Beyond Infinity and Back

By Chris C Bresler

It is about the devastation the loss of love and divorce can effect, and then the miracle of finding ones true love afterwards.
It is an unfolding of the quest to spiritually force the universe to deliver that love as with magic.
It is a reflection in song of the wonder of loving and being loved in return.
And finally it is about lessons learned and things discovered during the journey of life and love.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse UK
• Release date: Nov 28, 2014
• ISBN: 9781496993793

Chris C Bresler

As long as forever, Chris Bresler had a yearning for his Twin Flame. It might be from the loss of his father at two, his only brother, still unborn… or, as he believes, his spiritual lover lost in another life. At school, he wrote essays. At university, his quest brought him to the magic of poetry. He studied literature for three years under Professor T.T. Cloete, prominent critique and South Africa’s most renowned, living, Afrikaans poet. It took him through relationships and heartbreak disappointments, and a marriage of 25 years. The divorce left him emotionally ravaged, but with four magnificent sons. His discontent showed in endeavours from assurance sales man, journalist, lecturer and businessperson, to private inventor, artist and writer. Through the marvel The Internet, he ultimately found his Alice. They now live happily in their wonderland in Bloemfontein, on their idyllic smallholding built up over 25 years, called Alicestate.

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Published by AuthorHouse 11/03/2014

ISBN: 978-1-4969-9378-6 (sc)

      978-1-4969-9379-3 (e)

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Contents

1.   Worse than Waste

Disconnected Romance

Outset

Bindings

Conquered Care

The Beating

Passage

Balancing Act

Flood

Call Sign

Departures

2.   Mystic Magnetism

Go-Around

Guarded

Heart to Heart

Love Life

Confession

Love I Live

Lucid Dreaming

Dream Alliance

Love Encounter

Fluid Feelings

Morning Shift

Internal Finding

Sound Foundation

Internal Quest

Rainbow’s Riches

Thoroughbred Heart

Examination

Even Steps

A Life-Moment

Sail with Me

Arrival

Merry-Go-Love

Sunrises

Ambivalent Heart

Heated Heart

Darling Derby

3.   Together and Apart

To Love You

Summer and You

Implicit Armour

Mystic Lady Love

Monotone

Love To Be

Love About

Stronghold

Dislocation

Cold Fact

Together and Apart

4.   Twin Flames and Counterparts

Shining Through

Reflections

Twin Flames

Love’s Song

Love-Sentence

Penetrating Poetry

Lodestar

Keeping in Touch

Jewels from the Deep

Inspired Hearts

Conclusive Frontier

Apposite Ardour

Life Song

Loaded Heart

Love-Essence

A Love Paradigm

Bleeding River

Focal Point

Forever Sacredly You I Love

Fulfillment

Illumination

Infinite Hearts

Internal Flame

Mirror

Beyond Infinity

5.   Time and Time Again

Origin

Word-flow

Time and the Night

Rip Currents

Time and Time Again

Grand Clock

Always Now

Crystal Ball

Undying Romance

6.   Yield

Yield

Natural Wealth

Dreamscape

Free-Scaling

A Sense of Balance

Alzheimer’s

Proportionate Growth

Natural History

True South

Misplaces

Animation

Burning Point

Deliverance

Circles

Ethereal Moments

Play of Life

Afterglow

7.   Dynamic Equilibrium

A Proven Reality

Revision

Sacred Journeys

A Time to Know

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Dedicated to my most lovely

and dedicated wife

Debbie,

the love of my life.

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I was always yearning after my true love,

no matter with whom I was,

searching, feeling unfulfilled in every way . . .

My love

it all changed when I met you.

The yearning is gone

and for the first time in my life

I was where I wanted to be . . .

I was home.

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Life

is all its measures of strife

and strive!

Life without love,

is but an archive

of reminders of the above . . .

But even if now an impossibility,

all that is sure of love

is its unreliability

and fall;

and of life

its unpredictability

and end.

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Disconnected Romance

Within me today

my spirit enthused,

by disarray

infused . . .

we

stood there immobile,

separated

but by the distance of a distinctive smile;

held back in trance

only by our insulated glance;

only kept apart

by the way my bouncing heart

considered you,

and in response you

contemplated me

and the surrealism of this actuality:

another wife’s man,

another man’s wife.

Outset

After the seasons and forever

of the foregoing year,

and the outburst

of my universe and worst,

I am now

where jealousy and dread can bow . . .

not in spite of devotion,

but into acceptance

of the meaning of affection

and release

-those specters of deception

and misperception!

I wisely unwind

into composed and calculated accord

mind and mettle . . . and find

divorce like death a sword,

distrust like dearth a desert,

where all are ravenous, everything inert,

where spirits suffer and pervert!

Bindings

Close your eyes and join me

instead of leaving,

even if just your lust you give me,

your conceded carnal heaving.

Let us, for a while,

exchange identities, since it is our style

to live in dream-exile

and imagine nothing has changed

in our reality.

I almost believed you could again . . .

except you were just imitating

someone else, no binding

of the mind occurred.

But, whenever it is I, my heart,

who think of leaving

or staying

longer with this smart,

hold my hand for just a moment,

hold my heart a moment more,

even if it is just a fragment . . .

and then release me,

even if as before,

against my tormented core.

Conquered Care

Days of dejection

at my feet

lay waste

by displaced

care and heart-rejection–

lost regard is like defeat.

A heart alone

is like a structure without capstone,

rule overthrown!

A heart alone

is a grave without headstone . . .

Decades of discontent and ill intent

stay around one’s waist,

displaced by affection misspent

and a heart erased–

rejected love is worse than waste.

The Beating

The beating of the heart,

severe

punishment for love

sincere

Passage

Winter . . . winter

turn and toss,

my heart is mounted on a midnight-cross.

In this winter sadness

nothing is true,

everything is madness,

everything is you.

Winter . . . midwinter

this blizzard wave,

my mind is buried in a memory grave.

In this winter morbidity

everything is blue,

an angry serendipity

with everything due.

To my innermost disgrace

like an abysmal scream,

an exposing beam

lays across my face.

In this midnight-winter,

this winter-white,

suddenly a splinter

tears off and splits my sight.

This memory-tired pair,

my dread, my care . . .

has nothing there buried,

has her everything there.

Winter . . . winter this woeful loss,

my spirit is ferried

from nowhere

to across . . .

Balancing Act

I dwell in the melody and method of my poetry, defined

for her, yet afterward find myself confined

in her luring metre and style, styled in the meaning

that she begot– then always afterward, I am screening

her in arrangements of telltale

prose and fairytales, which then compose my scale . . .

They are now burning poems and imprison writers,

and as they falter before the persecution

of some manmade inquisition,

I fall before the religion of her alibi:

her love and loveliness– the mute fighters