Flowers for Your Grave
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Flowers for Your Grave is a personal time capsule of mental illness, grief, trauma—and learning how to love and heal alongside it all. A collection written over the course of several years, these poems follow the journey of a young woman growing into adulthood, and what survival costs, takes away, and gives in return.
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Flowers for Your Grave - Angelina Porfilio
Trigger Warning
This work contains serious subject matter concerning mental health such as: depression, disordered eating, and self-harm. This book may not be suitable for all. If you feel triggered in any way resources at the end of the book are available.
Contents
Dedication
Part 1: Growing Pains
Part 2: The Silence
Part 3: Famine
Part 4: Flames
Part 5: What Grows after Death
Resources
Dedication
For Jose,
you either woke me from a deep slumber, or you're my greatest dream.
Part 1:
Growing Pains
Today I feel like giving up...
Today I feel like giving up.
Putting my voice to rest.
Letting all my half finished
and barely started stories
waste away to forgotten dreams—
collecting dust in the attic of my mind.
Bury those dreams in a graveyard
with a tombstone inscribed:
Tired of fighting.
Today I feel like giving up
on anything I ever hoped for.
Late Night Thoughts
I just feel so empty right now.
Let me sleep in the forest
buried amongst the leaves
let the moss grow over me
leave me for a week.
Or two.
I just need some rest.
The emptiness will go away, I’m sure.
You see, I just feel so empty right now.
But I’ll be fine by morning.
It aches...
There’s a thing inside me.
Bursting.
Pounding against my ribcage like war drums
screaming in my head like banshees
boiling my blood and it aches
it aches
it aches.
There’s a thing inside me
smashing my skull with a hammer
tickling my vocal chords with a feather
taunting me
Just scream already.
There’s a thing inside me
crawling around like a creature possessed
and I can’t tell if it wants me dead.
Sleep, eluded
I'm so exhausted.
No need to ask me how I'm doing
because the answer every time is
Tired. So tired.
I feel it echo in my bones,
exhaustion calling me home,
just a few more hours of sleep and I’ll be good to go
a few more hours and I’ll be set to glow–
a few more hours, I promise no one will know
that I can barely keep myself standing.
Destruction/Creation
I want to crack open my ribs and pull out a fistful of
something
to smear on paper until nothing
but beauty comes out of my pain.
I want to lose myself in a world where the hurt isn’t mine
I want to create, create, create...
but I don’t want to turn on the lights.
Liar
You ask me how I'm doing, I say
I’m good, I'm okay, I'm alright
every time. God, grant me the strength that lets me shout
that I'm on a cliff's edge unable to breathe
and I'm teetering with the breeze, my knees are weak.
I can't keep fighting.
It's like I'm stuck in a river's current
and I'm fighting against the water that's trying to pull