The Bell Poetry Collection: Beautiful Ugly Words
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This muscular and brutally honest collection of poems appeals to the senses. The poems are dark, some are disturbing, all are vivid.
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The Bell Poetry Collection - Jessica Bell
muted & she
jessica bell
Vine Leaves Press
Melbourne, Vic, Australia
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muted
Concetta depresses
an aluminium slat
of blind
with her forefinger and
gazes into the street,
numb to the snap
of solitude.
Bare feet pass
by her shoebox window
broken, at eye-level,
thriving on nude routine.
She stifles a yawn
and clicks her tongue
in the rear of her cheek
to deactivate
the alarm chip
embedded
into her cochlea,
illegally programmed
with thirty seconds
of her own voice.
The voice she had
before being sentenced
to a life
of silence
for wearing clothes
and singing
a cappella
in an ‘instrumental zone.’
She wasn’t
even busking
that day,
but on route to
an interview
to be the Queen’s
personal music box.
The Queen
is a man
with five fingers and toes.
Newborns only have four.
She swallows
a build-up
of thyme-flavoured saliva
from the tea she drinks
to soothe her throat
and buckles
in pain.
The immune
assistants strapped her to
a chair, forced
her mouth
open
and slashed
her vocal chords.
Surgically
perforated
her eardrums.
The taste of toxic sweat
still lingers on her gums
even more than the memory
of torturers’ penises
rubbing against
her blindfolded face
and ejaculating
into her wounds.
Now
all she hears
is the numb rush
of water in her ears ...
fit to drown
in,
sink
in,
choke
in.
Die in.
Concetta closes the blinds,
trying to remember the sound
of the slats
slapping
shut
like the lens
of a digital camera.
With the artificial sunshine
blocked,
she lies down
and closes her eyes,
immersing herself
in a deeper darkness—a darkness
where the mere thought of song
evolves into a phantom
frequency rich
enough to imagine real.
She
stands
on a podium
in an embroidered silver gown,
her wild black curls
tamed
into a French twist,
face and lips
painted white,
eyebrows shaven
lashes plucked,
her diaphragm swelling
to the gentle vibration
... of peace.
A cappella.
Only the Queen
allows such luxury.
Only He may dress
his staff
in false expression;
allow a society
of assimilated skins
a sense of individualism,
and freedom
to express
emotion
through organic song.
She was headhunted by the assistants.
Concetta flicks
her eyes open
at the sound
of her own falsetto voice
hammering
through
her
head
like
a fire warning—she can
feel her glottis
open—blunt knife slicing
at the bottom of her vocal chords.
She must have only clicked snooze.
She listens
until the note softens
into a vibrato
like the flutter of butterfly wings,
clicking her tongue again
to switch it off.
Just go
to the river.
Concetta stands,
savouring
the sensation
of her silky lingerie
brushing
against her bony
thighs, buttocks
and shoulder blades,
as she slips it off.
She opens her wardrobe.
Beside her three
translucent
temperature-controlled bodysuits,
made from foetus membrane,
her old clothes hang
like limp, dismembered joints.
She pulls out a black lace corset,
with layers
of raw dark grey silk
and tulle
fanning out, into a skirt.
She remembers the day
she performed in it.
The curtain opened.
She tried not to squint
at the glaring white lights
or suck in the hanging silence
from the audience.
She had always feared
it might be contagious.
Someone in the audience gasped.
Another cried,
I love you, Concetta!
All rose, applauded
as if it were their cue;
a storm of flesh against flesh
clapping
the oxygen
from her lungs.
The power of their passion
climbed up her throat.
She wanted to smile.
But she couldn’t.
Not permitted.
Mosè’s orders:
"You’ll never speak or smile.
You’ll just sing.
That is your brand.
Mystery.
People will want to know more.
They will become curious.
You’ll be the world’s most famous opera singer
in no time.
You’ll be an Idol.
Trust me."
She was.
Was.
Concetta closed her eyes.
Paper ruffled—a violinist’s sheet music
perhaps, or Mosè adding up his pay check.
The orchestra waited for her first note.
She could sense their impatience,
Someone coughed, shushed.
She opened her eyes
to the lights turning
a dark red.
The sequins on her gown glowed
as if reflecting the bloodshot eyes
in the drugged crowd.
She took a deep breath;
her first notes hit
the