The Cracks In My Soul

By Shannon McEwen

Open this book and read between the lines. Slip between the pages and enter my mind. Even I'm not sure what you'll find. In every poem I have place an infinitesimal piece of my soul. I see everything in words. From every sight, every emotion, every experience. Words fill me, sing to me, console me and move me forward. My words may take you into the darkness where ominous thing await, but before long they will sweep you in the shadows, to contemplate the meaning of it all. then when you are at a crossroads, soft light may break through to embrace you. The journey is up to you. After you've read, you'll breathe just a little sigh that you're at the end. but beware my friend, words have a way of soaking in and hanging on. So enter if you dare...

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: May 19, 2016
• ISBN: 9781365124440

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The Cracks In My Soul

The cracks in my soul

The Journey between darkness and light

By Shannon McEwen

Copyright

Copyright  © 2016  Shannon McEwen

First Edition, Ebook

ISBN: 978-1-365-12444-0

Cover art by Silvina Lanusse. Cover design by Tal Ball, Dan Brody and Danny Weeds

All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the express written permission of the publisher.

Filidh Publishing, Victoria, BC

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Forward

I see everything in words. From every sight I see, every emotion I feel, every experience I have, words come to mind to express the output of all of these.  Words fill me, sing to me, console me and move me forward.

Every poem has meaning to me, where I have placed an infinitesimal piece of my soul to live on the page, between the lines and within the meanings.

Words are sometimes dark, sometimes ponder, and sometimes express the emotions I feel, be it love, anger, hurt or hate. Words are the means in which I express everything, where I release fear and embrace life.

Simply put, words are my vessels:

Words are the vessels

in which we express

Our souls

Revealing inner most

thoughts and selves

Thoughts are the foundation

To what we base our judgment

Utilizing our hopes, fear

Dreams and wisdom

To expose strengths

Knowledge is the key

To finding our place

Helping us to know

Limitations, realize weakness

And overcome our demons

Dedication

I dedicate this book to Meghan.  You changed me more than even words could explain.  I love you, my oldest child.  Thank you for showing me what greatness looks like.

Acknowledgements

There are so many people that I could acknowledge for the creation of this book.

Tracey Carlson for your kick butt editing and selection skills, your marketing skills and your friendship and complete faith in me.  As in everything I couldn’t have managed this without you.

Stephen Anstay, my poetry guru who over the years helped me tighten up my style and skills.

Silvina Lanusse, who created the incredibly beautiful cover art, as always exceeded my expectations.

Zoe Duff, for your hard work to Canadian writers, you inspire me to want more.

Lastly, I want to acknowledge all of the people I love.  Whether I gave you life, you gave me life or we brighten each others lives. You inspire me everyday.  You know who you all are.

Part I: Hell

Black hole

She digs and digs and digs

The dirt flies in every direction

In the desperate rush to finish

Rational thought has ebbed away

Flown with every particle of dirt

Atom by atom disintegrated

Filth covers a once pristine white tee shirt

Blood trickles from her hands

The grip on the shovel tears tender flesh

Concerned a friend approaches tentative

What are you doing?

Tears well in bloodshot eyes

Startled she looks up

Considers, pauses, closes green eyes

Whispers in ragged tones

I am looking for the light

Kill her with Kindness

Her heart once so alive

Now in a weeping chest

He promised everlasting love

But again

And again

And again

Put it to the test

He lied

And lied

And lied

His smile shone bright

She