Journey to a Healed Heart

By Mary Debnam

Not all About Me?
August 1st, 2011

Move into position
The words that are calling on me
Asking for permission
To assembly
To teach the heart
What needs to be learned
Instruct the mind
What needs to be discerned
Guide souls
Gods eternal kingdom to be earned
What.?
You mean this is not all about me?
God says:
Aaah yes, my child
The right question has finally been asked
You are a vessel
Used for this task
To help others see
The beauty within
That originated with Me
Look past their immediate
Like I ask of you
See the richness inside
Blessings to inherit if they choose
Give up
What they are trying to hold on too
Their way
Dont look at it
As something they have to loose
My Way
Direction they can not refuse
The hearts of men
Turn back to Me
Discover your true worth
Discover true beauty
Discover the reason you were created to be
No
Its not about you
Its for My Glory
Put your heart on display
Many
Are not willing to do
Pour out till you are empty
Allow Me to finish filling you
With the five steps to faith
You have the information
I have instilled in you
Read My Word
Comprehend what I require you to do
Study My Word
My Way will be revealed to you
Put into action
The goodness of God you have learned
Do all these things
Manifestation
Yours to earn
True faith
You ask
I say
Trust and believe
Stay focused and obedient
You shall receive
Count your past
And your present
As blessing to touch many
You are right, my child
Its not about you
Its all for My Glory
For it gives Me great pleasure to bless
Those who know
They belong to Me

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Mar 26, 2012
• ISBN: 9781467036894

Mary Debnam

Ms. Mary Marie Debnam was born August 13th, 1969 in Portland, OR. Her greatest accomplishment was bringing her son Xavier into this world and raising him to be a loving and responsible young man. Even though he does not know this, Mary often thinks of her son as her “Sunshine”, because he brings light and balance into her life. For the last fourteen years, Mary has been employed with the United States Postal Service, and in the last five years, in Vancouver, WA as a window clerk. Though sometimes a challenge, Mary is faithful to her post everyday, greeting each customer with a smile and attitude of gratitude. Along with serving the public, Mary also serves in hospitality and on the finance committee of her church, Rehoboth World Healing Center, Portland, OR. Although serving brings her great satisfaction, Mary has found her passion in writing. She credits only God for giving her this awesome gift to express creativity with words. Mary’s prayer is that someone’s life will be changed because they saw themselves in her poetry. Strengthening them, to be able to let go and allow God to have total control. If God can do it for her, He can definitely do it for others. Fasten your seatbelts; you are in for a rollercoaster ride…..Enjoy! “I’m taking you from shame to fame So many in this world just like you I need to show them, they can make it if they allow me to Guide them through Speak the language they have been speaking Expose the wrong they have been wreaking Give the answers they have been seeking Present the life they have been peeking Into Lead them directly to Me Your mission to pursue”

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Contents

Dedication Page

About the Author

One She Loves

All i really need

Almost Don’t count

Alone

Another reason

Apple of His eye

Be silent

Brand Name

Cocoon

Commit to trusting

CPR

Creative Writing

Damascus

Dancing

Dawn

Diamond Jewel

Difficult Task

Dismember Your Emotions

Doubt-Prone

Dream Big

Enough

Evangelist

Even You

Everything

Fill your cup

Fire

Flesh or Spirit Led

Flow

Flowers

Follow the Guidelines

Gentle lover

Get the Concept

Get Your Love from Me

Give You Me

God’s Unfailing Love

Gutted Trout

Hearing My Prayer

I See You

In Spirit and in Truth

Inside Out

Invaluable Worth

Isaiah 54

Kiss and Kill

Lady Prayer Warrior

Lame on Your Feet

Lazarus

Leaven

Limitations

Love be Proved

Lover Knows Best

Madness

Married to the Backslider

Matters

Missing Rib

More

My Mansion Is Finished

New Beginning

Not all About Me?

Orange Sunset Trues

Packed Small Sack

Peace

Priceless

Prizes Worth Winning

Prophetess’ Chair

Queen Meek

Rare Diamond

Rays of Southern Best

Refresh My Mind

Rejection

Released

Rest

Right Now

Room for Us

Secret Place

Sisterhood Sister

Slacking

Small Victories

Soul Ties

Steady Leak

Strings of My Heart

Take Me Back

Temporary Distraction

Thankful

The Glory

The Promise

Things of You

To Much Space

Transformed

Triple Threat

True Beauty

Unconditional Love

Wanted

Weight

What Makes Me So Beautiful

Wordsmith Artist

You are Everything

You Got Next

Mesmerized

Dedication Page

I dedicate this book to my baby bird, Xavier . . . . mama loves you so much! You are an awesome son, and I thank you for riding the waves with me. To my mom, Ruth Carter, and dads, Michael Debnam and Fred Carter, family and friends: thank you for being the ears and eyes that saw more in me than I did in myself.

