND WHY I WROTE THIS BOOK
I’ve been a psychotherapist for nearly two decades. I spend most of my days listening to people facing mental or emotional challenges and helping them cope with difficult situations. When I chose that career path, I had no idea that working through the issues of my own life and experiences with my mother would be what qualified me the most for that position.
My mother never went out of her way to give me the good parts of herself. For most of my life, she was either absent or dependent on me in ways that made me wish she was absent. Everything about the way she treated me shaped the decisions I made in life and carved out my insecurities. It took me years to realize that her deficiencies do not define me, and her issues don’t have to be mine.
For a long time, I felt guilty about not having what I considered to be a normal close bond with my mother. Loving. Considerate. Encouraging. Supportive. Positive. Affirming. Affectionate. Giving. Unselfish. These were not words that I would have used to describe her. That is not a malicious statement. That’s simply the truth, and I know that is not unique to me.
The reality is that there are many mothers for whom such descriptions are just not true. Some people have all-out anxiety attacks every year when Mother’s Day approaches. I have met people whose mothers have died, and tears still come to their eyes when they speak of them. Their tears are not because of any fond remembrances, but because of the hurt, pain, and resentment that they are still dealing with as a result of having the mother they had. Then there are those who spent a good part of their lives neglected, abandoned, unloved, even abused, who find themselves in a position where they have to take care of a parent who did not or could not take care of them.
Caregiving is like a mirror that reflects your past, present, and future. It’s a conversation, sometimes an argument, between the person you are because of your parent’s past and the person you want to be. What makes this dialogue even more difficult is it may involve a parent who, though they created this conflict, may no longer be capable of helping you resolve it.
Whether you became a caregiver out of a sense of duty, obligation, or by default because there was no one else to do it, it is no easy task to deal with the day-to-day demands of taking care of someone else. Add to that the dichotomy of having to serve and sacrifice for a parent whose very presence has been associated with stress, chaos, and everything you’re trying to avoid, and you have a scenario that’s fraught with conflict. Just because a parent needs care, does not negate or erase their hurtful actions of the past. On the contrary, it intensifies them and drudges up painful memories. This book addresses the dilemma that is unique to those who