God Is Not Just A Handful Of Raisins: Series 1, #3

By ALICE LOGAN

In a battle against anorexia nervosa, I finally let out a cry. I finally asked for help. I found myself in a store cupboard with a sack full of raisins, but even greater, I found myself in a store cupboard with Almighty God, the creator of the universe, my Father, my friend. I needed help. I needed rescue, and I needed saving; but really, I needed Him. He was the answer I was looking for as He changed my life forever.

 

DISCOVERING GOD IN THE MIDST OF YOUR MESS

LEARNING TO RUN TO THE ONE WHO CAN HELP

WINNING THE FIGHT AGAINST EATING DISORDERS

CARRYING HIS PRESENCE WHEREVER YOU GO

REMEMBERING HIS FAITHFULNESS…AND SO MUCH MORE!

 

Every morning, God would greet me with the same words on repeat: 'Take a handful of raisins, put them in your pocket, and snack on them throughout the day.' Breakfast, lunch and evening meal; there He was speaking to me, feeding me and rescuing me. My control had gone, my surrender had begun, and I was being saved and set free by the Father of lights, one raisin at a time.

 

I had come to the end of my rope. I had no other option. All I could do was cry out to God. He was all I had left, but it didn't have to be this way. I had the option to call on Him from day one of my struggles, but independence, pride, and shame kept me silent. When I finally asked for help, it came, and came in a way I wasn't expecting. It came in companionship, love, forgiveness, grace, and mercy. I gained a best friend, a Saviour and a brand-new life as I laid down an eating disorder and took hold of the freedom God had granted me as His daughter. He rescued me with raisins, built me with His Word and repaired my heart through His resurrection. He can help you too! All He needs is your surrender and to hear your cry to Him today. God Is Not Just A Handful of Raisins. He is not your last hope. He is your first hope. Come on this journey to discover His goodness, His rescue, and His faithfulness. He will meet you exactly where you're at; all He needs is your cry.

• Language: English
• Publisher: THE LOGAN SERIES
• Release date: Dec 4, 2020
• ISBN: 9781913367190

ALICE LOGAN

ALICE LOGAN is an English writer, servant, and prisoner of the Lord. Her desire is to seek Him first, delight in Him, and share His good news with all His sons and daughters. She has worked alongside churches, charities, and jails, partaking in women’s ministry, jail ministry, student ministry, missionary work, and evangelism. Her heart is to reveal His and to encourage others into second place as He becomes first.

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ISBN: 9781913367190

DEDICATION

This book is dedicated to

The Clarke family

After hearing my story, their eldest daughter, Chi, took every word, every scripture and every action to help her sister

Rosanna, who was desperately struggling with an eating

disorder that nearly cost Rosanna her life.

As Rosanna took hold of HOPE and Chi took hold of God’s promises, the family battled together as one with The Lord, standing strong on God’s word, and through the power of Christ, brought beautiful Rosanna back to health.

Today, Rosanna is full of life and constantly learning more about God and the plans, future and unconditional love that He continues to show her. She is an example to many.

I celebrate the Clarke family and their persistence, and I encourage every family to look to God’s truth, to stand in faith together and to know that through Him,

‘It is finished’.

I will sing of the steadfast love of the LORD, forever;

with my mouth I will make known

your faithfulness to all generations.

Psalm 89:1 (ESV)

INTRODUCTION

On 31st October 2013 I found myself in America pursuing the dream to work in women’s ministry, but on that day, God was saying something completely different.

He said, ‘I want you to start writing books.’

I had never written a book in my life or even saw myself as a writer, but in my heart, I already had 19 outlines and titles for books that the Holy Spirit had been talking to me about.

I asked God, ‘How do I write 19 books?’

And His answer was, ‘Just start!’

So, I went to my local coffee shop and put pen to paper. The books seemed to come together really quickly and soon I had completed one, then two, then three, and I got to be the first recipient of a book that I didn’t even remember writing. Upon reading it, it seemed as if I was reading it for the very first time, and every book has been like that since.

So, be on the lookout for more books to come from

The Logan Series as He continues to ask me to write.

What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight;

what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs.

Matthew 10:27 (NIV)

God Is Not Just A Handful of Raisins is a book for anyone seeking freedom in any situation. It is the story of a girl who needed to ask for help, and when she did, God changed her life forever. Throughout this book, allow Him to show you His faithfulness to answer and heal as you cry out to the one

who is waiting for your cry.

I hope you feel encouraged and inspired by this book and that it points you only to Him, the one who loves you enough to ask me to write it. Let it do the work in you that He wants it to do, and please reach out and let us know what God has done throughout this book.

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Let us build a strong community of truth, justice,

and freedom, all united as one.

All the believers were in fellowship as one body,

and they shared with one another whatever they had.

Acts 2:44 (TPT)

Chapter 1

PERFECT GIRL

Inever understood why I wasn’t enough, why I didn’t make the grade. Not smart enough, not pretty enough and not thin enough. When I failed to meet other people’s expectations I believed that the problem was me. I wish I could have seen how wrong I was. I wish I could have known the truth. I never needed to meet anyone’s expectations; I didn’t need to change or to mould myself into a shape to fit their mould. I didn’t understand that when I didn’t fit people’s ideals, it was OK, I already fit the ideal of my God, He had made me exactly as He wanted to, fearfully and wonderfully made. However, I believed that I had to please everyone, which meant constantly chipping away at myself until I was perfect. But perfect in whose eyes?

You seem to always be looking at people by their outward appearances. 2 Corinthians 10:7 (TPT)

Each man I dated had a different size in mind, a different shape and a different body. How could I ever meet all their expectations? I was constantly trying to craft my body to meet the blueprints that men were creating. But then my friends had a different blueprint, and the media, and my peer group, and my family. How could I ever please everyone? How could I ever be perfect? I thought I had to achieve a certain grade, weigh a specific number and be a person that they all desired me to be. Everything was performance, and nothing was the real me, it was exhausting.

Pull me out of this mess! Don’t let me sink! Psalm 69:14 (TPT)

I was completely buried; buried in trying to please everyone else first and fit the boxes that they had laid out in front of me. I was trying to be