I love you all! Most importantly: thank you God for choosing me to give this awesome gift too; it’s all for Your Glory!

About the Author

Ms. Mary Marie Debnam was born August 13th, 1969 in Portland, OR. Her greatest accomplishment was bringing her son Xavier into this world and raising him to be a loving and responsible young man. Even though he does not know this, Mary often thinks of her son as her Sunshine, because he brings light and balance into her life. For the last fourteen years, Mary has been employed with the United States Postal Service, and in the last five years, in Vancouver, WA as a window clerk. Though sometimes a challenge, Mary is faithful to her post everyday, greeting each customer with a smile and attitude of gratitude. Along with serving the public, Mary also serves in hospitality and on the finance committee of her church, Rehoboth World Healing Center, Portland, OR. Although serving brings her great satisfaction, Mary has found her passion in writing. She credits only God for giving her this awesome gift to express creativity with words. Mary’s prayer is that someone’s life will be changed because they saw themselves in her poetry. Strengthening them, to be able to let go and allow God to have total control. If God can do it for her, He can definitely do it for others. Fasten your seatbelts; you are in for a rollercoaster ride . . . Enjoy!

One She Loves

MARCH 3RD, 2011

FROM A WOMAN THAT NEEDS NO INTRODUCTION

SPOT LIGHT COMES ON

TO FIND HER CRADLING THE MICROPHONE WITH TWO HANDS

HER EYES ARE CLOSED

PICTURING THE WORDS THAT ARE IN HER MIND

MELLOW SOUNDS OF HEAVY BASS JAZZ

FILL THE PLACE

SHE PARTS HER LIPS

CALM

SILKY RIBBON VOICE

IN THIS ROOM DOES SHE GRACE

SHARING WITH THE ONES SHE LOVE

A STORY ABOUT THE MAN

THAT LOVES HER

THROUGH ALL HER MESS

ALL HER TESTS

TRIALS

HEADING IN THE WRONG DIRECTION FOR MILES

BROKENESS

BITTERNESS

UNFORGIVENESS ON FILE

YET

THROUGH IT ALL

HE SEES . . . HER

LOVES HER

UNCONDITIONALLY

LIKE NO OTHER LOVE COULD EVER

NO OTHER LOVE HAS NEVER

DISCOVERED

THIS BEAUTY

THAT’S INSIDE

A BEAUTY

THAT CAN’T BE DENIED

A BEAUTY

SHE DIDN’T EVEN KNOW WAS THERE

CAUGHT UP

IN WHAT DIDN’T SEEM FAIR

WHAT SOMEONE ELSE GOT

WHAT SHE HAS

WHAT SHE HAS NOT

WHAT SHE THOUGHT SHOULD HAVE BEEN

ASKING

HERS IS COMING . . . WHEN?

