Our Beautiful Babies Dear: Enduring the Loss of Miscarriage
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Lindsey Salloway presented her husband, Tosh, with a wonderful gift for their fifth anniversary: two pink lines.. Finally pregnant after months of trying, Lindsey and Tosh were thrilled. The planning started that nightwhat they would name the baby, how they would decorate the nursery, and when the babys due date would be. Lindsey and Tosh, like every other pregnant couple, look forward to kissing their tiny babys face and counting fingers and toes. For Lindsey and Tosh, however, that dream would not come true.
In her poignant memoir, Lindsey shares the story of her journey through three miscarriages in a span of ten months from the ecstatic moments after she learned she was first pregnant to the heartbreaking instant when she realized she had lost each baby. As she recalls each experience, Lindsey provides a realistic look into the darkness of the pain and suffering as well as the light of hope and healing as she faced the complicated emotions that accompany miscarriage.
Our Beautiful Babies Dear shares one womans story of loss, endurance, and hope as she endures the pain of miscarriage and finds strength in survival.
Lindsey Salloway
Lindsey Salloway earned a bachelor’s degree in journalism from Mount Royal University in Calgary, Alberta, and currently works in the home-building industry. She and her husband, Tosh, live in Calgary, Alberta, Canada, with their three rescue dogs. Th is is her first book.
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Our Beautiful Babies Dear - Lindsey Salloway
Copyright © 2013 by Lindsey Salloway.
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ISBN: 978-1-4759-9380-6 (sc)
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iUniverse rev. date: 06/10/2013
Contents
Preface
Introduction
Let’s Have a Baby
Joy for Another
Heartache
Everybody But Me
A Second Chance
Lessons Learned
Answers
Mixed Emotions
Low Point
A Visitor
A Loss of a Different Kind
An Open Letter
Healing
To our three children and our nephew,
who are playing together forever.
We had you for a short time
But not for very long,
And every single day since,
In my heart you are a song—
A song of what I miss most,
And what I wish I’d known,
Your hands, your feet, your little face
And how you would have grown;
A song of what we could have had,
The family we should have been,
Something I will always want,
but will always be a dream.
A song that says you love us,
And know that we love you;
It says that this will never change,
It will always be real and true.
But now you are in heaven,
And your song is heard loud and clear;
We’ll treasure that song forever more,
Our beautiful babies dear.
Preface
If you’ve picked this up and have turned to this page, chances are you have recently suffered a miscarriage. It may be your second, your third, or your tenth. Maybe you know someone who has had one, and you are hoping to find that perfect book that will help to pull her out of her misery through tales of other women who have suffered but have maintained hope because of their positive beliefs and attitudes. This is not that book. It is a bit bitter, slightly cynical, and entirely selfish on my part. It is a simple attempt by a woman who has just suffered her third miscarriage in ten months to distract herself and, maybe, feel a little bit better.
It started out as a sort of diary, because I wanted to make sure that when I came out of my fog, I had something to turn to, to help me remember this time in my life. Then it started to transform into a hate letter toward people who didn’t offer me the support I needed. And it became a love letter to those who did. Eventually, the hateful thoughts made their way out of it altogether. I realized that by offering those people my attention I was still giving them as much of me as the supportive bunch were getting, and that didn’t seem fair.
I wrote this over the course of about two years, and you’ll notice that some of it is written in the present tense, when I am actually going through certain things. At other times, it is written long after that particular phase or happening occurred. I didn’t set out to write a book, and I didn’t give myself a certain time frame. I wrote when I felt I needed to write.
I can’t promise a happy ending to your story. I can’t guarantee that you will end up carrying a child to full term. I’m not sure what your personal trip will be or whether it will be the same as mine. Maybe you will be like the majority of women who suffer a miscarriage and, after the one, go on to have a perfectly healthy child. This is not the case for all women, though. It wasn’t the case for me, which is partly what led me to write this book. After looking for books myself that wouldn’t fill me with false hope and leave me feeling bitter toward the writer, I decided to write the story on my own.