The Gift of Loss: A Journey from Grief to Gratitude
By Paula Simon
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“The death of a child at 8 months is a tragedy beyond comprehension. The grief threatens to destroy one’s very Soul….and yet….and yet…we can travel to this very dark place, stay there, and eventually come out of it with a renewed depth of the gift that is Life. I read The Gift of Loss in several hours. It’s full of raw emotion, authentic pain, looking death in the face, and looking grief in the face. Why would you want to read it then? Because it engages you in life, it engages you in the hells that life can present and after that, it offers the heaven that life can also present. It overflows with humanity and the wisdom of experience. I highly recommend this book. It will nourish your Soul, it will give you the gift of humble, quiet, gratitude.”
- Martin Rutte Co-Author, Chicken Soup for the Soul at Work Founder, ProjectHeavenOnEarth.com
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The Gift of Loss - Paula Simon
The Gift of Loss
A journey from grief to gratitude
Paula Simon
Copyright
© 2010 Paula Simon
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system without written permission from the author.
ISBN 978-0-359-21411-2
I dedicate this book with love to Robert and Jessie
Acknowledgements
With Gratitude To:
Robert, my husband, who walked this path with and beside me as he worked through his own pain. Without his love and support, I could not have written this book.
Jessie, our beautiful daughter, for sharing her love and life with me. She is a shining star in my life, and it has been a joy to watch her become the amazing woman she is today.
Amy Spurway, for her editorial skills, encouragement and belief in this project. I never would have finished the book without her unwavering support;
Dr. Morry Appelle, for his guidance, insight and wisdom, which created the healing path for us to walk;
Father Denis Costello, who was there to catch us in the hospital as we crashed into the darkness;
Dr. Michael Richler for the kind and gentle care he gave Simon;
Cynthia, Jim, Penny and Michael, our dear friends who gave us unlimited time from their busy lives when we really needed it.
Foreword
With The Gift of Loss: A journey from grief to gratitude, Paula Simon has written a gem of a book. At turns raw and vulnerable, The Gift of Loss never veers too far from the hopeful path. Paula offers readers a window into the depths of her loss, but doesn’t ask them to dwell in her grief.
As a good friend of Paula’s, I can hear her voice when reading this book. It’s as though we are sitting down for a cup of tea, reminiscing about the most challenging time in her life. Drawing on her inner resources, availing herself of intense therapy, and bringing to bear all the supports in her network, Paula emerged from her darkest times with a renewed sense that life’s meaning can be enriched by the hard work of overcoming tragedy.
Always unflinchingly honest, and at times unexpectedly humorous, The Gift of Loss reminds us to cherish our loved ones, live in the present, and invest in ourselves. Paula has indeed offered a gift with the writing of this book. It is a testament to the power of the human spirit and a love letter to her son.
She is brave and wise to share it.
Louise Bradley
President and Chief Executive Officer
Mental Health Commission of Canada
Introduction
Simon was born on June 6th, 1986. Although he was only five pounds at birth, it didn’t take long for that determined little boy of mine to climb to the top of the growth chart. With his olive skin - the kind that would bronze so easily in the summer sun – dark hair, and even deeper, darker eyes that seemed to look knowingly into people’s hearts, he had all the makings of a very handsome young man. He might well have hidden his gentle nature in a strong, athletic body, a towering physical presence built to play forward on a hockey team or pitch in the major leagues. His brave heart and sensitive soul might have made him a beloved leader among his peers, especially if he’d inherited his father’s knack for putting other people’s feelings before his own. When I let my imagination run free, that is the Simon I envision. But that is not what the universe had in store for us. Instead, on February 20th, 1987, he died.
So, I sat in front of my computer, as this book was forced out of me. I say forced, not meaning it to be negative. Rather, in an attempt to describe the feeling of being compelled by something beyond my own control to write this book. The feeling is much like what I felt during the years I spent contemplating whether or not to take on a very high-risk pregnancy. Then, there was a relentless need deep inside me that I could not rationalize away. I eventually concluded that I could not grow old without having tried to have a baby, no matter what the consequences. And now, in the face of similar feelings of fear, risk, and uncertainty, I have concluded that I must try to give this book life as well. Another relentless need deep inside that I cannot ignore. I understand all too well that sometimes, you must endure incredible pain in order for something beautiful to be born.
My husband and I are not exceptional people with an extraordinary experience. It is quite the opposite. People suffer unbearable losses every day, and it is that sameness, that essence of the human experience, that compels me to tell our story. I want others who are struggling to cope with a painful loss to know that there are people who understand. And that it is possible to have an even more fulfilling life despite – or even because of – what you’ve experienced.
This is a simple book. It is the story of our lives before and after the death of our son. Its sole purpose is to reach out and share our story, in the hopes that it might help someone else. Our journey took us from profound joy, to the darkest despair, and into a new way of living in the world. When we were living through our time of overwhelming grief, we searched for inspiration, some sign of hope. It was hard to find. When we were trying to get through the days, weeks, and months after Simon’s death, I could not see a future worth living. It seemed impossible that life could ever be filled with real joy again. At the same time, I was desperate to find a thread to hold on to. Something to reassure me. Something that would help me make sense of all this pain. I could not fathom that my life could become richer, or that my capacity to feel joy could be restored, let alone be greater than before. But it is.
Loss - and each person’s response to it - is a very personal thing. No one can really tell you how you should or should not experience it. It is also not something you ever just ‘get over.’ Healing does not happen overnight, or without a lot of real work on yourself. But you do have one critical choice to make in the face of loss: you can let grief over the loss of someone precious to you destroy you, or you can honour your loved one’s legacy, celebrate their existence, and do the work that needs to be done on your own life.