BLINDED BY THE THINGS SHE CAN SEE

NOT DEEMING HERSELF AS

WORTHY

ALL THE MISTAKES IN HER PAST

WEARING THEM ON HER SLEEVE

RUNNING AWAY

FROM THE LOVE SHE SHOULD CLEAVE

TO

ONLY SOMETIMES WANTING TO

HAVING COMMITMENT

ISSUES

BECAUSE THE ONES SHE LOVED

ALWAYS LEAVING HER

IS WHAT THEY WOULD DO

LOOSING LOVE

IS ALL SHE KNEW

BUT THE ONE THAT LOVES HER

IS PATIENT

KIND

GENTLE

ALWAYS ON TIME

NEVER LEFT HER ALONE

WAS ALWAYS RIGHT THERE

TO CATCH THE TEARS

OF ALL HER CARES

WHEN THINGS WERE GOOD

AND WHEN THINGS WERE TO MUCH TO bear

SHE STOPS

OPENS HER EYES TO THE SIGHT OF A DARK ROOM

LOOKING INTO EYES THAT SEE HER SOUL

TRANSPARENT TO THE ONES SHE LOVE

SHARED WITH THEM A STORY

ABOUT THE ONE THAT LOVES HER

REALIZING

THE ONE THAT LOVES HER

IS THE ONE SHE HAS FALLEN IN LOVE

WITH

ACCOLADES GIVEN WITH UP SNAPPING FINGERS

SPOT LIGHT dims

THE MUSIC STOPS

CAN’T BE WITHOUT HIM

STAY RIGHT BESIDE HIM

HOLD ON TO THE ONE SHE LOVES

All i really need

MAY 31ST, 2010

REALLY

YOU ARE ALL I NEED TO GET BY

I CAN COUNT ON YOU

YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE

YOU HOLD ME

YOU KEEP ME

YOU CARRY ME THROUGH

GOD

WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU

I WOULD BE LOST

LONELY

STUCK TO THE DEVIL LIKE GLUE

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THAT’S NEVER LEFT

IN THE END I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW BEST

YOU MAY NOT COME WHEN I WANT YOU

BUT YOU ARE ALWAYS ON TIME

THERE’S NO GREATER LOVE I COULD EVER FIND

YOU WOKE ME UP THIS MORNING

CLOTHED IN MY RIGHT MIND

YOU GAVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO PROVE MY LOVE

WAKING ME UP WAS THE SIGN

I LOVE YOU LORD

WITH ALL MY HEART

YOU LOVED ON ME

RIGHT FROM THE START

YOU’VE PROTECTED

LOVED

GAVE ME MERCY AND GRACE

YOUR KINDNESS CAN NEVER BE REPLACED

THAT’S WHY I SAY

REALLY

YOU ARE ALL I NEED TO GET BY

YOU HAVE ORDERED MY STEPS

’TILL THE DAY I DIE

Almost Don’t count

April 19th, 2011

The Lord is my shepherd

I shall not want

For anything

He leads me

Guides me

Protects me

From the wolf

Eagerly awaiting for me

Almost strayed away

Almost fell for the blood kiss of death

From a lost love high mount

Almost

Went over the edge

But

Almost don’t count

Pulled me back in

With the hook of His staff

In the wrong direction

I was starting to travel

Called me back

With His tender mercies

Peacefully

He restores my soul

Sat me down

In a restful place

Presenting the gifts before me

Though there will be obstacles to face

I am comforted in knowing

God is with me all the days of my life

For the Lord is my Good Shepherd

He keeps me from the edge of the high mount

The old place where I have always jumped or almost slipped

But praise be to God

Almost

Don’t count

Alone

MARCH 23RD, 2011

HE LEFT MY MOM AND ME

FOR REASONS BEYOND MY COMPREHENSION

AND MY BELIEF

YOUNG SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD BOY

DOING deeds OF A MAN

AFFECTED MY LIFE IN WAYS I DIDN’T UNDERSTAND

THE TYPE OF MEN I ATTRACTED

I CHOSE

I LOVED

WHAT I EXPECTED

WHAT I WANTED FROM THEM

THE WAY I GAVE TO THEM

JUST BECAUSE

NEVER WANTED THEM TO GO

BUT ALWAYS EXPECTED THEM TO LEAVE

DUDE AFTER DUDE TO COVER MY WOUNDS

BUT NOT ENOUGH TIME IN BETWEEN

TO HEAL AND BEREAVE

I’D GIVE THEM EVERYTHING I HAD

LOVED THEM HARD

GAVE MY WHOLE HEART

HOPING EACH TIME WOULD BE DIFFERENT

BUT KNEW IT WOULDN’T BE

RIGHT FROM THE START

BUT WHEN THE LAST ONE DIED

I HAD A WAKE-UP CALL

YOUR’E GIVING YOUR LOVE TO MEN

THAT ARE NOT WORTH YOUR TIME AT ALL

SETTLING FOR MEN I THOUGHT I COULD HELP

OR FIX

GAMBLING WITH MY LIFE

MY HEART

TAKING BIG RISKS

JUST DIDN’T WANT TO BE ALONE

HAD TO BE SEXED BY THEM

RECEIVE VALIDATION FROM THEM

COME LIVE WITH ME IN MY HOME

ALL BECAUSE A SMALL PLACE IN MY HEART WAS LEFT UNHEALED

UNSATISFIED

DENIED

LEFT OPEN TO RECEIVE LIES

MY DADDY LEFT MY MOM AND ME

ALONE

MY HEART CRIES

GOD SAYS:

HE DIDN’T LEAVE YOU BECAUSE HE DIDN’T LOVE YOU

HE LEFT

BECAUSE HE WAS YOUNG

SELFISH

SELF-CENTERED

AND DIDN’T KNOW WHAT ELSE