28 Years: A Collection of Poetry for Seeking Yourself, Love, Purpose of Life, and everything in between

By Mhillie Delos Santos

"28 Years" is a collection of poems about a journey of being lost, discovering yourself, finding healing, and growing through the process.

Have you ever think about your purpose in life? Why are you existing? Sometimes, there's a point in your life that you will ask and search. Most of the time, you don't know what it is. But still, you continue to seek until you find the answers to your questions. There may be a season in your life now that you are depressed or suicidal, feeling lost, sad or angry. In every season of your life, there is a lesson – a time to heal and a time to grow. Do not give up! There is a God who can hear when you call His name.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Mhillie Delos Santos
• Release date: Apr 4, 2020
• ISBN: 9789948340607

Mhillie Delos Santos

Mhillie is a full-time Digital Marketing Specialist. She is also a self-taught painter and a lyricist.She likes indie, soul, classic, folk songs, and especially worship songs.She enjoys “me time” and taking scenery pictures. And she writes by evening and paint on weekends.She is currently working and living in Dubai, UAE.To check out her works, follow her on Instagram: @mhilliedelossantos

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INTRODUCTION

Dear Friend,

28 years is a collection of poems I've done in some years. These poems are done in fear, sadness, joy, hope, faith and in a search of a dream or purpose or something in between.

I hope you will find a piece of you in some poems. I hope we will meet each other in between.

Before you start I want you to remember these five things:

To love and give without receiving anything in return.Because He first loved us and you are loved.

To smile everyday.

To take care of yourself (eat healthy foods and do not worry).

To seek the Lord with all your heart and to pray without ceasing.

To let go and let God direct you to the right path.

4,383 MILES

AWAY FROM HOME

I. 4,383 MILES AWAY FROM HOME

It is not easy to be far away from the place you were used to be comfortable with and with the people that you had for many years. However, there is a moment that we needed to grow as a person and be the person that God created us to be. We can never grow if we stay in our comfort zone.

In this moment of my life, I’ve never been so far away from family, friends, and loved ones. Philippines is my country. And in that 4,383 miles away from home, I felt at first a sense of fear because I was not used to be in this kind of environment. I wasn’t ready for a lot of things when I came to Dubai. My patience was put to test and I was in a series of depression and suicidal thoughts. In this journey of waiting and striving, I’ve learned two things: to have unwavering faith in God and never lose faith in myself. These poems are like the foundation and the start of something new.

DYING OF THE EGO

You crumpled my soul and throw into the ocean.

You left me with this confused mind

and this broken heart,

unsure where this will go.

I walk in the desert land

to seek and find the lost soul

of this body and mind of where the ego reign.

When I found my missing soul,

It longs for my sweet hello.

Welcome back to my birthing place.

All the lies,

All the brokenness I felt from the past;

Doesn’t hurt me no more.

I am peace and one with myself

My true self.

LET’S JUST MEET IN BETWEEN

You might think I’m immature.

You always say I need to grow.

Neither you and I

need time and space to grow.

How many times this conversation go?

Where we don’t understand where we’re coming from.

Don’t you see you shed a tear

for someone that doesn’t love you back.

It’s sad to know

to hear those words from you,

So I’m keeping a line between me and you

in case you leave me hanging again.

I am not the way you think I am

I just love myself so I

Build a guard to my heart.

You can hear my soul

Saying, It’s enough.

WILD

I went to the forest to find a home

until I found a family.

Into the wild;

there is a mystery,

An answer—

You’ve been longing for.

DRIFTED

Carry me by the current of Your love

to a place where I do belong.

I feel like a stranger,

lying to myself

Doing what I am not.

When I arrive where I belong

I will rejoice

because I only have a limited life on this earth.

I use it for the glory

of the goodness of Your Grace.

CANVAS

My life was blunt

till I choose the color

to paint this blank canvas.

To start is to see—

The beauty you had made.

SUN

I can be your sun

that shines so bright;

To take those lonely days;

To wipe those tears at night.

You know I’m just there

when the moon collides.

You know my solar flare

is brighter than your fears.

So, the next time you’re scared

just take a look at my photosphere.

TIME TUNNEL

I wonder how our old friends then

How do they live?

What do they do?

During World War 1 & 2

what life felt like?

I always felt like an old soul.

Been dreaming of